Title: Where has the light gone?
Author: Mi-chan
Pairing: Erestor/Glorfindel
Beta by: Kissa
Rating: NC17
Warnings: AU and some explicit sex scenes
Summary: Erestor has been attacked by Orcs and lost his eyesight.
Will his lover get through to him again?
Feedback: Yes, please: Michelle-saarland@gmx.de
Disclaimer: None of these elves are mine... they all belong to
Tolkien


Where has the light gone?

The blind eyes stared at the wall blankly, unseeing. The darkhaired
elf was sitting on his bed, hugging his knees, slowly rocking back
and forth. He didn’t let anybody close to him, not even his lover
was allowed to even talk to him. He just wouldn’t answer. 

Glorfindel was desperate. Since the attack Erestor had not spoken a
word. Not one. To no one. 
Of course it was hard for him, but it happened nearly 6 months ago.
Erestor barely even ate. The balrog slayer knew his lover would
soon fade if he didn’t do something. 
Slowly he entered the room and saw the other elf flinch at the
sound of the door opening. 

„Erestor? May I?“ He asked softly, in a quiet voice. Receiving no
answer from the blind elf, he entered the room slowly, closed the
door behind him and walked to the bed. He kneeled in front of it
and looked up at his lover. „Meleth? Please, talk to me... at
least... at least one word...“ He heard himself pleading.

Imladris’ former chief advisor burried his head in his arms that
rested on his knees, still not showing any reaction to Glorfindel.
Little sobs threatened to leave his lips as he felt Glorfindels
large hand on his shoulder, asking for permission to... to what?
Hug him? Comfort him? Maybe, yes. But what would a strong, brave
and beautiful warrior like Glorfindel want with him, now that he
was nothing more than a wreck? He had been an intelligent, witty
advisor with a sharp tongue and a glare that scared many elves that
had the ‚pleasure’ to negotiate with him. Now he was... what was
he? What was he worth? A blind elf...

„I just... I just want to help you, meleth...“ He heard Glorfindels
voice, it was closer now. He felt the matress move under the
warrior’s weight as he sat next to him. Arms slowly encircled him
and Erestor flinched back. 

„Don’t!“ he yelped and moved to the far corner of the bed.
Glorfindel gasped and stared at the other elf in surprise.

„You... you spoke...“ he whispered. Erestor could even hear the
smile Glorfindel now wore on his handsome face in his voice. How he
had loved that smile... what wouldn’t he give to see it one last
time. He sobbed more. 

„Leave... leave me alone please.“ He whispered, his voice hoarse
from the lack of use. „I just... I’m not ready yet.“ He sais.
Glorfindel nodded, but then remembered Erestor couldn’t see it. He
chided himself for his stupidity.

„Yes... as you wish. May... may I come back later? Please?“ Again
the pleading voice. Erestor knew it was accompanied by two huge
pleading eyes that looked at him sweetly. Never had he been able to
resist that look. Even now he pictured it in his mind and again he
couldn’t resist. Slowly he nodded his head and heard Glorfindels
reliefed sigh. Footsteps. A door closing. He was alone again.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Click. The door opened again. Soft footfalls. The matress moved
again, but it wasn’t Glorfindel’s weight pressing down on it. 

„What...?“ he left the sentence unfinished.

„I brought us food.“ He heard the insecurity in Glorfindels voice,
it even was slightly shaky. „Are you hungry?“

„I don’t know...“ Erestor shruged. He smelled the food, inwardly he
nearly had to smile. Glorfindel had brought his favorites. First he
had smelled the strawberries with whipped cream. Then the fried
vegetables... he was hungry. „I think so...“ He slowly said and
lifted his head, turning it in Glorfindels direction.

„Great! I brought your favorite food, I thought you’d like that...
“ The blonde said. He then scratched the back of his head, at a
loss of what to do next. „May I... maybe... feed you?“ He asked.
Erestor gasped.

„I am not a child.“ He said, feeling slightly hurt. Glorfindel
cringed at the sound of his lover’s voice. 

„I did not mean it like that, Erestor! I know you can eat by
yourself, but... I... I don’t know. I wanted to have a nice,
comfortable evening with you in my arms. I didn’t really think when
I asked to feed you. I am sorry.“ He apologized.

„I know. I know you did not mean it like that. I’m sorry I snapped
at you.“ Erestor answered.

„It’s alright... I understand. It must be hard for you... I know
you’re not as helpless as it might seem to some.“ He smiled as he
passed a plate with food to Erestor and watched him eat slowly.
Erestor did have a few problems, but all in all it worked quite
well. 

„You could... feed me strawberries, though.“ Erestor said shyly as
he was finished. Maybe Glorfindel really meant it and still wanted
him. As a lover. He heard Glorfindels excitement in his voice as he
answered.

„Really? I... you allow me?“ He asked and Erestor nearly smiled
again as he nodded. He felt Glorfindel move behind him. „Lean
against my chest... Aye, like this.“ He did as he was asked and
sighed. It did indeed feel good to be in his lover’s arms once
again. He rested his head back against the warriors muscular chest.
„Open up...“ He opened his mouth as he was told to, smiling at the
sweet voice Glorfindel used. Oh he had missed his lover... Why had
he locked Glorfindel out? Obviously it had hurt the blonde elf. 

„Glorfindel? I am... I am really sorry for...“ he shruged. No word
came to his mind.

„It’s alright. There’s nothing to be sorry for, I understand you. I
don’t know what I would have reacted like.“ Glorfindel admitted. 

„Will you stay for the night?“ 

„If you want me to stay, of course. But then you won’t get rid of
me that easily anymore.“ The warrior laughed and even Erestor
smiled. 

„I don’t want to get rid of you at all. If I could I would keep you
here in my bed all the time...“ he whispered, cuddling closer.
Glorfindel put the empty plates on the floor and hugged the fragile
looking elf very close.

„Did you really think I wouldn’t want you anymore?“ he asked.

„To be honest, yes. I am sorry, Glorfindel. But I though what would
a beautiful, strong and brave warrior like you want with a blind
elf? I mean... we can’t do things together anymore and-“ Glorfindel
interupted him.

„-Why do you say that? We can do so many things together. We can go
outside for a walk in the gardens, we can ride to the Bruinen for a
swim together, we can sit here and cuddle, I could read to you
and...“ he slowly kissed Erestors neck, „We can make love all night
long...“
The darkhaired advisor shivered. Never had he dreamt Glorfindel
would want him still.

„We could...“ he answered and tilted his head backwards. „Kiss me?
“ Glorfindel slowly lowered his head, touching his lips to Erestors
full, ruby ones. His tongue sneaked over the advisor’s lowerlip.
The large hands started to open the skinny elf’s clothes, the
friction causing the younger elf to moan, opening his mouth a
little, allowing Glorindel to enter. Another thing he had missed so
much. 

„I love you...“ Glorfindel whispered as the kiss was ended. „No
matter what, I love you.“

„I love you too...“ Erestor whispered and a tear escaped his closed
eyes. „I wish I could see you now...“ He sobbed. 

„Shhh... don’t cry. Lie down, lie on your back. Don’t think... just
feel.“ Glorfindel whispered, kissing away some tears. He slowly
took off Erestors robes and gasped.
„Oh Erestor... what did you do to yourself?“ He asked as he saw how
skinny his lover was. He traced the outline of a rib, causing the
advisor to shiver again. He thought he could see and feel every
single bone in the fragile body. Slowly he started to kiss Erestors
chest, trace the outlines of the bones with his tongue and suckle a
nipple into his mouth, after licking it to hardness. 
Erestor sighed softly and tangled his long fingered, elegant hands
into the golden strands of hair. 

„Please, Glorfindel... more, I need to feel you.“ He pleaded and
felt Glorfindels wicked grin against the smooth skin of his belly.
He again tried to imagine Glorfindels face, with exactly that
wicked, playful grin. A warm tongue licked his bellybutton and
traveled lower even, causing Erestors breath to hitch in
anticipation.

„Patience...“ Glorfindel whispered as he kissed and caressed the
inside of Erestors thighs, licking here and there, but carefully
avoiding the hard shaft, making Erestor mewl in frustration. „May I
take you?“ he asked the darkhaired elf.

„Anything... do anything you want, but DO something!“ Erestor
moaned, gripping the bedsheets thightly. Glorfindel smiled amusedly
and reached for the vial of oil in the nightstand. Coating his
fingers, he carefully circled the small entrance to his lovers
body.

„Erestor... shh, relax now... You know I won’t hurt you.“ He
whispered as Erestor tensed all over. One finger slipped inside the
thight channel slowly. Carefully he probed the insides, searching
the spot that would *make* Erestor relax. As he found this, Erestor
moaned his name. A second finger strecthed the darkhaired elf, and
he took a deep breath.

„Please Glorfindel... faster, I need you!“ he whispered huskily.
Three fingers and he felt so full already... 4 fingers, he belived
he would burst any second. „Please! For Eru’s sake!“ he cursed and
heard Glorfindel chuckle. 

„Patience!“ the blonde said again and kissed his belly. „Are you
close?“ He asked, his voice deep and hoarse. Erestor swallowed
heavily.

„Very close... if you don’t do something quickly I will come
without you!“ He warned.

„Oh no, we don’t want that, now, do we?“ Glorfindel said playfully
and coated his member with a bit of oil, spilling some of it on the
sheets in his exitement and then very slowly and carefully entered
his lover, groaning at the tight velvet heat that welcomed him. I
looked up into Erestors face, seing a bit of pain in the beautiful
face, which soon faded into utter bliss.

„Glorfindel?“ As Erestor sounded somewhat lost, Glorfindel stroked
his cheek as he supported his weight on his other arm. „Please...
lie down on me...“ he asked.

„Are you sure, meleth?“ Glorfindel asked worriedly, but didn’t have
any time to think again as Erestor pulled him down slowly. Kissing
Erestor’s face he started to move inside the younger elf, with
careful thrusts. 

„Ai... more...“ Erestor whispered and moaned as Glorfindel hit his
sweet spot repeatedly. His hard member was trapped between their
bodies, the friction was nearly enough to make him come right
there. At his pleading Glorfindel increased his movements, even if
he would have liked this moment to last forever, his body was
telling him something different. Only a few thrusts later he felt
Erestory body shiver violently and felt a hot liquid staining his
chest. His lover’s orgasm pulled him into his own, whispering
Erestors name. When they both had calmed down, he looked up at
Erestor. 

„How are you feeling?“ he asked. „And... please be honest.“

„Sad.“ Erestor said, sighing. „I still wish I could see you.... You
are so beauitful... I would give anything to see your face now...“
he felt himself being close to tears again. Glorfindel took
Erestors hands and placed them on his cheeks. 

„Feel, then.“ He said. Insecurely Erestors fingertips traveled over
his face, memorizing each detail. 

„I love you, my beautiful warrior...“ Erestor whispered, leaning
forwards and pressing a soft kiss on Glorfindels forehead. He then
snuggled up against the blonde’s chest and soon slept away.


“Aye, sleep... I love you too...“ Glorfindel whispered with a
smile, caressing the soft black hair gently.

The end