Title: Eternal Vow Author: Lady Ivory E-mail: matan4il@yahoo.com.au Genre: FPS Status: Complete (unless asked for sequel) Archives: Lirimaer, Library of Moria and Melethryn are OK. Everyone else, please ask and you shall be answered by an extremely enthusiastic “yes”. Synopsis: Arwen dies and Legolas comes to comfort his old friend, as he learns about an unexpected side of the royal marriage. Canon: This is movie-based, and sprung out of my head directly after the end of the trilogy marathon I attended. It’s my first fan fic ever, so be gentle with me. FEEDBACK greatly appreciated. Disclaimers: Big surprise, I don’t own any of the characters or plots, which means I won’t get even a cent. Damn that and my emptying bank account. Oh, I forgot to mention that it’s true for all, except two servants in Aragorn’s castle, who had the bad luck of being invented by a girl with no imagination for ungeeky names. They’re welcome to sue. Special thanks: To everyone who’s agreed to help me with this fic, and there were many. Sylia, Karra, Jenny and Dawn, you’re all wonderful! Most of all, I would like to thank my little sister (good luck, sweety!) and Mori, who’s done a truly exceptional work as my beta-reader and Quenya guide. Thank you again and kisses! Warnings: In addition to the usual “hey, there are men having sex here” NC-17, I suspect I’ll get to a kind of hinting towards Mpreg as well, somewhere along the way. Enjoy! {Chapter One} Gondor’s flags were lowered to half-mast. Aragorn could see this from his bedroom window, but he could not care much about it. Later, he would have to check who it was amongst the servants at the palace who initiated this and say how much he appreciated this, but right now he could not care. Arwen lay before him in his mind. Already she was buried, as quickly as possible as was the Elvish tradition in these rare cases, and already lost to him. Despite the two years they had spent together as husband and wife, her exact features were already beginning to blur. During the first two days, all he could do was play and play again in his mind all of their memories together, her usual movements, the way she laughed...only each time he replayed her, she seemed to be fading further from his mind, changing a little each time, and he had the strange feeling that there was something he was doing wrong. A trumpet sounded down in the guests’ hall, and Aragorn paid little attention. Soon enough came the expected knocking at the door, and when there was no answer, a servant - Riddel - stepped in. “Your highness, a guest has come to see you. King Legolas of Mirkwood.” Riddel’s voice was hesitant. Once he stepped in the room, King Elessar’s contemplative figure unnerved him. He was not sure, though he was before he decided to enter without permission, that the news would be welcomed. Still, King Legolas was an old friend to the King of Gondor and the servant thought this Elf could do for his king what none of the other eulogizers could. “Legolas?” The surprise in Aragorn’s voice was evident. He had not expected any of his old fellowship friends to come. More so, he decided not to tell those who would. Frodo and Gandalf had already set sail for the Undying Lands, and there was no reason to bother the hobbits in their peaceful lives in the Shire or to call on Gimli from the rebuilding of the Moria Mines. They would all be too far, too late for the sudden funeral, and their words of solace would be... unhelpful at best. That was the reason why - despite his kingdom being only a day and a half away by riding - Aragorn had not sent word for Legolas either. He could not bear the thought of empty words spoken with full emotions that couldn’t find their target. Most of all, he did not want to have to explain, if he lost patience and rejected his friends’ comfort, why those words could not console him. The thing that lay heavy on his heart could not be shared. Yet Legolas was here, and now that he was, Aragorn's heart was lightened, just a little, for that. He stood up and, with hasty steps, rushed to the guests’ hall, down a flight of stairs, while Riddel stood still in the bedroom. Two years had passed since he switched from serving the Steward Denethor to serving King Elessar, and he was still not used to the way in which the King failed to follow the traditional ways of rulers, such as the custom of the servant always leaving the room before the king. “Legolas!” Aragorn’s warm voice resounded in the vast hall, as he hurried towards his friend. “Aragorn!” was Legolas’ thrilled answer. They embraced each other, then, smiling, looked into each other’s eyes, searching for the signs of the time that had passed since they last met, at Aragorn’s coronation. You look good, Aragorn wished to say, but then he remembered, and stopped. “It is a sad hour that we’ve come upon, my friend,” he said, and Legolas nodded quietly, his expression changing from glad to worried. “This is why I had to come, though I guessed your silence was intended.” No tone of apology sounded in his voice, only concern and the recognition of his right to be there, as a true friend. “True, I’ve not sent word. How did you hear of it?” asked Aragorn, only now voicing the question that was forming in his mind. He did not care that Legolas came uninvited, though he felt the weight of the burden that he did not wish to speak of, not even with his friend. Now it seemed that this weight upon him was smaller than the joy he felt at the sight of the Elf’s kind face. “Now, Aragorn, our lands are not so far apart that a rumor will not travel the distance in less than a week.” Legolas’ face was lit by a shadow of a smile. Some things about Aragorn were hopeless, and yet beautiful, like his strong conviction in the power of his will when he did not wish to hurt his friends. He had not changed since coming to power, and Legolas was glad of that. Aragorn smiled back, but not widely. The welcome in his eyes, Legolas noticed, was tainted with grief, and also by a deeper sorrow. From the moment the man spoke of the ill hour, the like of a shadow had come to hover over him, and his quick paces towards Legolas, his swift embrace, were replaced by a slower motion and a lack of attentiveness. After a few seconds of silence, Legolas spoke again. “I hear the baby has survived,” he said, and wondered at the lack of response from Aragorn. “Yes,” the man said, nodding heavily and thinking of something that was probably quite different, “yes, he did.” “Aragorn.” Legolas had decided that his friend had more need of him than he had expected, and his words were but a small part of the help he could offer. Still, this part must wait a little while longer, while he offered others. “You are weary. Have you had any sleep since Arwen passed away?” It was the third day since the troubling birth, yet Legolas was not surprised when Aragorn nodded, almost automatically, that he hadn’t. “This will not do. Aragorn, go now to sleep, I will take care of everything.” He slowly accompanied the man up the stairs and to the royal bedroom, stirring him gently with a slight pressure from his wide palm, spread upon the man’s back. When they reached the door he added, “Good. Now, go lie down and when I see you again, my friend, I want to see you rested.” Aragorn nodded his consent in that same mechanical manner. Then, he seemed to have noticed something. Sharply, he turned his eyes up to Legolas’. “You will not leave before we’ve had a chance to talk, will you?” he asked, though all along the way, all he had pondered about was how he could avoid surrendering to the pressure he felt to speak. He realized that very moment that he had to. If Legolas did not hear it before he left, no one would, and he would continue to dwell – endlessly – in the shadow of this silent torture. “Never,” Legolas assured him with a wide smile. As soon as Aragorn had entered the bedroom, Legolas went in search of a servant. He came upon Riddel and Shayna, a new maidservant in the castle. The Elf quickly turned to Riddel, with whom he was acquainted, and inquired about the state of all matters that needed tending. After he made sure the King’s slumber would not be disturbed, he asked Shayna to show him the way to the baby's bedroom. {Chapter Two} Looking down at the cradle, Legolas reached out to the little babe, stretching out his little finger to the child, who grasped it. “Morning,” a familiar voice spoke not very far off behind him. “Aragorn!” Legolas said, with great delight. He did not know what his friend’s mood was, nor did he turn to check with his own eyes, but it seemed to him he heard humor in Aragorn’s voice. “This little one, he’s already trying to wage battle against me,” he added in good nature. Aragorn stepped closer, to his side, and it was now evident the man was rested and felt better. Aragorn indeed had rested. After parting with Legolas, the knowledge that they were to speak soon, that this feeling of isolation that wrapped him would be broken soon, had sent the man into a deep, satisfying sleep. How long had he felt that isolation, which only now he came to admit? He was not sure, but it mattered not now. “I slept well. Thank you, Legolas,” he said, placing a palm on Legolas’ shoulder, then he looked back down at the child, “He is well rested, too, I see.” “You slept a day and a half. You really were very tired, Aragorn, and this little one,” Legolas hesitated for a second, “well, we kept each other company.” And with that he smiled. “Oh,” Aragorn said, looking around at the room. He had noticed now that a bed had been moved into the room, and that Legolas’ belongings were neatly arranged on a chair next to it. “Legolas,” he said, disbelief and appreciation mingling in his voice. “Don’t you dare, Aragorn, don’t say that I shouldn’t have.” The man looked at his friend and said, “I won’t. I owe you thanks for this deed. I was not functioning well since his birth, I know, and I doubt any of the servants could have taken care of him better than you. And still,” he shook his head, “still I wish it had not come to this.” “Do not trouble yourself, my friend, I have enjoyed my time with him.” And with that, Legolas gently released his finger from the baby’s hold, moved to a table at the far side of the room, and returned with a bottle in his hand. “Would you like to feed him?” the Elf asked, holding out the bottle to Aragorn. The man took the bottle with a hint of embarrassment. Legolas picked up the child carefully and motioned for Aragorn to sit down on the bed. Once the man was seated, he placed the baby in his arms, guiding him as to the correct way of holding him. “It’s the first time since…” Aragorn began, but Legolas cut him off. “I know. It’s all right. He seems to like you still,” he said, his voice soft and amused. “Legolas,” Aragorn tried to say, and again the words seemed to catch in his throat. He was not rushed nor urged to speak his mind, and as the baby fed, he decided that he could choke on these words no longer. “It was for him she came back,” Aragorn said. “Not for me.” Legolas kept silent, only listening, his heart grasped by pain at Aragorn’s evident hurt. “She mentioned it once, a vision she had. It was him she saw, running towards me. It was for him she came back. She did not think much of it. She was on her way to the ships, to the Undying Lands. She would have gone but for the vision. I doubt she understood it herself. She really thought it was for me she stayed. And now...” “Now you thought you’d hate the child?” Legolas asked, without judgment. “No.” Aragorn shook his head. “No, he’s wonderful,” he said, his gaze full of soft admiration. “Now that I look at him, I know I would have loved him no matter what. No, it’s that I couldn’t forgive her. I drew back from her. Not blatantly, not in act, but in thought. In a way, she was already a stranger when she gave birth to our son. It’s that she’s dead, because of this birth, and I still can’t stop thinking of it, can’t blame her, but also can’t forgive.” “And you blame yourself for this.” Aragorn nodded again, without looking at Legolas. He had not looked upon him since he first spoke of the secret that lay in his marriage. “You mustn’t. Aragorn.” Legolas hesitated for a moment. Not over the words, but on whether to utter them, whether he in particular had the right to say them. But Aragorn was sitting with his son in front of him, his face turned down, yet all of his attention turned to Legolas’ next words, and he had to. “Arwen loved you. Suppose the worst, suppose that she indeed lacked the certainty, the courage to stay behind for merely a man, and she needed the promise of parenthood to strengthen those in her. She did not do you wrong, for I doubt she would have stayed for any other, even with promises of more than that. Nor did you do her wrong, for you loved her, and it is a lover’s right to be hurt, as well as to be forgiven for that. Make peace with her, and be sure that she loved you enough and is in peace with you.” Legolas’ words offered a comfort that Aragorn did not expect. When he thought of it, he could not see how he could be forgiven for his selfishness towards her. Yet Legolas did not even judge him. He simply understood. It was so good that he had come. {Chapter Three} Soon, he knew, Legolas would have to go back. He was the king of Mirkwood, since King Thranduil left for the Undying Lands, and he had lingered here too long already, helping Aragorn with daily troubles and court matters, not to mention raising the child. The infant did not yet have a name. Aragorn postponed the choice, trying to figure out how exactly he would name the child so that Arwen would be pleased as well. Aragorn sighed. He felt that the idea of Legolas’ departure was harder for him than it should have been. He was keeping himself busy this afternoon, reading the correspondence, avoiding thoughts of the moment Legolas would announce his departure, thinking of his life in the castle afterwards. Even through the mourning, Legolas had managed to cheer him with his unusual sense of humor, always somewhat based on the contrast between the kindness of his soul and the mischievous meaning of the words. Once Legolas was gone, what would make him smile, besides his son? “Aragorn.” Legolas entered suddenly. In the past few days, he had quickly caught up with Aragorn’s dislike for court manners. “There is an urgent matter we must discuss.” That was that, then, Aragorn thought. It was time for Legolas’ departure. He would not have been able to imagine the grief that fell upon him, and he spoke swiftly, without thinking. “Won’t you stay a little while longer?” At that, Legolas blinked once, confused a bit. “Aragorn.” It did not surprise him that the man knew what was in his heart. Many were the times during their quest together when they had no need for words. “I would, but there are complications...that I have no power over.” “What complications?” Aragorn’s hand clenched around the handle of the chair. “Your kingdom? I do not ask that you part from it, only that you linger a while longer.” Legolas shook his head in disagreement. “It’s not the kingdom that worries me, Aragorn, but I have already lingered longer than I should have. It is time for me to go.” “If it’s not the kingdom that troubles you, what is it then? Whatever it is, we will find you a way to prolong your stay. After all, it cannot be harder than slaying an Oliphaunt.” Legolas smiled widely at that. It was good to hear Aragorn kid, as he had not done so since Legolas’ arrival. In truth, most who met the man thought that he never was inclined towards the humorous, and Legolas knew otherwise. He knew Aragorn would shut that part in him in times of danger and distress and reopen them when he found peace. That small jest was now so precious for the Elf that he dare not relinquish the emotion that evoked it. Not without an explanation. It was one, though, that he did not wish to offer, but perhaps it was time. Aragorn had shared a secret with him. It would be just to reciprocate, whatever the price. “Aragorn,” Legolas began, “this is not easy to explain. I will do my best, however, and hope that you should understand this, and especially that you will understand that it was not right of me to speak of this sooner.” A slight pause in his speech made Legolas self- conscious that his gaze lay upon his palm, as though hiding, admitting a shame. He was not ashamed, not of this. He raised his eyes to meet Aragorn’s with pride and dignity. “It is not right that I remain here without your knowledge of the way I feel. I call you my friend, and that you are, but you are also the man I love.” The words flowed from the Elf’s mouth in his usual, melodic flow, but Aragorn did catch a small tremor in it towards the end, incredibly subtle, but at the same time very obvious to the former Ranger’s ears. He had heard the admission, yet knew not what to answer, and even less what he felt. In those few seconds that Aragorn was rendered speechless, in those very seconds did Legolas realize he had no hope to have his love returned. He spoke on, with growing confidence that the confession was right - no matter its consequences - and that there were still a few things left unsaid. “I do not ask anything of you, not even a response right now, but if you still look upon me as a friend –” Aragorn noticed, unconsciously, that the tremor was gone from the Elvish voice. “If you still wish for me to stay, then I will stay, as such. It was from our friendship that my love did grow, and it will never be outgrown. Aragorn, no matter what, I hope you still see that.” And with this last saying, Legolas turned to leave, but was stopped by a hand that reached his arm and squeezed it with great affection. “Of course you are my friend,” Aragorn said, “and always will be. Your stay is always welcomed here. More than welcomed.” Legolas released a breath that he had not perceived he held, yet did not want to be careless. “Aragorn, if there are questions on your mind, ask now. I will answer truly, and then leave you to your thoughts and to a decision made with more consideration. I’d rather leave now, with mutual consent, than have our friendship tainted by a decision we will not be able to carry out despite our best intentions.” Aragorn redrew his hand and sat back down. “What shall I ask you, Legolas,” he said, more than asked, though his head buzzed with questions that he could not yet put into words. “Nothing, there is nothing to ask or answer. You are my friend. You have been my support through this dark hour and many others. I will not ask you to leave.” A kind of numbness grew out of the buzzing, a feeling he could not understand.“ “I will leave you to your thoughts nonetheless, Aragorn, and when you are ready, I will delight of your company, as I always have. My offer for answers still stands.” And with that, the Elf made for the door. “Legolas,” just as the Elven-king stepped to the door - his hand not yet on the doorknob and his figure proud and tall in front of it - a thought had almost formed in the numbness of Aragorn’s mind, “Is this the reason you had not sailed for the Grey Havens?” Legolas turned around and, with complete serenity, he gave his positive answer with a nod. Then he turned and left. Aragorn remained seated in his chair. The thought, the one that had almost formed, it stung now at him, that Arwen had remained not for a life with him - she knew she’d have that and yet the death in it had scared her away - and Legolas remained here for him, though he was offered nothing in return. In the window, toward which Aragorn now turned, the colors of a setting sun were changing the face of the earth. It was like a soft caress, it happened every evening, through the night, and then morning rose again. It seemed a certainty, but one which he had not paid attention to before. Beyond that one thought in his mind, he still could not find anything of which he was certain. {Chapter Four} It was not dawn yet, but Legolas was restless. He came to check the door again, the closed study door, and found Riddel there, also apparently lacking in sleep. The man was not quite old, but had a maturity which the other servants seemed to lack. Perhaps that was why Legolas liked him more than he did the other servants, but it could also have been that the Elf noticed the servant’s real care for his king. “So he did not leave his study? I don’t expect he had his dinner?” Riddel’s answer did not surprise Legolas and he wondered if he should interfere in Aragorn’s brooding. He would have, had he not been the cause of it. Now he opted to look after the babe. Later he would make sure that breakfast was ready to be taken to the king’s study. **** Aragorn awoke in his chair, near the window, his faced touched by the first golden rays. He blinked, preferring to continue sleeping, but the sight outside caught his attention. The same earth that changed its face last night renewed itself now. It looked younger somehow, lighter in this early morning light, like a child being rediscovered. A child, and Aragorn’s thought raced to his first-born. In Legolas’ care still, he knew and was relieved at once. The agitated sleep had brought him little comfort, no answers, but a momentary forgetfulness. For a split second he thought Legolas had gone back already. Not a logical thought, he knew, but since when were fears logical? And this was fear, he now grasped. The tension in his muscles was evident, and Aragorn forced himself to relax by leaning back and breathing deep, slow breaths. It was not Legolas’ feelings that amazed him. No. It was that when confronted by them, he did not know how to define his own. The options that lay before him in this regard had still not shaped themselves, and all through this long night, Aragorn was dancing around them, nearing and moving back away almost in tides. It tired him and he was getting nowhere, without even the ability to see where it was that he was trying to reach. His weariness gained on him. He closed his eyes, and a light sleep fell upon him. Memories started pouring out through his dream, memories of many things, of many places, that all remained as dreams for him since his coronation and, not much later on, his wedding. Aragorn’s eyes shot open to discover that the day outside had progressed, as had his memories in his sleep, and like the sound of a distant bell - still resounding beyond the horizon, even after it stopped chiming - the thought of his coronation came to him. Gandalf’s hands, stroking with one clear motion the crown upon his head, turning to the crowd, walking past the people whom he cherished, one by one; and then came Legolas. Legolas had been clad in a beautiful outfit in which he shone even more than usual. A sound, maybe the beating of his own heart, came back to Aragorn, just as Legolas had stepped aside to reveal Arwen. He could tell, now that he looked at her, that he had kissed her that day as he would never do again. There was a passion in him that day toward her that was later subdued into quiet lovemaking. It was never bad, but now he saw that it was lacking. What was it lacking? That thud, that blurry thud in his chest. A new wave of guilt would have washed over him, were it not for the need to correct what was still in his power to change. He had done wrong to one, but he would do right this time. He had loved Arwen. He always had and would, but she was not the one he was in love with. **** The door opened slowly. Legolas raised his head from the infant he was holding, without stopping the flow of his Elvish lullaby. Aragorn entered with a faint smile upon his lips, one which grew stronger, if not wider, at the sight. “He really is attached to you.” “Shhh… speak lower. He has almost fallen asleep.” Legolas stood near the cradle, rocking the babe in his arms. “I’ll lay him down and we shall speak, but not in here.” Aragorn nodded in agreement, and quickly, though not abruptly, leaned toward the baby to kiss his cheek. Legolas was the first out of the door, and first to lead their way into a private hall, down that same corridor. He opened the door before Aragorn, and after entering himself, turned back to close it. Before he reached the door, he found his hand being pulled away from the doorknob, and into a tight hold in Aragorn’s hand, while the man shoved the door closed with his other hand. “Forgive me,” Aragorn asked in a low voice. “Forgive you?” Amazement was clear in Legolas’ voice. “What would I forgive you for? What have you done, that you should be forgiven?” With the same resolve that had been his own unique creation, once he set his mind to it, Aragorn did not back out, nor did he let go of his stunned friend. “It was my own fault for not understanding. Please, forgive me. Let me make it up to you, for my foolishness...” “Aragorn, what are you talking about?” The strong hand that descended from the doorknob to Aragorn’s side now rose again, on its way to take hold of Legolas’ chin. “You are not the only one in love, Legolas, just the only one with sight clear enough to see it.” And with that, Aragorn brought a great torture to Legolas. Although his very being sang at the touch – Aragorn’s touch – in that intimate spot, he knew that it was weakness, his own weakness that would take hold of him, if he caved in to his desire for the man, long kept at bay, when Aragorn would seek him out of need and loneliness. “Aragorn, just the other day you spoke of Arwen...” He was immediately hushed by a thumb moving across his lips. Aragorn looked deep in Legolas’ eyes and told him his mistake, “She was a love, a love and nothing more than that, and I was a fool for not understanding. Legolas, I don’t know when I fell in love with you, or why I could not see it, but I do know now. Please, believe me.” And though he wanted to, because he wanted to, Legolas didn’t. The thumb moving in slow circles over his mouth was replaced with Aragorn’s lips, sweet and moist. Tickling. Awakening sensations. He did not know, Legolas thought as he struggled with himself, Aragorn did not know what it meant for the Elves to go to bed with one another. It was more than wedding vows. It was the dedication of the heart and soul to another person. If Legolas’ love had hurt until now, then when Aragorn awoke from this phase of delusion, when he wanted a return to mere friendship, then Legolas’ love would pain him, would tear him apart, until it killed him. And yet, those lips...Those lips that grew hungrier in their demands, that moved deeper, opening his mouth. Those kisses now reciprocated by his own, his lips parted by a tongue and an eagerness to feel Aragorn entirely. He could not push away this man whom he had loved for so long. This man with whom he would go to bed now, who will be the ruin of him, whom he could learn to hate before his dying was complete. And for the second time since he arrived at Minas Tirith, Legolas decided to take a chance, whatever the consequences. Beyond all the love he needed from Aragorn, he was not able to take from Aragorn, from his love, the solace that the man had requested of him, even if he did not fully understand what it was he asked of the Elf. Already Aragorn’s hands began to roam deep into the blond hair, just beneath the braids, along the earlobes, and to those pointed peaks, and all the time, devouring Legolas’ mouth, seeking out its warmth, then drawing back and allowing passage into his own. Aragorn drew back from Legolas and moved his kisses to the side, along the strong jaw line, down to the neck, exploring the taste, the small twists and motions of muscle beneath liquid-white skin, then up again, following the hot rush of blood in the veins, and towards one pointed peak. “Aragorn,” the whisper from Legolas’ mouth was barely that, “It feels so...” and a gasp for air. Legolas had not known anyone before this man, had never known Aragorn could make him feel the way he did, a feeling he would not be able to describe, not in all his immortal years, but he had passed on that, and he passed on words and on any other sound as he gave in to his own end. Slowly and relentlessly, Aragorn guided their bodies to the floor, to the white fur carpet, so soft, in front of the burning fireplace. Legolas knew not how Aragorn had managed it, but there they were, lying in his soft, white and blazing destruction. And what a sweet destruction it was, as Legolas moved his hands to the nape of Aragorn’s neck, feeling through the silky brown hair, clenching it when the man found the most sensitive spot in his ear, just beneath the upper fold of that pointed peak, never to be of the same innocence that once it was. Everything in Legolas’ body pulsed, and to this rhythm he wrapped his legs around Aragorn’s, ground against him, as though unsure, as though he could inflict his passion on Aragorn with this frenzied movement, and it was good. Legolas almost purred but again ran out of breath. It was good, his hands now feverishly undoing his love’s clothes, no buttons, no rips, he peeled the clothes to reveal Aragorn layer by layer, and noticed a small vial of oil that rolled out of the stripped clothes, possibly just borrowed from the infirmary. And there was a mental note that Legolas needed to make but couldn’t, while Aragorn’s hand came forward to catch the vial, to open it with one determined motion of his thumb. “Legolas, may I...” The question’s end was buried into the white chest, above which Aragorn’s mouth hovered, now leaning in, kissing, now sucking with urgency on one nipple, now the other, and Legolas moved his head to signal yes without a single noise, but his chest heaved up and down, to Aragorn’s mouth, then teasingly away from it, as the man drew back to drench his fingers in the oil. “Ahh,” but it was a quiet scream, and already Aragorn’s finger was inside Legolas, thoroughly massaging in all directions, then slowly searching towards one, almost finding it, drawing back and inserting another finger, a third, all moving inside Legolas, whose fingers dug deep into Aragorn’s back, deeper. He could feel his love’s golden brown color stinging at his skin, then beneath his skin, his fingers beneath Aragorn’s skin, digging at his essence, and all the while a lamentation sang in his head. One ankle around each shoulder, they were falling perfectly into place. Aragorn stopped to kiss Legolas. What a gentle kiss it was, with such tenderness that it brought tears to Legolas’ eyes. “If I hurt you, say so.” And with this instruction Aragorn began a journey into Legolas’ core, filling him slowly, judging the pain that the Elf wouldn’t admit from the movements of his tilted head, until he was fully immersed in the hot, burning flesh. He stopped again to look at the sight of beauty beneath him, the memory of the coronation floating back, not even close to this, to the radiance of the face, of the white skin, played out by the fire’s flames, and Aragorn could not believe how good it was. Legolas’ eyes met his. Legolas saw it there, in Aragorn’s eyes, nearly black, and a sense of joy overcame him. He had not believed it, but it was true. Aragorn drew back from within him as Legolas held on tighter to him with arms, with legs, with a torrid kiss that he demanded from his lover, and then Aragorn plunged in, into a rhythm so beautiful, dictated by Legolas’ hip thrusts against him, the thrusts in which the Elf pulled Aragorn towards him, inside him; it was so good. He made sure to plunge at that particular point each time, in and out and deeper in, as though he were feeling Legolas with every fiber of his body, of his soul, of something beyond both. He felt the edge. Any moment now he would look over it and to the other side, and he took Legolas by his manhood with him. {Chapter Five} “Love?” Legolas’ voice was sweet in his ear. Aragorn slipped slowly away from the brief slumber, awakened through the many different spots in his body that made contact with Legolas. He opened his eyes and looked at the Elf, humming more than saying, “Good morning, my love.” A kiss was planted on his cheek, and a “good morning” followed. “Have you slept well?” “I didn’t sleep that deeply,” Aragorn answered, fascinated by the play of Legolas’ hair on his skin. “Now, Aragorn,” Legolas’ eyes sparkled with good spirit. They were close before, but there was a kind of newfound freedom they allowed themselves that morning, and the Elf reveled in it. “I can tell the difference, even if I cannot sleep myself.” Aragorn smiled. “Legolas?” he asked with hesitation, not sure how to ask his lover what he had to know. “Yes, my love?” A brilliant look of love and confidence stared back at the man in the dark blue eyes, so much love and confidence, that Aragorn’s heart felt as though it expanded suddenly in his chest. “You didn’t believe me yesterday, when I told you that I really do love you, that I am in love with you, but you do now - is it not so?” Legolas felt like he could drown in the care that beamed out of Aragorn. No boundaries would be set between them from now on, least of all by their own doing. Complete truth, always. “I was scared. I thought you only believed to know your heart, but in actuality did not.” And Aragorn asked then without anger, but with wonder, “And yet you would accept me? Even though for Elves this act means to be bound together, without a possibility of unbinding?” Legolas smiled broadly. “I am already bound to you, Aragorn. I have been so for longer than I can remember.” A slight tremor entered his voice, the kind Aragorn was starting to understand he was the only creature to have heard, as he added, “And last night...when you were in me...” He looked straight into his lover’s soul at that moment, and no further explanation was needed. With that, Aragorn pulled Legolas into a kiss, the most serene kiss, and as their lips parted, Legolas’ head found its place on Aragorn’s chest, while they remained lying there, lacking the will to leave the private hall. “I should check on the baby. We’ve been here for most of yesterday, and for all of the night. Riddel must have taken good care of him, but I should go have a look in any case.” “Don’t go.” Aragorn spoke as Legolas was already drawing himself out of his arms. The Elf stopped and smiled at him. “I must,” he said. The man rose, leaning on his elbows, and when he was very close to Legolas’ face, he scattered a small flood of kisses on his chin, exploring the jaw line. In between, he muttered something. “No.” He finally voiced his true objection. “I meant: don’t go from me. Stay here, in this castle. It’s already your home. Why don’t we make it so, officially?” Legolas looked at Aragorn with wonder. Only then – on that morning, after their passionate lovemaking – had the thought become real, that he could really stay here for good. He did not know what to answer, and Aragorn immediately understood and added, “You may not have to leave your home. I know it is much to ask you to give up your kingdom, and I will not, if we can have our lives entwined in any other way.” “What do you suggest, my love?” Aragorn moved a finger along the fine cheekbone, a short smile of delight appearing and then fading as his thoughts turned back to the task of figuring out a common future. “Suppose we united our kingdoms? You said it yourself. They are not far from each other. There will be many advantages for our people if we succeed in this plan, but most of all...” He immersed himself in Legolas’ little alcove, right beneath his neck. The Elf ran his fingers, slightly scratching the skin, over the man’s sides, evoking a low growl from his mouth. “What do you say?” Aragorn asked, breaking contact with the exquisite taste of the Elf’s skin. “I say, don’t stop.” It took the man a few seconds, but then he laughed, quietly and wholeheartedly. “Aragorn,” Legolas added, before his lover would have the chance to rebuke him in jest for the rascal he truly was at heart, “I would have to ride out to Mirkwood. I shall have a gathering with my brothers, and together we will decide.” “What if it falls through, for whatever reason?” Aragorn’s anxiety was not very clear in his voice, but it was there. Legolas smiled at him reassuringly. “Then we find another solution. We’ll find another king for Mirkwood, maybe. Maybe something else. We will be together, though. I promise.” “And do you like the idea?” Legolas nodded. “Very much so. To not be parted with you? How can you even doubt that the idea would thrill me?” And with that, he leaned into Aragorn to kiss him fully and deeply, with an urge renewed, as though all their lovemaking had not taken place, as though it were their very first touch. {Chapter Six} Legolas looked down into the royal crib. He was looking at this beautiful baby, Aragorn’s son, who, already – it struck him – possessed a few of his father’s features, and Legolas was sorry to part with both father and son. It was only for a few days, only to make sure that he and Aragorn could live out the rest of their lives together, as long as that may be, but sorrow was still there. Yet, while looking down on this child, even as he slept, he felt his heart widen with delight, his sorrow lessening a little. He reveled in the peace of his breathing, his sweet, faint smell. He caressed one tiny hand with his finger, and wondered if Aragorn’s son would miss him as well. Soon, one thought led to another, and Legolas sank into contemplation. It had been but a few hours since the couple’s first morning together, and though Legolas was anxious earlier to visit this infant, he had not the time, since the question of their future burned in their minds. He made sure all arrangements were taken care of before he came back to this room. He had three days to spend with Aragorn before leaving, and he wondered where he should spend them, in which room, in this castle that would soon become his home. Staying with Aragorn was natural now, but then again, he did not want to part with the child, either. A warm hand on his shoulder interrupted his thoughts. “Aragorn.” Legolas’ breathing stopped and returned to normal almost instantly. “You seem to always catch me off my guard here.” The man smiled at Legolas, then gestured to his son and said, “I really should choose a name.” “You’ve had an inspiration?” Legolas knew Aragorn’s doubts in choosing a name for his offspring well, as they had already discussed this matter several times. Aragorn smiled sadly and said, “No, but I’m afraid that I shall not have one any time soon, and if we wish the child not to remain nameless, then...” “Then you should simply name him after an ancestor, or another man you wish to honor. Tradition has its faults, but also its merits,” Legolas suggested. Aragorn shook his head, full of doubt. He was trying to decide whether his late wife would have preferred the child be named in this way or given an original name, and could not manage to think of a single conversation that they had had which would hint at an answer. Then again, at late, there had not been many conversations between them. Aragorn looked into Legolas’ peaceful eyes and swore to himself that no matter what, it would never be that way between them. He wanted to honor and cherish his lover, and share himself completely with him. Arwen was gone, yet she still mattered to him. Would she have disapproved of it, if he chose to honor Legolas, to give him a part in the child’s name? For some reason, perhaps wishful thinking, Aragorn believed she wouldn’t have. Aragorn finally broke the easy silence between them. “How about... Alegorn?” Legolas couldn’t help his grin. “Alegorn...? As in a combination of our names?” Aragorn nodded. “I just thought it would be nice.” Legolas’ hands flew, as if of their own accord, to grasp his lover’s face, to pull him into a gentle kiss. “It is. And I like the sound of it as well, but I fear I have no right to have my name embedded in his.” Aragorn laid his hand over one of Legolas’ and with renewed confidence, declared, “You have the right. My love... Sharing our lives means you’ll be his father as well as I. That gives you every right.” Legolas turned his gaze back to the crib. “Alegorn?” The name rolled off his tongue, and though it was still followed by a question mark, they both knew that was the name. “Look,” Aragorn whispered as the young Alegorn twitched a little in his sleep, as though in response to his new name. Aragorn and Legolas both started laughing as quietly as they could. “Alegorn it is then, little one.” Legolas stroked the smooth cheek with his finger, careful not to scratch it or wake the child. {Chapter Seven} The moon was full and blue, and Aragorn thought it as restless as he was. It had been a week since Legolas had left for Mirkwood, and two days since a messenger had arrived, carrying news of Legolas’ return. He was to arrive on the noon of the next day, and though Aragorn knew there was no reason to wander away the night, still he could not sleep. The three days they had together before Legolas’ departure were extraordinary, in the new ways they discovered each other, in their many forms of lovemaking, in the sweetness of waking up to the sound of his lover’s calm breathing in his elvish reverie. It was all fascinating and magical, always tinted by the possibility that it was but a dream, too good to be true, from which they would wake up separately. Then Legolas’ day for departure came, and it was as though it had come upon him without any warning, that unprepared for it Aragorn felt. Despite dwelling on the kingdom’s matters since then, starting to examine the possibility of the kingdoms’ union, of how it should be done, despite staying long hours near Alegorn’s crib, playing with the child, Aragorn had felt Legolas’ absence in every minute, waking or otherwise. Before his departure, Aragorn insisted that Legolas move to the royal bedchamber, insisted the Elf would have to part with the child in any case, but they had agreed that it would be best if the infant’s bedroom was to be moved to a room in the upstairs floor, not far from their bedroom. A doubt woke in Aragorn’s heart. What if he were not to return? If his brothers decided not to help him, but also to hinder his return to Gondor? It was a foolish thought, but Aragorn could not help it. Legolas was more than capable of standing his own ground, and he knew that his lover would not remain far from him of his own accord. Still... A blaze, a white blaze appeared far in the distance of the darkened land, but Aragorn recognized it to be Legolas’ horse, and without even thinking, ran from his castle roof down to the stables. In a couple of minutes, Legolas was already there, descending from the horse’s back right into the eager arms of his lover. Not a word, as hungry mouths met in great passion, hands roamed with frenzy, recalling the exact curves of bodies recently discovered, but already embedded into their memories. Aragorn soon ripped Legolas’ silver jacket off, and the Elf shoved the man back against a stable door as he felt their shared urgency, diving into his neckline. The moans from Aragorn’s mouth intoxicated Legolas, but he soon found rivalry in his lover’s ministrations. The man wrapped his hands around the Elf’s exposed upper body, teased his nipples into erection, and turned them around, so Legolas’ back was leaning against that same stable door, and without removing his lips from Legolas, without stopping his relentless exploration of his lover’s mouth, he reached down and undid the pants. Once they were off, he trailed his way down, over the neck, over the nipples and the muscular chest and abdomen, all over the hips and – while spreading the Elf’s legs a bit – on the inner side of his thighs. “Aragorn, for the Valar’s sake…” Legolas panted, a week long’s need weakening his stamina, and Aragorn responded with delight, taking his lover in his mouth, swallowing him whole, caressing him inside out, while his hands wrapped around Legolas’ hips, holding onto him, his irrational fear and extreme desire expressing themselves in the passion to draw all strength out of his love, to bring him to a new peak of pleasure. With a gush and a deep breath, Legolas came deep in his lover’s throat, half tumbling over the man, who accepted all of his fluids lovingly and supported his weight. “Aragorn...” he whispered, once he was able to catch his breath, “I missed you so much.” “No more than I missed you,” Aragorn answered kissing his way back up from just above the rich bush of pubic hair to the enthusiastic, moist mouth that accepted him back in. As they renewed their kiss with force, Legolas removed Aragorn’s thick velvet robe. He pushed down, and as he revealed the man’s dark skin in the pale moonlight, coming through the open gates of the stables and through the high windows, he raised his hips as he entwined himself around Aragorn, who mumbled his objection. “I did not think I’d see you so soon, I have no oil with me.” Legolas answered, “I could not stand another day away from you, and I was sure that you couldn’t either. I came prepared.” Aragorn drew himself from Legolas and looked at him with wonder and delight. He still had much to learn about his lover, and he would. Every day would be another step in a long journey of mutual discovery, and the thought made him tremble with happiness and disbelief. He laid a soft kiss on the tip of Legolas’ nose, another one, then a string of kisses that ran from the tip to the side of the nose, underneath a half-closed eye, and all the while he was grinding into Legolas, raising his hips a little further, finding his place between the milky-white thighs, feeling the heat that radiated out of his lover’s body. Legolas helped him with the first thrust, causing him to go in deeper than he ever did before on a first stroke, and that sweet spot was soon found like it was made for him to find it, again and again, as he felt his entire being reduced to the silent moans of pleasure that were coming from his lover’s mouth. Aragorn felt like he was mad, as though driving through Legolas would be his only key to sanity and peace of mind, and soon his pace grew quicker and quicker. The Elf was matching it, meeting him on every stroke, his organ grinding thoroughly between their bodies. Legolas’ hands clenched around Aragorn, and the man’s around the Elf, and when Aragorn fell into an abyss of release and satisfaction, so did Legolas, and both, still as one flesh, dropped onto the floor, onto the robe that remained beneath them. They lay there, locked in their embrace still, aware only of each other’s warmth, of the slow calming of their blood in their veins. After what seemed like hours, and perhaps was, Aragorn asked, “It all went well, then?” and Legolas hummed a confirmation. “One kingdom?” The man’s eyes were fixed on a small, bright hair on the nape of Legolas’ neck, “Then we are back to choosing a name?” Legolas distanced his head from Aragorn’s shoulder and looked at him in amusement. “Don’t worry, my love, practice makes perfect.” The man just growled in discontent. “Legolas?” he asked then. The Elf muttered a hushed “yes?” when Aragorn’s question made his eyes dart wide open. “Will you make a decent man out of me?” {Chapter Eight} A month had passed, so quickly that they almost could not grasp, and it was a month of many preparations for their joined coronation as kings of Laicelen, for the marriage ceremony that was to take place right before it, for the union of the two kingdoms and the development of the connecting grounds between them, and much more. They were especially rushed, since it took some time until the Elf had agreed. Legolas was not easily persuaded that his lover did not simply lose his mind. He knew by now both their hearts were filled with true, mutual dedication and was not certain of the need of an official ceremony. It would not necessarily add to their relationship. Moreover, a doubt plagued his mind that they might suffer the consequences of the inability of Aragorn’s subjects to understand. The Elves had accepted love between men or between women long ago, but Legolas knew that the situation was not the same among Men. Aragorn insisted that he would not be the ruler of a kingdom that would not accept his choice, and that there was an importance to their union – beyond the political one – that should not be dismissed. He was not willing to give up on anything they could share. “If one of us were a woman,” he said to Legolas during one of their conversations after lovemaking, “it would be no question.” “But neither one of us is, Aragorn,” Legolas answered, his arms around Aragorn, his manhood still inside him. They sometimes kept this position, reluctant to break contact with one another. “That should not matter.” Aragorn’s answer was decisive, mostly because he had seen in Legolas’ eyes – at the very second that the question was presented – that the Elf wanted this as much as he did. He knew that all of Legolas’ reservations were directly linked to the harm that might come to him, and he loved the Elf all the more for it, and grew even more determined not to let anyone get in their way of realizing their love. It was Riddel who managed to convince Legolas. The Elven- king was, to him, already his master as much as King Elessar was. He would not forget the way he had brought his lord – so it seemed to him – back to life after the Lady Arwen had passed away. Upon seeing the troubled silence between the two kings one morning, he had taken the opportunity, as he had before whenever it concerned the well- being of his king, to speak with the Elven lord. He was not sure how to open the conversation. Riddel was not supposed to speak with King Legolas of such matters, so he opted for a moment when they would be in a less formal situation, and waited for a time that Legolas would spend with Alegorn alone, without Aragorn’s company. When such an opportunity presented itself, Riddel spoke. He decided the best way was to attack directly the subject. He knew the cause of trouble, as rumors spread constantly in the castle, and he hoped that he could help. In a simple manner, while Legolas was playing with the child, ready to fetch anything that he might need, he spoke. He informed the Elven-king of how happy the servants were over the prospect of a possible marriage between him and King Aragorn, and that he was sure when the time came, the celebrations all over the kingdom would last for several days. Legolas looked back at Riddel. The hope that grew within him through the servant’s words did not yet take hold of his concerned heart. “Thank you, Riddel,” he said, and added at length, “But can you please tell me: what would you all be so overjoyed about?” Even to his own ears, his words sounded more bitter than he meant them, and he realized how much he had actually wanted the possibility to go through with the marriage. “Why, my lord, we would be thrilled to know that our king shall not be overtaken by the disaster of the queen’s demise. If it were to happen, it would not be the first time, and the fear that such a situation is beginning to take shape has already spread in the country. The men and women of the land will not be calmed until such time as the king takes up with a new partner to share the royal burden with.” Legolas nodded his thanks to the faithful servant, with understanding and appreciation of his subtlety and good intentions. This new viewpoint, he felt now, would give him the peace of mind to answer Aragorn’s question positively. He hoped that, as Riddel had foreseen, so indeed would the people of Aragorn’s land rejoice in their union. Most of all, though, he longed to allow himself the recognition that within this marriage, no power on earth could come between them. He could not wait to see Aragorn to bring him this small happiness. {Chapter Nine} It had been a month almost to the day since Legolas’ return from Mirkwood, and all their plans – of marriage and of kingdom – were to be announced today to both their realms. With their lands united, Minas Tirith remained closer to the heart of the new kingdom – Laicelen – and so it was decided that the palace would remain there. They stood in their royal bedchamber, now full of shared spaces, of their belongings mixed together, selecting the clothes for the announcement. Aragorn was looking at his official robes, trying to decide which one he should wear. Since Legolas came, it seemed the number of his green clothes had increased dramatically, as he knew the color to give the Elf great pleasure when he wore it. He thought of picking out a tunic, an incredibly fancy one, which reminded him somewhat of his ranger’s tunic, and at the same time emphasized the changes he had gone through. “That would look amazing on you,” Legolas confirmed, and not a moment later, he moved closer to Aragorn, his hands were already hugging his love from behind, as he whispered, “I am so lucky,” into his ear, then kissed it. “We both are,” the man corrected him, leaning back into the embrace. Aragorn’s next words came as of their own, detached of the thoughts running through his mind. “It’s been a long way, has it not?” Legolas responded without much thought, waiting for those hidden thoughts to surface. “Mmm,” was all he mumbled, tugging quickly and playfully at the man’s jacket. Then he added, “Nervous?” Aragorn shook his head dismissively. “No. But I do want to ask you something.” “Not my kingdom, I hope,” Legolas joked, “I have not another one to give you.” Argorn turned around to him and drew their faces together, as his lips matched the smile spread on his lover’s. “Not your kingdom, promise. My love, do you remember...” Aragorn’s eyes wandered a bit, caught in a memory, in a sight of splendor. “Do you remember the outfit you wore on...” “On your coronation?” It amused Legolas, the way they sometimes knew exactly what the other wanted. “Yes,” Aragorn said, and there was no longer need to ask whther his lover would agree to wear the very clothes in which – for the first time, though without much understanding – he felt his heart react to the beauty and love that shone from Legolas. It was, as he discovered, a reaction brought on, a feeling that had grown in him during their quest, a feeling starting with friendship and stemming into much more. **** “Do you, Aragorn son of Arathorn, take this Elf, to be...” “Do you, Legolas son of Thranduil, take this man...” It was as if they had heard the words, but did not; reacted to them with the correct answers, but never moved a muscle; walked through the great audience that has gathered, including many old friends, answered greetings with smiles and words of thanks, but could not see any of this abundance of love that was showered upon them. They could only see each other, could feel only each other, even without looking. It was, much like the coronation that was about to take place, a ceremony that combined the traditions of Elves and Men, thus making it an oddly long one. It was odd, because no one seemed to care. Riddel had been correct in his forecast, and as celebrations of one day were announced, the people of both kingdoms demanded they be prolonged. They kissed; they spoke, danced, and entertained the many guests and subjects that came to witness the occasion. It was extremely unreal, yet it was – all that was. Aragorn and Legolas’ hands clasped together as they walked through the audience. The wedding took place outside, the festive dinner took place inside one hall, and the coronation was to take place in another, much larger hall. The morning before the wedding, their biggest surprise arrived in the form of Gandalf and Frodo, waiting to see them. The wizard refused to answer any questions as to how and the sort, but agreed to say that though the journey to the Undying Lands was a final one, there were few things which were truly final for a man already dead and reborn. It did not matter how it came about, since simply seeing their old friends had filled Legolas and Aragorn with joy. Gandalf was asked to conduct both ceremonies, and in his usual way he hinted that he already supposed the job to be his. That afternoon, the hobbits and Gimli had arrived as well, and there were no limits to their joy at reunion. Frodo and Sam spent most of the evening catching up, secluding themselves a little from the rest of the company. Gandalf waited until all other friends retired, then sat down to speak with the new couple. He spoke of the future, of children and death, of joy and sorrow; he laid out before them the possibilities that stood before them, without offering guidance, leaving all decisions to them. Then he smiled at them and reassured them that, come what may, they would have their happiness. With that, he retired, leaving Aragorn and Legolas to make their choices. There was little doubt in either’s mind. They would receive Gandalf’s gift, the ability to have a child, and Aragorn knew there was no point in arguing with Legolas over who should receive this ability. He did not wish to watch Legolas go through the physical pain, but knew he could not win this argument. The Elf was far fiercer than he in insisting that his immortal body would adapt better to pregnancy. It troubled Aragorn that so much pain was still awaiting Legolas, further down their paths ever intertwined, for the man would eventually pass away. Legolas would take Gimli with him to the Undying Lands. There he would face a life without the man again, a life that would send his heart racing towards his doom. It was unthinkable to Aragorn, that during their years of friendship, Legolas knew he would never have his love returned, yet it did not break his heart. The knowledge that Aragorn was alive and well, loved and happy, even though he was not with him, was enough to sustain the Elf’s life. Yet, when his time would come, nothing could save his love from death. That life, that Legolas would choose to face alone, would tick away, slowly and agonizingly, until the process was complete, and his broken heart tolled him with his life, without anyone’s knowledge. They would meet again, Gandalf had promised, on white shores unimaginable to them as yet, and there, they would never be separated again. There was no justice in it. Fate angered Aragorn still, for it was Legolas who had first suffered the unrequited, and Legolas who, again, had to go without him at the end. A look into Legolas’ eyes made it clear, though, that his love had accepted this fate with the compassion of which only one who never dared to hope for better was capable. Their lips met, and Aragorn’s warm and salty tears ran down both faces and into the taste of the kiss. **** “Do you, Aragorn...do you, Legolas?” And a kiss to seal their eternal vow.