Title: Seasamin 
Author: Hazel (eowyn_maiden_of_the_rohirrim@hotmail.com)
Rating: NC-17 
Warning: Self inflicted strangulation. 
Pairing: Haldir/Legolas
Summary: Haldir is suffereing from unrequited love for a certain prince of 
Mirkwood, finds his release by the only way he finds pleasurable, 
autoerotic asphyxiation. Legolas on a trip to Lothlorien discovers the 
march warden's fetish for self pleasure and also his love for him.
 
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters here, they all belong to 
tolkien and well i wish they were mine but theyre not. this is purely fiction 
and meant to be so. so dont sue me its all just for fun.
so i hope you enjoy it and i'd be glad of any comments.

Translation for all elvish is at the end of the story.



Seasamin (My Pleasure)
by Hazel



Haldir during the struggle had come out with a few scrapes but nothing 
serious, he was glad that he had been there for the prince of mirkwood 
wouldnt have been so lucky had he not been passing at the moment the 
orcs had chosen to attack. Legolas had been outnumbered and although he 
was a skilled warrior, having only a few arrows left in his quiver he was at 
a disadvantage. The orc threat had been over come quickly and the 
disheveled prince was checking himself for wounds, he was satisfied that 
he had oly suffered a few minor cuts and bruises that would quickly fade 
with his healing abilities. 

Haldir watched Legolas closely as he walked around the corpses of the 
dead orcs collecting his arrows so he could have them cleaned and use 
them again. The way the young prince's hair had been messed up made 
him all the more desireable to Haldir. He was something of a sight to 
behold with his tunic torn in several places along the sleeves showing 
where the cruel weapons had cut his pale flesh. The wounds having all but 
healed already. 

Haldir felt himself becoming aroused at the sight of the young prince, he 
had long desired the young elf, eversince first meeting him on a passing 
visit to Mirkwood some years ago before he had reached his maturity. 
Even now Legolas was far younger than he was but that didnt matter to 
him, he had strong feelings for the young prince. But his standings as 
March Warden of Lothlorien prevented him from seeking out the 
affections of the lord of Mirkwood. Since the first time he had laid eyes on 
the elf he knew he wanted him. And it had haunted Haldir's dreams ever 
since and it also haunted his waking thoughts at times aswell. More so 
when the young prince was nearby.

He'd had to make do with his memories of the young prince while he was 
suffering from his desires. Those were not always enough for him how 
ever sometimes he needed to stimulate his senses more than just to touch 
himself and think about Legolas. He knew that if he were to ever find out 
about what he did to help relieve his desires that Legolas would be 
disgusted with him. He knew that he had to never find out, so right now he 
willed his body to comply with his wishes that he could be rid of his desire 
for now anyway. At least while Legolas was in his company he had to get 
rid of his arousal. To Haldir's amazement his body complied with his 
wishes and his arousal subsided.


He watched Legolas as he walked over to one of the Orcs and bent down 
to pull his arrow from it throat, he placed his foot on the cratures throat 
before pulling the arrow out. He wiped the head of his arrow on the grass 
cleaning off the black blood of the filthy creature, before slipping it back 
into his quiver. 

Everything about the way Legolas moved showed that he was of a 
different race than Haldir, showing that he was of royal blood and not a 
mere guardian of the woods. He was a skilled warrior as well as a prince 
and his body showed that in the way he moved. His body was lith but it 
showed the strength in his small frame, he would not easilly be killed, he 
would die fighting if it ever came to such things.

Out of the corner of his eye Haldir spotted an elven belt laying beneath one 
of the orcs, he moved over to the offending creature and pushed it away 
with his foot, moving it off his prize. He bent down and picked up the belt, 
glancing over his shoulder he watched to see what Legolas was doing. He 
was still gathering his arrows and his supicions were confirmed, the belt 
belonged to him. Haldir slippled the belt into his bag, hoping that the 
young prince hadn't seen him doing so. Now he had something that 
belonged to the prince that he could remeber him with when he wasn't near 
him.


Legolas now finished collecting his arrows, walked over to where his 
horse stood. He stroked the animals neck and watched Haldir as he 
returned to his horse, he looked ill at ease. 

"What ails you Haldir?" 

"Tis nothing Legolas, do not worry yourself." Haldir told him as he looked 
at the the younger elf. His face quickly became a mask again hiding his 
true feelings, he couldn't let Legolas knew he was scared for him.

"Orcs are becoming a frequent reminder that Sauron was almost in power 
again. I doubt we will ever truely be rid of them. It is sad that they come 
closer to our save havens even now the threat from Sauron is no longer 
there." Legolas told him, hoping that the orc attack was the route of 
Haldir's fears.

"Tis so i'm afraid. I have had to double the watches on the borders of 
Lothlorien since the fall of the dark lord. It seems they come in search of 
food, and the woods seem to draw them like moths to a flame."

"Tis the same everywhere I fear. My Father suffers the same in our realm." 
Legolas said watching Haldir as he mounted his own horse.

"What brings you this far from your home?" Haldir asked wondering why 
the young prince was so far from Mirkwood.

"I'm on my way to visit Estel in Gondor. It has been some time since i last 
saw him and the lady Arwen." Legolas explained as he mounted his horse.

"Tis it not customary for one in your position to travel with companions on 
such a journey?" Haldir asked cocking his head knowing that legolas had 
probably refused and escort. He smiled as he thought about the exchange 
that would have taken place between Father and son. One thing he knew 
about them both was they both were stubborn and would not back down 
when they had made their mind up about something.

"Aye it is but my companions were travelling elsewhere and have since 
departed from my company. I am a skilled warrior Haldir and require no 
escort not into safe havens for elves and men alike." Legolas said showing 
how much he hated everyone still thinking he was a youngster and couldnt 
handle a trip to visit friends alone. "I thank you for your assistance Haldir 
but i must be on my way now, Estel and Arwen are expecting me. I have 
already been delayed enough by these Orcs so i must not waste any more 
time."

"So be it. I do not doubt your skill with a blade or bow, just becareful 
Legolas there are still evil things in this world that seek to destroy all that 
is pure. If I didnt have to protect the borders of Lothlorien i would 
accompany you to Gondor. But the Lady and Lord of the woods still need 
my protection so i can not."

"Thank you Haldir, your loyalty towards your kin is camendable."
"Aa' lasser en lle coia orn n' omenta gurtha Legolas."
"Tenna' ento lye omenta." Legolas said bowing his head in acceptance of 
Haldir's blessing.
"Namaarie." Haldir said as he watched Legolas turn his horse and head off 
on his way to Gondor.

Haldir sat motionless untill he couldnt see legolas in the distance 
anylonger before making his way back to Lothlorien. He was a long way 
from her borders but he knew that he could handle any threat that was 
going to come upon him on the way. He hoped the Valar were with the 
young prince on his journery, he wouldnt be able to live with himself if 
anything happened to him as he made his way to Gondor alone. 'What was 
Thranduil thinking sending his son out alone.'


Haldir arrived in Lothlorien several hours later just as it was getting dark, 
he was tried from a day of traveling and patrolling the outskirts of the 
borders of the woods. The Orc attack had also proved to tire him easilly, 
he knew that his weariness stemmed from the thought of Legolas being out 
there alone, after such an orc attack that could easilly have ended the 
young prince's life Haldir feared that the journey ahead may be a 
trecherous one for the elf.
He walked into the guard house and informed the next patrol that he had 
returned so that they could take over his shift. Rumil took over from his 
brother and he could see that his brother was uneasy about something, but 
he knew that he would tell him when he was ready what it was. 

"Becareful out the there Rumil, Orcs are patrolling nearby. I had to assist 
Legolas of Mirkwood with a band that had attacked him "Haldir told his 
brother as they embraced one another before he went to go out on his 
watch.
"These are dark times Haldir. Orcs are a constant reminder of things that 
have passed."
"Rumil he was alone. He is travelling alone to Gondor and I fear for his 
safety on his journey." Haldir said knowing that his brother would 
understand his feelings. He could trust his brother not to spread anything 
he said to anyone unless he was told explicitly to do so.
"Legolas is a skilled warrior brother, but i agree that he shouldnt be 
travelling alone. If you fear his safety i would speak to Lord Celeborn and 
see if you can travel out to Gondor to ensure his safe arrival."
"I'm sure you're right. I'll speak to him and Lady Galadriel later she will 
know for certain the fates of Legolas on his journey."Haldir said as he 
knew his brother was right.
"I know you will the right thing brother." Rumil said as he watched the 
way his brother stood looking distant. "I must be off now. The borders 
need constant vigil these days."
"Namaarie Rumil and becareful."
"Do not worry Haldir i always am." Rumil said and then headed off for his 
watch.

Haldir left his brother alone and made his way to his talan, ascending the 
rope ladder to his own rooms. He wasnt sure he was going to be able to 
sleep with the knowledge that Legolas was travelling alone. Haldir walked 
over to where he kept his robes and inside the closet he placed his bag 
with his prize from earlier. He knew that he had to go and settle his mind 
by meeting with Galadriel and Celeborn to discuss Legolas and his journey 
to Gondor. 
Haldir left his talan and headed for Galadriel's and Celeborn's own. He 
needed to see them and he needed to see them tonight. 

As he walked up to their talan he heard Galadriel's voice in his head, she 
had sensed his unease as he had walked up the steps that lead to her 
chambers. He stopped where he stood and he lowered his head as he heard 
Galadriel's voice `Peace Haldir, Legolas will make his journey in safety to 
Estel's realm. He will return shortly to Lothlorien to thank you again for 
your services this day when he returns home.`  Haldir thanked her for her 
news and went to leave for his own bed again. `Haldir he will discover 
your feelings for him at some point, he already suspects something in your 
actions around him. You would do well to tell him how you feel when you 
next meet.`  Haldir gasped as he thought about what she had just said to 
him. He knew that if she knew then others may possibly be aware of his 
feelings. He would just have to try and hide them better.
He entered his talan knowing that he was now alone, he knew he could 
now bathe and go to sleep, to work away his pent up desire's from the day.

Haldir undressed and tossed his clothes into a basket ready to be cleaned 
he then washed in the basin he had on a small table in the corner of his 
room. He poured the water into the basin and then took the wash cloth 
from the side and dipped it into the water, washing his body slowly, all the 
time thinking of the belt he had in his bag, the belt that was a part of the 
object of his affections. He felt himself getting hard as he washed his 
body. Images of Legolas becoming more clear as he became more aroused.
When he was sure he was clean Haldir left the basin and went over to his 
closet and pulled out his bag, reaching inside he pulled out the belt. 
Running it through his hands he sighed as he knew that it was Legolas's. 
He trembled in anticipation as he walked back to his bed and lay down, 
running the belt along his body as he thought of Legolas doing the same 
with his hands. 
Haldir closed his eyes as he lifted his head and slipped the belt beneath his 
head, bringing the ends around his throat. His heart began to beat quicker 
as he slipped one end through the belt loop and slowly began to tighten it. 
He trembled as he felt the soft leather against his skin as the belt began to 
get tighter. His breathing became laboured as he reached down and stroked 
his erection, running his hands up and down his length, feeling it tremble 
in response to his actions with the belt. He could feel his head becoming 
light as he knew he was cutting off the air to his brain. He knew that he 
risked his life everytime he did this but right now all he cared about was 
the pleasure that came with the sensation of Legolas's belt as it bit into his 
throat.
Haldir gasped as he felt his air becoming restricted as he moved his hand 
more firmly over his erection, feeling it begin to weep its first signs of pre-
cum. He was so close to reaching his peak that he knew that he wasnt 
going to get much tighter with the belt, not tonight anyway. He gasped as 
he felt himself unable to breath as his orgasm hit him with such force that 
he was still for minutes after, his vision glazed from the intensity of the 
orgasm. He reached up shakey hands and unfastened the belt as he saw 
blured blotches of light swim in his vision. He had been close to loosing 
consciousness this time and he knew how dangerous that could be for him.
Haldir took a deep breath as he let the belt drop onto the bed as he slipped 
into his dream state. He was exhausted after his release.

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Two weeks later
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On the western boarder of Lothlorien Haldir was sitting on his horse, 
watching the fields that surrounded the treeline. He had been out there for 
the last four hours and yet he had seen nothing except his fellow 
galadhrim. The Orcs seemed to have decided to try elsewhere for food, and 
now he was bored. He had been watching nothing but the grass move with 
the winds all day. Normally this wouldnt have bothered him as he was 
used to sitting around and observing the elements of his surroundings, but 
today it was proving to be too much for him. Haldir had been on on edge 
all day, he was trying not to show any of his fellow Galadhrim that he was 
suffering. He wanted to be off his watch now more than ever before. He 
knew that Legolas was going to be arriving in Lothlorien shortly and he 
knew that he wasn't going to be able to face him without his feelings 
becoming known. He was painfully aroused and he needed to find his 
release before he faced Legolas.
He was so glad when Orophin came to relieve him of his patrol, he had 
never been so relieve to see his brother arrive to take his shift than he was 
today. 

"Mae govannen Haldir." Orophin said as he stopped his horse beside his 
brother's.
"Tis quiet here today, the orc patrols seem to have left the area. For no sign 
of them has been seen for several days now." Haldir said as he sighed as 
he felt the winds pick up and catch his hair, blowing it into his face as he 
faced his brother.
"Worry not Haldir, your watch has ended and now I will keep watch of the 
borders. Nothing will get past me." 
"Uuma ma' ten' rashwe Orophin, ta tuluva a' lle." Haldir said embracing 
his brother.
"Worry yourself not brother I will not go unecessarilly into danger. Go 
now and get yourself cleaned up as i am sure that you will wish to greet 
prince Legolas when he arrives." Orophin said as he hugged his brother 
before setting him free so he could leave.
"Namaarie." Haldir said as he turned his horse, leaving Orophin to his 
watch. He had to get back to his talan and relieve his tension before 
Legolas arrived. He would not embaress himself by having him seeing him 
the way he was now.

Haldir made his way to his talan after leaving the stables, he was anxious 
to be away from anyone who would see his aroused state. As he ascended 
the tree he could feel his heart beating faster with the prospect of relieving 
his tension. He knew this time the fantasy would be far stronger than 
before as the object of his affection would be arriving in the golden woods 
shortly. Also his fantasys had been becoming increasingly stronger by the 
day. 
He stripped out of his tunic and leggings before washing away the traces 
of the forest that had gathered on him during the day. He was tired but he 
knew that he had to relieve his sexual tension before he could sleep. He 
washed himself thouroughly, knowing that Legolas would want to see him 
when he arrived. The last thing he wanted to do was to greet him in his 
present state, he didnt need the further embaressment. He reached up and 
unbraided his hair, letting it freely hang around his face as he reached for 
his comb so he could remove any tangles in its length before he washed 
that aswell. He dried his hair before going over to his bed, he knew that it 
was still damp but that didnt matter. All that mattered right now was 
achieving his release, and visiting his fantasy where Legolas knew how he 
felt and freely returned his feelings.
Haldir felt his erection throb as he climbed onto his bed and lay down, 
reaching under the pillow for Legolas's thin leather belt. He sighed as his 
hand came into contact with it, pulling it from its hiding place he was glad 
that he was alone. He didnt know how any of his fellow galadhrim would 
see him if they knew of his actions. He dared not to think about it too hard. 
All that mattered was his feelings and being able to control them when he 
was around the prince. He knew that this little act would make that all 
seem so much easier.
Haldir settled himself into the soft mattress of his bed, raising one leg so it 
was bent at the knee, his foot planted firmly on the bed. while his other leg 
layed its full length. He wanted to be comfortable as he looked down at his 
body and saw how aroused he was. He was painfully erect and he knew 
that it shouldnt take long for him to reach his peak. He lifted his head and 
slipped the belt under his neck and then fastened it around his throat, all 
the while he could see legolas sat beside him going through the motions of 
fastening it around him. He so wanted to have him doing this to him in 
person but he was too proud to ask him. He knew that he was too far 
below Legolas to even bother him with this. Plus he knew that he was 
going to be disgusted with him for doing what he did while he relieved his 
desires. 
Slipping the belt through itself Haldir let out a shuddering breath as the 
supple leather caressed his throat as it moved across his flesh. He ran his 
hand down his chest and over his stomach, feeling it clench in anticipation 
as his hand traveled lower. He gasped as he wrapped his fingers around his 
shaft feeling it pulse in his hand. He was so aroused he could hear the 
blood pounding in his head. He closed his eyes as he slowly began to 
tighten the belt and moved his hand slowly along his length.  He moaned 
as he could clearly see Legolas before him stroking his own erection while 
he tightened the belt on his throat. He began to move his hand more firmly 
along his lenght as his arousal rose. He could feel himself becoming light 
headed but at the same time he knew he was far from his release. His 
breathing became laboured as the belt bit into his flesh cuting off his air 
supply to his brain.

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Legolas arrived in Lothlorien and he was greeted by Rumil and some of 
the other border patrols. He was tired from a long journey but he insisted 
on being alowed to visit with Haldir before he was shown to his own 
rooms. He already knew that Haldir was in his talan as Rumil had 
informed him of such as he arrived. He wanted to thank him again for 
what he had done for him when the orcs had attacked. Having already 
expressed his wish to see Haldir, Rumil had agreed to show him to 
Haldir's talan. 

Legolas climbed up the ladder to Haldir's room and he knew that he 
shouldnt be too hasty in bursting in unannounced, as Haldir was one of the 
best archers that Lothlorien had. He could quite possibly wind up getting 
himself killed. 
As Legolas climbed up onto the talan, he stopped and listened intently as 
he could hear something through the closed door. His keen elven hearing 
allowed him to hear the minute sounds coming from the room. He walked 
slowly over to the door as he could make out the laboured breathing that 
was obviously Haldir. He wasnt sure what it was that was ailing his friend 
but he was sure that there was something wrong with him. 
He reached out tentatively and put his hand on the door, holding his breath 
as he opened the door slowly. He had his other hand on the hilt of one of 
his small knifes incase there was someone else in the room causing the 
guardian harm. As he opened the door he heard a strangled gasping. 
legolas walked into the room slowly and as he entered he stopped dead in 
his tracks momentarilly as he saw Haldir laying naked on the bed 
struggling to breathe. He had his hands at his throat trying to unfasten a 
leather belt that was fastened securely around his throat. As his inital 
shock wore off Legolas ran over to the bed and knelt beside Haldir, 
automatically going to unfasten the belt so he could breathe. He ignored 
the fact that Haldir was naked and covered in his own desire, as right now 
freeing him was most important. Haldir had passed out by the time he 
reached the side of the bed, and his pulse was weak as Legolas slipped his 
fingers beneath the leather as he freed the belt from around his throat. As 
he pulled the belt away Legolas gasped as he saw that it was his belt he 
had lost during the orc attack. His heart was pounding in his chest as he 
felt responsible for what had happened.
Legolas tried to wake Haldir but he was having trouble doing so, he had 
slipped into unconsciousness when the lack of air to his brain had kicked 
in.Haldir woke seconds after Legolas waved a small bottle of smelling 
salts under his nose, making him gasp for air. His eyes were glazed over 
his head lolled to one side on the bed.
As Legolas tried to sit him up and pull a blanket over him he saw that 
Haldir's eyes were taking on a vacant expression once more.

"Haldir, mani nae lle umien?" Legolas asked as he brushed the stray hairs 
from Haldir's face that was only now beggining to regain some of its 
normal colour. He seemed to be breathing easier now also.
"Amin hiraetha." Haldir said barely audible to Legolas even as he sat at his 
side.
"Haldir please allow me to help you." Legolas said as he tried to move 
away so that he couldnt look at him.
"I do not need your help. Go away Legolas!" Haldir said firmly as he 
looked away from Legolas. "I am not worthy of your help, besides you 
cannot help me."
"Do not say such things Haldir, you need help. You almost killed yourself 
with this fool hardy stunt." Legolas said as he looked at Haldir closely 
trying to understand why he had done such things to himself.
"Twas no stunt Legolas.Yet you would never understand. Leave me be i do 
not wish to talk about it." 
"I will not leave you alone Haldir, not untill you tell me what you were 
doing?" Legolas said gently as he reached out and put his hand on his 
shoulder.
"I do not have to explain my actions to you nor anyone else. Get out!" 
Haldir yelled as he pushed Legolas away from him. He was far too 
ashamed to have him touch him now.
Legolas got up slowly regarding Haldir closely as he did, moving towards 
the door of the room. He knew that Haldir needed help and quickly, the 
only thing he knew he could do for certain was to get one of his brothers to 
speak to him. maybe they could explain why he had done what he did, and 
why he wouldnt let him help him.

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Haldir closed his eyes as he heard the door to his room open after a few 
minutes. He heard footfalls on the wooden floor coming closer to the bed 
and then the way the matress dipped down as one of his brothers sat down 
beside him. He knew it was one of them from the way they smelled, of the 
forest and the soap that was common only to the elves of Lorien. 
He bit his lip as he felt the gentle touch of their hand on his back as he 
tried not to push them away. Although right now he would rather be alone 
than have to face up to what had just happened.

"Haldir what happened?" Rumil asked as he gently rubbed his brother's 
back as he heard the shakey breath and knew that what ever it was it was 
upsetting Haldir. He watched as he moved his head to look at him and he 
saw that Haldir's eyes were red from unshed tears.
"I am sure he told you what happened." Haldir said as he sat up slowly 
bringing his knees up to rest just below his chin. He wrapped his arms 
around his legs as he rested his head on his bended knees.
"Aye he did. How long has it been going on?" 
"Since i first laid eyes on him in Mirkwood. Tis has gotten worse since 
saving his life though and taking his belt." Haldir admitted defeatedly his 
long blonde hair falling down into his eyes and covering his face from 
view.
"Why didn't you say something? I could have helped you."
"I was ashamed. Besides it felt so good to do it at first."
"Haldir does he know that you are in love with him?" Rumil asked as he 
watched him shiver slightly as he was obviously thinking back to what had 
happened.
"I do not know and even if he did, why would he want me. A mere march 
warden of Lorien who has lived for millennia. I am below his station and i 
am of no competition to his family or would be suitors. His family will 
choose for him and he will marry someone who he doesnt love." Haldir 
said as he looked at his brother, hoping to see acceptance and forgivness in 
his eyes.
"Haldir i do not know how he feels for you, but i suggest you at least try 
and talk to him other wise what you are feeling is going to cause you to 
fade. I really do not wish for that to happen to you any time soon. You are 
very deeply loved brother and i will not allow you to die. Do you 
understand?" Rumil said earnestly as he looked at his brother and he could 
see that he was already feeling the effects of his actions.

Haldir nodded as he knew that his brothers would never allow him to fade, 
it would harm them far too much. He would not condemn them to the 
same fate as he. 

"Rumil could you please send Legolas up when you leave?"
"I will tell him that you wish to see him, yet i can not guarentee that he 
will come to speak with you." Rumil said as he went to get up.
"Thank you." Haldir said as he reached out to stop his brother from 
leaving.
"In future come to me or Orphin when you need help. That's what brothers 
are for." Rumil told him as he pulled his brother into a tight embrace, 
feeling how cold Haldir was as he trembled at the closeness."Maybe you 
should dress before Legolas comes back, you're feeling the cold.
"I will come to you in future." Haldir said as he watched his brother leave 
him alone once more.

Haldir closed his eyes as he unwrapped his arms before he moved his legs 
from under his chin. He opened his eyes and let out a shuddering breath as 
he felt the cold on his skin. He his ability to feel the cold came from the 
closeness of Mandos and the possibility that he might fade is Legolas 
rejected him.
He got up and walked slowly over to collect some clothes. He pulled out a 
simple pair of leggings and a pale grey tunic to put on over them. Haldir 
dressed carefully, sitting on the edge of the bed as he was still feeling light 
headed from the lack of oxygen his brain had suffered minutes earlier. 
He'd only just pulled his tunic on as he heard a soft knock on his door. 
"Enter." Haldir said weakly as he knew who it was before the door opened. 
His heart was caught in his throat as soon as he saw Legolas standing in 
the doorway. Haldir looked away as he heard Legolas enter the room, he 
didnt want to see the look on his face when he looked at him.

"Haldir look at me please?" Legolas said as he stopped a few feet away 
from where Haldir sat barefoot on the bed. He could sense the pain that he 
was feeling from the way he was sitting, the way his head was lowered in 
defeat.
"Legolas amin hiraetha." Haldir said as he looked up, his eyes red from 
unshed tears.
"Haldir you don't need to be sorry. I'm just glad that you are alright." 
Legolas told him as he tried not to reach out and touch Haldir unless he 
asked for it. Although he wanted to confort him as it was obvious that he 
was hurting.
"Tis your intervetion that enables my continued existence. Thank you for 
saving my life." 
"Haldir I would not have let you die. You wished to speak with me."
"Legolas I need you to understand that I never meant for you to find out 
this way, I did what i did because I have strong feelings for you. I never 
meant for you to see my getting gratification by harming myself with your 
possessions. I know that no amount of explanation will ever make you 
understand what it was that i was doing. But i knew i would never be able 
to be intimate with you, but my actions allowed me to be close to you in a 
way that allowed me to be incontrol of how i felt. I could not be around 
you unless i relieved my arousal. Please understand that you were never 
meant to find out about my perverted actions. I will totally understand if 
you never wish to speak to me again."  Haldir explained as he looked at 
Legolas waiting for him to respond.  He knew that he had just laid his 
feelings bare for Legolas to accept or to flat out refuse but he had to tell 
him everything before he had a chance to respond to what he had seen. He 
had to explain what it was he was doing and why he was doing it. If after 
telling him everything he didnt want to have anything to do with him again 
then so be it. But he had to tell him and get the truth off his chest. It would 
cause him to fade if he hid away from the truth and let Legolas believe 
what he wanted to, that he was trying to kill himself, as from anyones 
point of view walking in on such a situation that is what it looked like. A 
suicide attempt that was bound to fail because of carlessness.
"Why didnt you tell me how you felt?" Legolas asked as he saw the tears 
threatening to spill from the march wardens eyes. His heart ached to see 
Haldir this way, so vulnerable and afraid.
"I just couldn't, it is not right for me to feel this way about you. Your 
father would never allow such a pairing to happen. I can not offer you 
anything substantial but my undevoted love. You are required to be mated 
with someone whom could benefit your kingdom. I have nothing to offer 
you." Haldir said lowering his head defeated as the tears spilled down his 
cheeks. His long blonde hair falling into his face as he moved to sit 
huddled against himself on his bed. Wrapping his arms around his legs 
once more he took up a defensive yet vulnerable position. Leaving plenty 
of space for Legolas to sit down if he desired to do so.
"Haldir do not say such things. The time of the elves is at its end. There is 
nothing left to fight for nor is there reason that i should not fall for one of 
my kindred out of more than just love. Amin sinta thaliolle e dagor. Lle 
naa belegohtar and you are more than adequate to be a mate for someone 
like me. You proved your valor when you came to our aid at Helms Deep. 
Haldir it is my choice who i should take as a mate not my father." Legolas 
told him as he sat down beside Haldir on the bed, reaching out to gently 
touch him.
"Legolas would you really choose to mate with someone like me. I have 
nothing to offer you." Haldir said as he looked at Legolas as he felt his 
hand on his shoulder.
"Haldir you have alot to offer. I've seen the way you act around others. 
You are a caring and passionate individual. You would lay down your life 
to someone you love and care for, without question. Haldir you are 
beautiful and i would love to mate with someone like you." Legolas said as 
he leaned in and put one hand into Haldir's hair angling his head so he 
could kiss him.

Haldir closed his eyes as he felt Legolas's lips gently brushing against his 
to start with, before he felt his tongue moving against his lips. Haldir 
opened his lips to allow the kiss to deepen. As Legolas's tongue invaded 
his mouth Haldir felt his heart begining to race. He had dreamed of this 
moment for many years, but the reality of the situation was more than he 
could ever have imagined.
Legolas sensing Haldir's increasing arousal reached up from his hair and 
gently ran his fingers along the edge of his ear. He smiled as he saw Haldir 
shiver as he was aroused by the gentle caress.

"Lay down and let me show you how much I desire you." Legolas said as 
he gently pushed Haldir onto his back.
"Amin mela lle." Haldir moaned as he felt Legolas sliding his hand 
beneath his tunic, brushing his hand over his hardened nipples.
"I know. I love you too." Legolas told him as he grasped the bottom of 
Haldir's tunic and began to move it up over his chest exposing his pale 
flesh. He moved down to suck on his nipples, smiling as he watched 
Haldir squirm beneath him. 
Haldir gasped as he felt Legolas grind his hardness against his while he 
straddled his hips. He closed his eyes as he felt the contact. he had 
dreamed about this moment for so long and now all that mattered was the 
fell of Legolas's flesh against his own. Haldir moved to sit up so he could 
assist Legolas in removing his tunic, but as he moved his hands to the 
front of Legolas's own, his hands were captured by Legolas and placed at 
his side. Legolas sat up and pulled his own tunic off tossing to onto the 
floor, leaning back down he captured Haldir's lips in a searing kiss, feeling 
him arch up from the bed. 
Legolas reached down between them and brushed his hand across the front 
of Haldir's leggings, feeling his erection throb. Squeezing it gently but 
firmly he heard Haldir moan longingly as he arched against him trying to 
increas the contact between them. As he ended the kiss he heard Haldir's 
moan of protest at the loss of contact, but then he gasped and arched 
against him when he moved his kisses to his chest. Trailing butterfly light 
kisses down his chest, pausing briefly to kiss his nipples in turn before 
moving further downwards. Haldir moaned with need as Legolas ran his 
tongue slowly around his navel, long deliberate circles around it before 
dipping his tongue into it to increase his lovers arousal. Haldir was now 
panting as he felt Legolas's fingers slip beneath the waistband of his 
leggings, rubbing against his hipbones as he teased him while he eased his 
leggings down slowly. Dragging them so very slowly across his erection as 
he exposed it a little at a time, following the movement of his leggings 
Legolas followed the downward trail with his tongue, licking slowly the 
newly exposed flesh right down to the root of his cock. Haldir held his 
breath as he felt the first feather like caress of his tongue on his velvety 
shaft. He was unable to hold back a moan so raw with emotion when 
Legolas finally dragged his tongue along the length of his cock and ran it 
over his head, teasing the slit and lapping away his pre-cum. Haldir arched 
up off the bed and reached out and grasped hold of Legolas's hair.
Legolas smiled as he took the whole of Haldir into his mouth effortlessly, 
relaxing his throat as he began to move against him. His tongue still 
working him as he moved him in his mouth.  Haldir cried out as he felt 
himself fast approaching his climax, but as Legolas felt him about to go 
over the point of no return he eased up his actions and let his cock free, 
moving his attention to his balls, gently rolling them in his mouth, sucking 
them lovingly as he ran his hands over Haldir's hips, soothing him as he 
heard him moan. Seeing his increasing need Legolas took pity on him and 
moved his attentions back to relieving his mate. 
Haldir gasped as he came, clinging to Legolas's hair tightly as he arched 
from the bed panting as he lay spent below Legolas.
Haldir freed Legolas and then watched as he sat up and stripped out of his 
own leggings, all the while watching Haldir's reaction as his eyes were 
drawn to his body. Haldir gasped as he looked at Legolas's body seeing a 
few minor scars on his otherwise perfect flesh. As he looked at him he 
could see that Legolas was far larger than any elf he had ever seen.

"Will you let me take you Melamin?" Legolas asked as he watched Haldir 
as he moved up the bed to make himself more comfortable now that he 
had regained some of his strength.
"Do with me as you will." Haldir said as he reached out to take Legolas's 
hand in his.

Haldir turned around and knelt down reaching out to grasp the headboard 
of his bed. He could feel his heart racing as he waited for the first 
penetrating thrust of his mate. Haldir's breath caught in his throat as he felt 
Legolas run his hands over his buttocks smoothing his hands carefully 
over him before he felt something cool and wet touch his opening. At the 
first touch he knew that it was the elven oil that he used many times 
himself. The way it smelled of the forest and mountain rivers, he knew 
that Legolas must carry it with him at all times in his bag, like he did 
himself.
Haldir groaned as he felt Legolas's fingers running over his entrance 
preparing him for the first penetrating thrust. He gasped and then held his 
breath as he felt the first of his fingers enter his body, gently stroking him 
probing his body and caoting him with the oil, before he slipped a second 
finger into him, scissoring them inside him. Haldir cried out and clung to 
the headboard more tightly as he felt Legolas's fingers brush against his 
prostate. Driving him closer and closer to the edge with each movement.  
Haldir arched his back as he felt Legolas brush his prostate several times 
with his fingers. Legolas smiled as he removed his fingers and positioned 
himself at Haldir's enterance, Haldir held his breath as Legolas filled him 
in one movement. Haldir closed his eyes as he felt Legolas grasp his hips 
as he began to move within him, he knew that it wouldnt be long before he 
came to his climax.
Legolas breathed deeply as he moved within Haldir's body feeling how he 
constricted around him, he could tell that Haldir was nearing his release by 
each passing moment his breathing was laboured as he hung his head as 
relaxed his body as he moved against Legolas's body. Meeting him as he 
penetrated him him urging him on with each thrust. Haldir cried out as he 
reached his  orgasm, he felt his desire spill from his body and he knew he 
would have to clean his bed at a later time, but right now he was delighting 
in the feel of Legolas as he climaxed within his body, filling him with his 
seed.
Legolas breathed deeply as he pulled his softened member out of Haldir's 
body and then pulled him into his arms, gently cradling his head against 
his chest, brushing Haldir's hair out of his eyes as he lay out of breath. 

"Amin mela lle Haldir. Never try to harm youself again, if you ever need 
to release your tension please come to me. I will always be here for you. I 
will wilingly help you and I will never leave you again." Legolas told him 
as he felt Haldir drifting off to sleep in his arms. "Quel kaima melamin."


The End.



Transaltion for elvish.
----------------------------

Aa' lasser en lle coia orn n' omenta gurtha Legolas - May the leaves of 
your life tree never turn brown Legolas

Tenna' ento lye omenta - Untill next we meet

Namaarie - Fairwell

Mae govannen Haldir - well met Haldir

Uuma ma' ten' rashwe Orophin, ta tuluva a' lle. - Don't look for trouble 
Orophin, it will come to you.

Haldir, mani nae lle umien? - Haldir, what have you been doing?

Amin hiraetha - I'm sorry.

Amin sinta thaliolle e dagor - i know your strength in battle

Lle naa belegohtar - You are a mighty warrior

Amin mela lle - i love you

Melamin - my love

Quel kaima melamin - sleep well my love.