Title: Come to me in dreams Type: FPS Author: zilah (zilah_o_imladris@...) Rating: NC-17 Disclaimer: Sad but true: they are not mine. I just play with them. No one pays me. Warnings: M-preg Beta: Tena Pairing: Thranduil/Lindir Author's Notes: I just love King Thranduil, and for a very long time I have wanted to write about him. This plot itched in my mind so long, that I finally gave up and started to write it down. Thank you so much for your excellent betaing, Tena! Without you, I was lost. Summary: Can dreams come true? Feedback: I would be so happy if you tell me what you think. COME TO ME IN DREAMS Night was clear and serene. There wasn’t one single cloud in the sky that would shade Ithil’s silvery light. Not even lightest breeze disturbed this complete peace. As many nights before, Thranduil stood silently in the woods, staring bewitched at the clearing. Or rather, at the incredible being who danced and sang middle of the clearing, and his pure voice rang into silent night. Thranduil couldn’t move. He couldn’t think. He could only stare and feast with his eyes at the young elf and his sensual movements. He could only listen at melodious voice, tears of emotion in his eyes. Never had he heard a voice more beautiful, nor had he seen anything so breathtaking as this creature before his very eyes. The elf was completely naked and his bare skin glowed in Ithil’s light. His silvery, almost white hair floated around him as he danced. His willowy body swayed in complete rhythm, his whole being radiated joy of living. Thranduil cried silently. He cried because he knew that this was just dream. Only a dream… doomed to disappear, to be forgotten when Anar would rise again… He took few steps closer and as always, his love turned and smiled at him invitingly. Thranduil trembled. This elf was so beautiful, so tempting and he would give his life to have him. “Why? Why this is happening to me? Are you real?” “I am. Come to me, meleth nín (my love). I have waited for you… I have waited for you to love me… to make me yours.” The Elf opened his arms, his eyes darkened with desire. Thranduil closed the distance between them and hesitantly leaned closer, almost fearing to touch his meleth (love). How he wanted this elf… needed him, more than the life itself. He saw a loving smile upon his beloved’s face as his hands reached only emptiness…like so many times before. * * * * Thranduil’s senses focused slowly, as he woke. He found his pillow damp with his tears, as so many mornings before. He pressed his face in his hands, his heart aching. “Why? Why am I dreaming of him? Why is my whole being full of longing when I know that this can never be? Never, even if I knew who he was. How can I ever fulfill my oath, when I’m pining after someone I don’t even know? If he is even real…” The door opened slowly and Thranduil smiled wearily at the elf that came in. Sadron (Loyal) was his valet but also his closest friend and confidant. “You saw that dream again, didn’t you, my king?” Thranduil nodded silently. He didn’t try to deny the truth. Sadron always saw when he tried to hide something. “This will not do, my king. You have to stop this before you fade. Look at yourself; you are but a pale shadow from your former self. Saes, tell me what ails you, I will do everything in my powers to help you.” “Ai Sadron… I’m happy to hear that but there is nothing you can do. Nobody can help me. I have discussed this with the healers and if they can’t help, how could you?” Thranduil said hopelessly. He had to admit that he was beginning to worry. It was true that he was sad and weary and his whole life felt so empty and cold. But, what he could do to change the situation? He had to do something; he was the King and his people needed a strong ruler, not some lovesick fool who faded only because of a mere dream. The time was still unsettled, even if the Last Alliance had defeated Sauron twenty years ago. Thranduil had finally won his people’s respect and loyalty after King Oropher’s sudden death, despite many suspicions. He had been young; many had thought that he was too young to rule the realm but after his hard and dedicated work, he finally had succeeded. He had sworn an oath to his dying father. He had to find a wife and have children. He couldn’t dream of an ellon, no matter how beautiful. They never could marry and he would never fulfill his oath if he continued his useless pining. Something must be done, but what? Thranduil stirred his musings when Sardon suddenly spoke. “You have talked to healers but have you forgotten that there is someone who is a much more powerful healer than ours? Maybe he would help you?” Sardon said hesitantly. “You mean… Elrond.” Thranduil stated calmly. “Aye, my king. If there were someone who could ease your pain, it would be Lord Elrond.” Thranduil considered it for a long time. “Maybe you are right, Sardon. I must admit that I don’t know if I can continue this way anymore. I would give anything to get rid of this cursed nightmare. It threatens to ruin my life completely.” * * * * Thranduil didn’t waste time when he finally had made his mind. He would travel to Imladris and ask Elrond’s help. The Peredhel was his only hope, he mused dejectedly when he saw himself in the mirror. Was that weary, sad creature really he? On the road, he started to feel a little better. Being a wood-elf, Thranduil had always enjoyed spending time in open, though he had had too little time for it after he had become king. There were also nights when he didn’t see the dream at all, but to his great surprise, he found himself waiting to see his elf again. Lately the dream has changed, not much, but in a way which embarrassed him. Thranduil didn’t wake anymore when he tried to pull his love in his arms but he succeeded to kiss him, touch and caress him until they made love under the stars. Every morning he found that he had spilled his seed. * * * * When Thranduil finally reached his destination, Elrond welcomed him warmly. He noticed that Imladris was beautiful and he felt his heart lifting a little. He was sure that here, if anywhere, he would find a cure. Thranduil courteously declined Elrond’s invitation to come to Great Hall. He felt too tired to attend any celebration. Elrond had dined with him in his private chambers and they had had a nice time together, though Thranduil didn’t dare tell him about his dreams, not yet. He wanted to know Elrond a little better before he could open his heart to him but tonight was a good start. When he was finally alone in his chamber, he became restless and for the first time in his life he had to admit that he was scared. He did not fear for himself, but for his people. He didn’t want to betray them because his weakness and he didn’t dare to sleep. What if Elrond couldn’t help him? What if this nightmare wouldn’t disappear and continued until he finally fades away, and traveled to Mandos’ Halls? * * * * Thranduil silently watched the beautiful view from his balcony and suddenly felt a strong urge inside him. Tonight the forest called him in a way he never had felt before. Without thinking, Thranduil climbed down the balcony and ran towards trees. He didn’t care that he wore only loose sleeping- pants and no shoes. For the first time in a long time, he felt alive. His blood hummed in his veins as he ran and he laughed happily. A gentle breeze caressed his bare skin and he felt magnificent power of existence pulsing everywhere around him… within him… making him alive again. When he finally halted, he looked around and froze. This forest seemed faintly familiar to him. He wondered why, because this was his first visit at the Last Homely House. He continued his way, now walking silently, listening for voices around him. With every passing moment he grew more cautious, even if he didn’t knew why. Finally, Thranduil had ceased his wondering and forgot everything. He just let his senses and feelings lead his path, feeling some strange rightness inside him. Something was going to happen, something that would change his life forever. He felt it in his very core. Suddenly Thranduil noticed that he was completely alone and far away from everything. He didn’t hear a single bird singing. The night was clear and serene. There wasn’t one single cloud in the sky that would shade Ithil’s silvery light. Not even lightest breeze of wind disturbed this complete peace. Finally, he stood silently in the woods, staring at the clearing that was painfully familiar to him. Suddenly, he heard a beautiful voice ringing in the air and he scanned the area, searching his fate. Once again, he saw his elf dancing, singing to him and as always, the elf was completely naked, his bare skin glowed in Ithil’s light. His silvery, almost white hair floated around him as he danced. His willowy body swayed in complete rhythm, his whole being radiated joy of living. Without thinking, Thranduil stepped closer to the incredible being, rapidly closing distance between them. This time he didn’t hesitate before pulling his love into his arms and kissing him. This time it was real. Chapter 2. Lindir sang and played his harp and incredibly beautiful music echoed in the room. When the last note ended, his only audience had tears in his grey eyes. “That was so beautiful! You are nothing but miracle, Lindir nín,” Elrond finally said. The young elf smiled fondly at his foster father. Lindir was so happy when he succeeded to make Elrond proud of him. Elrond had raised him, after he orphaned almost twenty years earlier, and Lindir loved the Elf- Lord like his own father. Lindir had composed a song for tonight’s celebration and it would be his first public performance. Tomorrow he would join the other minstrels who lived and worked in Imladris. But before the night’s performance, he had wanted to sing his composition for Elrond because his opinion mattered to him most. “I must admit that I’m quite nervous. Tonight is finally my majority celebration and my task is waiting for me,” he whispered, smiling shyly. “It is natural but I’m sure that everyone will love your music, pen-neth (young one).” Elrond assured and hugged the young elf. Lindir was like warm breath in his cold and sad life. He had been devastated after his beloved Ereinion’s death but Elrond had found great consolation in watching Lindir grow into this beautiful elf. Tonight his foster son’s greatest dream would come true. More than anything, Lindir wanted to be a minstrel. “And you will be one of the very best ever lived in Arda.” Elrond thought. Then he remembered something. “What about your dreams? Have you still seen them?” He asked, concerned. Lindir blushed. How in Arda he could tell to Elrond about them or rather, how they have changed lately and how he finally had found a way to ease them? Did he really want to tell Elrond that he crept into woods every night to dance… naked, alone? And how afterwards… afterwards he was so aroused that it was almost painful. Every time he had touched himself, stroked himself to completion before he could walk back to the House. Lindir cringed at that thought. What would Elrond think of him then? Would he think him strange, insatiable, and maybe even cheap? He felt so ashamed about it but what else he could do. It was the only way to ease this strange longing within him. “I still see them but you don’t need to worry.” He finally said. Elrond studied carefully Lindir’s face. He was sure that young elf tried to hide something from him but he also saw Lindir’s obvious embarrassment and he didn’t try to press him. “You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to but if you ever have any worries, you can always come to me, even if you are now an adult.” Elrond said softly. “I know and I promise to tell you if I need anything.” Lindir smiled, relieved at the fact that Elrond didn’t push him to tell. He bid him good day and left the Lord to his works. * * * * “Why do I always see him in my dreams? Is he real? And if he is, what does it mean that I’m dreaming about him?” Once again, Lindir wondered this riddle but he couldn’t find the solution. He had been very embarrassed when his dream had changed and became less innocent. For so many years, the dream had always stopped before his lover succeeded to touch him, but lately it had only been the beginning… Lindir turned around quickly and once again, he saw his lover coming closer. Those beautiful green eyes were darkened with love and desire and as always, he wore only loose sleeping- pants. Lindir’s heart started to race but he didn’t try to escape, nor did he feel any need to cover himself. He let his gaze wonder upon his lover’s form as he undressed and everything he saw made his desire all the more intense. Lindir couldn’t turn his gaze away from his lover’s powerful, aroused body. “Why? Why this is happening to me? Are you real?” The elf asked. “I am. Come to me, meleth nín (my love) my love. I have waited for you... I have waited for you to love me... to make me yours.” Lindir answered and opened his arms. His lover leaned closer and kissed him possessively, until Lindir melted into his lover’s arms. The elf lowered him gently on the soft grass and pulled him tightly against him. Lindir tensed, not from fear but waiting for the unknown. “Shh… I won’t hurt you. I would love you, as you deserve to be loved. The elf whispered to him gently, caressing his flushed skin. “I… want that… want you but I have never…, Lindir tried to say, but his lover silenced him with a sensual kiss. “I know, meleth. You are mine, and mine alone… and always have been. There is no other for either of us and never will be.” Lindir relaxed hearing those words, and little by little, his lover tempted him into passionate love- making. There was no hesitation, no shame between them, and Lindir gave everything of himself to his only love. He knew that his meleth wouldn’t be offended but happy, if he showed his love to him. Lindir let his hands wander upon him meleth’s body and his heart was full of love when he heard his noises of passion echoing around them, knowing that he was the cause. Lindir wanted to remember this spellbinding moment forever and how good it felt to hold his meleth in his arms. When their bodies finally became one, Lindir wept with joy. His fëa( soul) sang in ecstasy and there was no more fear and shadows. * * * * “What is wrong with me?” Lindir had begun to worry. This had continued too long now and he had to stop these dreams. “Why am I pining after someone who I see only in my dreams? I don’t even know if he really exists. Why do I turn down everybody who tries to court me, only because of some dream-lover? Am I doomed to live alone, without someone to love? Will I ever find peace and happiness?” This night had been the breaking- point. Lindir had many suitors, both ellith and ellyn had showed their interest and he was free to accept their offers now that he was an adult. but no one had stirred any feelings inside him. He was completely uninterested in everyone and it worried him. Finally, he had decided to be more willing to accept their affection. He had danced with many elves and really tried to enjoy himself. He had even agreed to join a nightly stroll in the gardens. But no! It all felt so wrong! Finally, he had escaped when his companion had tried to kiss him. Lindir couldn’t stand the thought someone else touching him, no matter how hard he had tried. Lindir cried, as he ran. Once again, he was going to his secret spot that he had found right before his majority celebration. Only here, could he find at least a passing relief in his troubled heart. The clearing was the very same he always saw in his dreams, only lacking his dream-lover. Once again he did as every night before; he took all his clothes off, letting warm night- air caress his bare body. After long pause, he raised his voice to sing the song he had sang in his dream. Soon his body had joined in the sensual rhythm and he danced, whirling around under the stars. The night was clear and serene. There wasn’t one single cloud in the sky that would shade Ithil’s silvery light. Not even the lightest breeze disturbed this complete peace. This time Lindir still felt something different in the surroundings and suddenly the certainty hit him. He wasn’t alone. Lindir turned around quickly and his heart almost stopped. He saw the elf coming to him, his vivid green eyes darkened with love and desire. This time they didn’t talk, for words between them were now needless. Without hesitation, Lindir opened his arms to his meleth (love) and captured his mouth into searing kiss. Chapter 3. Lindir could hardly believe that this was really happening to him. But when he felt his lover’s bare, aroused body pressing against his own, he realized that his dreams had been only a pale, faltering reflection from true desire. He gasped and answered his meleth’s kisses and caresses with a fervor he didn’t know existed. Lindir felt the elf trembling in his arms, and a new, sensual power grew within him. His blood was set on fire when he realized that his meleth wanted him with the same almost desperate need. He could see it; he could see the fire that burned in depths of those captivating eyes. He could feel it; in his lover’s hands that explored his trembling body so that Lindir no longer belonged to himself. He belonged to his lover now, with his heart, body and soul. Oh aye…this was real… no more dreams, no more illusions… only mind-blowing pleasure burning between them. Thranduil was bewitched. He couldn’t resist anymore. He had to have this incredible creature and make him his. This beautiful elf was his whole world. his very reason to breathe and to exist. And now, finally his meleth was right where he belonged; in his arms, in his heart, forever. Despite his need, he didn’t rush; he wanted to remember this marvelous moment as long as he lived. Tears fled from his eyes, but this time they were tears of joy. His beloved’s beautiful voice echoed in Thranduil’s ears, sometimes moaning and gasping with pleasure, other times whispering words of love. He lowered his beloved gently on the soft grass and leaned closer. He felt the elf tensing when he pulled him into his arms. “Shh… I won’t hurt you… I would love you as you deserve to be loved.” Thranduil whispered gently, caressing his meleth’s flushed skin. “I… want that… want you, but I have never…” The elf tried to say but he kissed him softly. “I know, meleth nín ( my love). You are mine and mine alone… and have always been. There is no other for either of us and never will be.” Thranduil assured and finally he felt his meleth yielding to him. He gazed into deep blue eyes and saw devotion that shook him into his core. His meleth’s very soul was open to him, and he found it hard to breathe. Thranduil knew that the elf was giving him everything and it made his heart to weep with joy. Little by little Thranduil possessed his beautiful elf. He tasted and touched every inch of his lithe, writhing body, until he saw his meleth becoming completely undone in his arms. He knew that this was the most beautiful sight he had ever seen. Thranduil wanted to give everything he could; his love, his life, his eternal devotion. “Say it! Say that you love me.” He demanded, looking into his meleth’s eyes which were now hazed with pleasure. “Ai! Aye…You make me feel as if my very soul were aflame. I love you…only you, forever” Lindir gasped and saw happiness, brighter than anything he had ever seen, setting into beautiful green eyes. “And you are my life, my soul, my heart… I love you; till the end of Arda and beyond.” Thranduil whispered, tears in his eyes. Lindir moaned and trembled when his meleth’s hot mouth claimed him in most intimate way. Pleasure inside him was beyond anything he had ever felt. Gentle hands smoothed his trembling thighs and greedy lips feasted upon him until he sobbed and begged more. “Aye, meleth… just like that; come for me.” Thranduil whispered. His whole being longed to taste his meleth’s completion but last moment he raised his head. He couldn’t give in his desires; not yet. He couldn’t wait until he had something to ease their way; he had to use what his meleth would offer. Thranduil trembled when his meleth finally came, and he heard the beautiful cry of passion echoing in the forest. Never had he heard a voice more beautiful, and he knew he would yearn to hear it for rest of his immortal life. Carefully he gathered warm, silvery pearls of seed in his hand and studied him meleth carefully, to be sure that this was what he really wanted. Lindir floated slowly back to Arda, after his mind- blowing orgasm, and found green eyes studying him questioningly. Instinctively he knew what was asked, and his soul and heart could give only one answer. He didn’t speak, no words could describe his feelings at that that spellbound moment. Lindir pulled his meleth atop him, spreading his legs invitingly. His desire was returning with breathtaking force, making him moan helplessly. Thranduil gasped when he suddenly felt willowy arms wrapping around him, and their arousals crushed together. How was it possible to recover so soon? He didn’t know, nor did he care. With trembling hands, he started to prepare his meleth for what was to come. He lovingly watched blue eyes that were darkened with desire and love. And he moaned when he finally found his meleth’s secret spot and listened to his begging and whimpering. Lindir almost wept with relief when he finally felt his meleth’s powerful body atop him. Now… now was the moment for him to surrender and become one with the one he loved more than the life itself. Lindir cried hoarsely when his meleth entered him gently, joining their bodies, souls and hearts finally together. “Are you all right?” Thranduil managed to ask, though he felt his release too near. His meleth felt heavenly around him. He couldn’t move, he wanted to take his meleth with him on their journey towards ecstasy. “Ai… aye… saes. Make love to me… saes.” Lindir panted. His senses were overloaded. Feeling his meleth atop him and inside him was beyond anything he had ever felt. Finally, his meleth moved tentatively, sliding inside him in a way, which made him see stars. Sensual movement set his body on fire, burning him mercilessly until he couldn’t do anything but surrender to this breathtaking pleasure. “I will love you…now and always.” Thranduil whispered, starting to move slowly. Soon his hoarse cries blended with his meleth’s gasps and moans. His self-control was slowly but surely weakening. His meleth was so hot, so incredibly tight that he could feel himself drowning into mindless oblivion. Never had he felt a pleasure like this; never known that something like this existed. And when he finally heard his meleth’s completion echoing in the night air, he let the waves of his own orgasm wash over him. He felt tears in his eyes when he met his meleth’s gaze and saw blue orbs shining with unreserved happiness and love. They kissed and caressed each other slowly and gently, marveling at their bodies. Both were silent; the rapture of their newly found love had stunned them wordless. When Lindir finally let his head rest on his meleth’s powerful chest, he whispered aloud the question that lingered in his mind. “How did this happen?” “I don’t know. I can only tell that I have seen you in my dreams for a very long time and longed you so badly that I almost faded because of it. I’m so happy that I have finally found you and I will never let you go again.” “Oh! I don’t want you to let me go. I want to be yours till the end of Arda.” Thranduil chuckled. “Saes, tell me your name. I may need it sometimes though I am fully content to call you meleth… or meleth nín.” Lindir blushed. It felt really weird that he had made love with this stranger without even knowing his name. But he knew by now that his meleth wouldn’t think him cheap. They have shared something unique and extremely beautiful. Their love was not cheap or shameful. “My name is Lindir. I am one of the Imladris minstrels and who are you? I didn’t know that Lord Elrond had any quests here.” Lindir said shyly. “Oh meleth! That is because I am not exactly a guest. I came here to seek a cure for my dream. As I told you, my longing was so painful that it threatened to take my life. There were no public ceremonies, because I was far too tired to attend to them.” Thranduil said, but then started to hesitate. What his meleth would say when heard who he really was? But, after a short consideration, he decided that he wouldn’t hide the truth from his meleth. He didn’t want any secrets or lies between them. Lindir had given him everything and deserved no less from him. “Meleth? What is wrong?” Lindir asked. He noticed the serious express upon his meleth’s face and began to worry. “I’m sorry. I was just distracted for a moment. I…I am Thranduil from Mirkwood.” Thranduil finally said. His heart ached when he felt Lindir flinching in his arms. “Thranduil… King Thranduil! I… am sorry… my...” Lindir stammered astonished. He didn’t relax even when Thranduil tried to soothe him. “Lindir! Saes… don’t. Nothing has changed between us. With you, tonight, I was no king. I was merely an elf, only Thranduil and made love with you. You are the most beautiful thing ever happened to me, Lindir nín.” Thranduil held Lindir tightly in his arms, fearing him to disappear if he dared to loosen his grip. “Don’t leave me, Lindir nín. There is no life for me without you. I love you with all my heart.” He whispered, tears in his eyes, cradling young elf against his body. Finally, after long and painful waiting, Thranduil felt Lindir relaxing. “I could never leave you. Never. You are my whole life, another part of my soul.” Lindir said softly. He didn’t know what tomorrow will bring, but they would face everything together. Thranduil smiled relieved, but deep inside him he felt worry. He realized that something unexpected had happened between them. This night wasn’t only lovemaking. Their joining had been so powerful, so full of love that souls and hearts were now bound together, forever. He was happy, because he now had his beloved mate in his arms. But, he dreaded the moment when he had to face the fact that he had broken his oath. As much as he loved his mate, Thranduil was now a traitor because of him. Chapter 4. “I think we’d better to go back, meleth nín ( my love). We need clean clothes, and maybe a warm bath would also be nice,” Thranduil suggested. He put his sleeping- pants on, silently hoping that they didn’t meet anyone on their journey back to the House. What would Imladris’ elves think if they saw their royal quest wandering around, middle of night, dressed like this? Thranduil forgot his troubles, when he studied Lindir’s dressing. His meleth was so beautiful that Thranduil wanted to weep with joy when he had finally found him. Lindir saw his staring and blushed slightly. He couldn’t understand his sudden coyness. Thranduil had seen him without any clothes, after all. “You don’t have to be embarrassed, meleth. Come here. I want to be sure that you won’t disappear if I blink my eyes.” Thranduil said, and extended his hand. “I’m here, as long as you want me to be.” Lindir whispered, and kissed Thranduil softly. Lindir didn’t know if he should speak this freely with his lover; he was the King, after all. But he was sure that Thranduil would welcome his affections. The rest of his worries disappeared when Thranduil smiled and pulled him closer. Hand in hand, they started to walk back. Thranduil wondered how to tell Lindir that they were bound now. He already felt the connection between them, but he wasn’t sure if his young mate felt it too, or understood what it meant. But Lindir surprised him once more. “Would you tell me what is worrying you, meleth?” He asked quietly, unsure if he should speak this openly. Thranduil gasped, surprised but decided that it was better to tell everything. He didn’t want any misunderstandings or secrets between them. “I really am a little worried. That is, because I felt something unexpected happening between us… something more than just lovemaking.” He began to tell, but then hesitated. What if Lindir would be annoyed, or frightened with the thought? Thranduil knew that his heart would surely break if Lindir wanted to leave him someday. “What it is? Tell, me, saes.” “I… we are bound now. I’m not sure how that happened, but you and I are now together for the rest of our lives. I so hope that you can accept this.” Thranduil finally explained, hoping that Lindir wouldn’t be very upset. Lindir stared at Thranduil, first wordlessly but then he started to realize what his lover tried to tell him. Dazzling smile spread upon his face. “And why would you think I wouldn’t accept it? I am very happy if I am truly yours, in every way. I love you so much.” Lindir laughed happily, and hugged his mate. “Oh, Lindir nín. I’m so happy to have finally found you. Without you, my life had been so cold and empty. Your mere presence warms my heart.” Thranduil whispered smiling. He decided to put his fears to rest. Whatever happened, they would face it together. He felt he could do anything when he had his beloved Lindir beside him. * * * * They managed to get back without being caught. Lindir quickly ran to his chambers, but only to grab some more clothes, and then he headed back to his mate. Thranduil opened the door and pulled him in. Lindir smiled, when he noticed that Thranduil had already prepared a bath for them. Soon they both sat in hot water, kissing and washing each other. “If someone had said me earlier this evening that I would be here with you, I have told them they were insane.” Lindir said, smiling happily. It felt heavenly to be in Thranduil’s loving arms, warm water whirling around them. “I don’t want to think about it. You are here now, and that is all what matters to me.” Thranduil whispered, pulling him closer. Lindir gasped when he felt Thranduil’s arousal against his thigh. Before he knew it, Thranduil had stood up and had started to scrub him with towel. Lindir enjoyed gentle hands upon his skin, and he leaned weakly against his mate. “Lindir nín… you are incredible. I want you so much.” Thranduil breathed, his need returning with breathtaking force. “Make love to me then. I want to feel your love within me.” “I don’t want to hurt you, and our earlier lovemaking will surely cause you some discomfort tomorrow. We have to wait a little bit longer before I can love you like that again, ind nín (my heart). But I can still love you in other ways.” Thranduil said, gently carrying Lindir to bed. Lindir trembled when he saw Thranduil’s eyes darkening and bursting into flames of passion. In the very next moment, he felt warm lips upon his mouth and moaned softly into the sensual kiss. He opened instinctively and their kiss deepened, until world around them drowned into a haze of oblivion. Only this moment mattered, this frenzied flare that ran in his veins. Lindir buried his hands in Thranduil’s hair, as gentle lips continued their exploring, teasing, tempting him over all the edges. He writhed when Thranduil’s hot mouth slowly wandered lower, along his wildly pulsating vein, ending finally on his chest. Lindir wailed softly, feeling need building inside him. “Ai... meleth! I want… want…” Lindir begged, without knowing what he was asking. He only wanted this sweet torture to continue forever. Never had he felt pleasure as intense as this. “Shh… you will have it all and even more.” Thranduil whispered. Warm happiness swelled inside him when he saw his Lindir yield under his caresses. The young elf moaned his name loudly when he took his hard arousal in hand, stroking gently. With his other hand, Thranduil smoothed Lindir’s abdomen, continuing his way even lower. Finally, he cupped heavy sacs in his palm, massaging them carefully. Throughout his caresses, he watched Lindir’s beautiful face, seeing how it glowed with rapture. Only then did Thrauduil bow his head, tasting the sweet flavor. He took pleasure in Lindir’s beautiful cries echoing in his ears, as much as the heady taste on his tongue. The mixture of them was almost his undoing. “Oh… Oh… I can’t… Thranduil!” Lindir screamed, and released himself into the welcoming mouth. His heart pounded wildly in his chest and he panted heavily. Through his sated haze, he felt Thranduil pull him against his chest, holding him gently. “Meleth… meleth nín… mine.” Thranduil whispered, holding Lindir tightly in his arms, and caressing his languid body. Lindir felt so good, so delicious in his arms, writhing in the after waves of his completion. “I’m so happy… never let me go…” Lindir purred happily and Thranduil chuckled gently, stroking his hair. “I never let you go, Lindir nín. Never. Whatever happens, you are mine now and I’m yours.” Lindir was a little sleepy after his completion but suddenly his languor left him. Thranduil’s arousal still pressed against his belly, making him restless. “What it is, ind nín? Are you not sleepy?” Thranduil asked, when he felt Lindir ‘s unrest. “Not yet. I want to…” Lindir began, unsure how Thranduil would take his wish. “Tell me. You are my mate now, and I don’t want any secrets between us, Lindir nín.” Thranduil urged, and then gasped when hesitant fingers wrapped around his hard-rock arousal. “I want to touch you. May I?” “Ai… aye, Lindir. Anything you want.” Thranduil panted. This was unexpected, but he definitely welcomed Lindir’s touch. A low moan escaped from his lips, as Lindir kissed him, stroked him ever so lovingly. Lindir watched, bewitched and as his mate slowly came undone under his touch, and it thrilled him to know that he was the cause. This powerful, beautiful elf was his, until the end of Arda. When Thranduil finally found his completion, crying Lindir’s name, the young elf thought that his mate was the most beautiful sight he had ever seen. “Oh, Lindir…meleth. Come here. I want you close to me.” Thranduil whispered, after cleaning himself. He opened his arms and sighed happily when Lindir snuggled as close as possible, “Now, sleep, meleth. You are exhausted.” Thranduil said gently, feeling a slumber sneaking into his own being too. “I will. But when I wake up tomorrow, I want to wake in your arms.” “I promise you will. This was no dream. This was reality, more wonderful than any dream ever could be.” Chapter 5. Thranduil stirred with a very odd feeling. When the haze of his reverie started to fade, he realized that there was someone else in the bed with him. The nights’ events started to return to his mind, and he smiled happily. Thranduil adoringly smoothed the sleeping elf’s beautiful hair and enjoyed the warm body against his own. Lindir, his meleth (love) and now also his hervenn (husband). The young elf felt so good in his arms and Thranduil hoped that he would be there forever. But, that wasn’t possible as they had to wake up now and go tell Elrond about their binding. The Lord would surely come looking for him if he didn’t appear for the meeting they had agreed to have. “Lindir? Meleth nín (my love), you need to wake up.” He whispered gently and kissed Lindir’s cheek. Thranduil thought that his meleth was now even more beautiful than before. In his sleep, he seemed very young and vulnerable and as he stared at Lindir, his feelings threatened to overwhelm him. The king loved Lindir more than he ever thought possible. Lindir began to stir, though very reluctantly. He had always liked to sleep late, and in his present state, he was even more unwilling to return to awareness. He felt warm and happy, and he could feel loving arms around him. Lindir smiled when he heard soft voice whispering to him, and he felt someone kissing him. How was it possible that this felt so real? Finally, he opened his eyes only to find vivid green eyes looking back, full of mirth. “You really are a sleepy head, Lindir nín (my Lindir). I would love to stay here with you but we can’t.” Thranduil whispered, smiling at his meleth. Lindir blushed beautifully as he started to remember the previous night. He still found it hard to believe that he had really made love with the King and they were now bound. However, the sweet soreness in his body told Lindir that everything really had happened. He felt possessed but also loved and it made him happier than he had ever believed possible. Lindir frowned when he remembered that they needed to inform Elrond about their bonding. Thranduil sensed Lindir’s mixed emotions. “What is it, ind nín (my heart)? I can see that something is bothering you.” “I just thought about Elrond. How will he take this? I must tell you that he is quite protective with me because he raised me after my parent’s death.” Lindir said, hesitantly. He hoped that they would have Elrond’s blessings because he loved the Elf-lord like his father. Now he had Thranduil, and his mate would be the one who held his heart. “We just have to tell him and see what happens. We can’t keep this a secret, Lindir nín. Elrond is powerful, and he will know about our bond as soon as he sees us.” Thranduil said, more calmly then he felt. He knew they had many obstacles to overcome before they could enjoy their union openly. They got up and started to dress. After a short dicussion, they decided that it was best if Lindir approached his foster-father first. Elrond would surely want to hear about his foster-son’s binding from Lindir himself, not some stranger. “I can’t understand how I could just make love with you without even knowing you. I’m not usually this fast.” Lindir whispered, embarrassed. “Don’t say that! You have no reason to consider of yourself so lowly. I know that our bonding was sudden but surely, this was meant to be. Besides, how could you be fast? You were untouched.” Thranduil said, frowning at Lindir’s words. “Do you… do you really think so? I truly hope that Elrond will give us his blessing. This will be quite a shock to him. There is one thing I’m sure of though, I love you and no matter what happens, I want to be yours.” “Lindir nín, you are mine as I am yours, till the end of Arda. Nothing can come between us, ever. I have dreamed about you for so long and now you are finally mine.” Thranduil assured, holding Lindir close. “What do you mean, dreamed about me? I have also dreamed about you. I was so happy when I found out that you were real, not just a dream.” Lindir said, surprised. “I have dreamed about you for a long time now, meleth. As I told you, I came here to seek a cure for it. I was fading because my longing was so great.” “Oh, meleth! You cannot fade now that you have finally found me.” Lindir said, startled. He couldn’t bear the thought of losing Thranduil, not when all his dreams had finally come true. “Shh… everything is fine, Lindir nín. I found a cure, more wonderful than I could ever imagine. *You* are everything I need to be whole and happy again.” Thranduil whispered lovingly. “I love you, so much. I wish that I could stay right here, forever.” Lindir breathed, enjoying Thranduil’s closeness and kisses. How good it felt to be held like this. He felt so safe and warm now. But all too soon Thranduil released him, starting to get up. When they were finally in presentable attire, Lindir headed towards Elrond’s study, followed by Thranduil. They had recinsidered and decided that it was best if they both went to Elrond. Thranduil wanted to be there supporting his mate. He knew how nervous Lindir was and as they reached Elrond’s chamber, Thranduil could feel Lindir trembling. He pulled Lindir in his arms, kissing him one more time. “I want you to remember that whatever he says, he only wants what is best for you. And in time, he will learn that I love you very much.” Thranduil said softly, then gathered his courage and knocked. He heard a voice beckoning them to enter and opened the door, gently escorting Lindir inside. * * * * Elrond was surprised at seeing the King and his foster-son together. “Lindir, what does this mean?” Elrond asked, confused. He had had no idea that Thranduil and Lindir knew each other. His confusion grew when he noticed their obvious closeness. Thranduil held Lindir’s hand in very gentle manner. Elrond also sensed something else, an unusually powerful aura around them and he wondered what it meant. “We have something to tell you, Elrond. Can we sit?” Lindir managed to say, despite his nervousness. This was moment of the truth. After seeing Elrond’s silent nod, they both sat down and Lindir started his tale. “Do you remember when I told you about my dreams, Elrond?” He asked, and continued when Elrond nodded. “I didn’t tell you all about them, mostly because I was so embarrassed. Now I must. I always dreamed of one elf and in my dreams, we loved each other very much. For a long time I was sure that it was only dream, but yesterday I learned that my dream lover is real.” “What, but how? I assume that the King is the elf you dreamed about because you are here with him.” Elrond was stunned. “You are right and there is more. We met last night and Thranduil had dreamed about me. We were so happy when we finally found each other that we…well, we are bound now.” Lindir said, blushing furiously. It was extremely difficult to talk with Elrond about something this intimate. For a moment, Elrond could only stare at them. His first thought was that this was only dream, or some kind of trick. But when Elrond studied at them further, he saw the truth. Now he understood what that aura was around them. The bond between Lindir and Thranduil was the strongest one he had ever seen. Elrond couldn’t deny that he was worried. He wanted to know more about this. “Thranduil, you haven’t said anything yet. How do you feel about this?” He asked seriously, studying at the King intently. “I am happier than ever before. I love Lindir with all my heart; and I want to make him happy. I know that this is sudden, but I hope that you can give us your blessing. It is true that I dreamed about Lindir, and that was the reason I came here. You saw it yourself, I was fading.” Thranduil said carefully. Elrond’s face was unreadable, and Thranduil wasn’t sure what the Elf-lord was thinking. “I sensed it, aye. But I can’t see any of those indications in you any longer. I’m beginning to think that you are really speaking the truth.” “We have no reason to tell you lies, Elrond.” Lindir whispered, beginning to worry. What if Elrond wouldn’t accept this? Elrond noticed Lindir’s distress and his face softened into a gentle smile. “Don’t worry, pen- neth (young one). I’m not mad at you, but I want to be sure that you are happy.” A dazzling smile appeared upon Lindir’s face. “I am happy; I love him so much,” he said softly, leaning into Thranduil’s arms. “I’m glad to hear that and I give my blessings, on one condition.” Elrond said slowly. “What it is?” Lindir asked, hesitantly. Elrond’s face was now serious and suddenly the young one feared to hear more. “You are very young, and you were also completely innocent before your binding. I want to be sure that he didn’t hurt you when you made love. I want to examine you.” Chapter 6. Lindir was devastated. He feared the mere thought about someone else’s, other than Thranduil’s, touch upon him, even if it was Elrond’s. Lindir buried his face against his mate’s neck, trembling, but there was nothing he could do. “I know it feels difficult, but it still might be the best. Thus we can be sure that you are all right, meleth (love).” Thranduil said softly, cradling his mate in his arms. “You didn’t hurt me! There was no pain; you were gentle and loving with me.” Lindir whispered, embarrassed. “But you are quite slender. I am a big elf and much older than you. Try to remember that he loves you and so do I. He is only concerned.” Lindir didn’t say anything, but turned his head and met Elrond’s gaze. Was there anything he could do to avoid this embarrassing examination? “I’m sorry, Lindir. Have you given any thought that those dreams could have led you into something nasty? What if those dreams were sent to you by the Dark Lord’s vassal? You know very well that Arda is still dangerous place.” Elrond remarked seriously. He saw Lindir’s distress, but this had to be done. “Thranduil isn’t one of them, and you know it yourself, Elrond! Why else would you have welcomed him here in the first place?” Lindir snapped, but he regretted his outburst immediately. Elrond didn’t deserve the treatment like this. He had to accept this, as unpleasant as the thought was. He was an adult now and he wanted to act like one. “I’m sorry, Elrond. I know you mean well. Whatever happens, I owe you much and I will never forget it.” Lindir said, trying to calm himself. It was difficult, but Thranduil’s closeness helped him. “Thranduil is right. I do this because I care for you. You have nothing to be afraid, pen- neth (young one).” “What you want me to do?” Lindir asked with a small voice. “First, could you go and fetch me that big book over there?” Elrond urged gently, and with his gaze warned the King not to meddle. Lindir obeyed without questions. He had often helped Elrond at his study, and his request was nothing new, but today something was completely different. When Lindir climbed the ladder, he felt two pairs of eyes studying his every move. Despite that, he easily reached the book and swiftly climbed back down. He gave the book to Elrond who now smiled fondly. “You did well, pen- neth. Now I want to have few words with you both, if that is all right.” Elrond said, taking the book. “What! But… didn’t you want…” Lindir stuttered, blushing and wondering what this all meant. “I already examined you, pen neth, and I’m satisfied. If Thranduil had been too rough with you, you surely couldn’t climb to the top shelf, but you did as easily as always.” Elrond explained, smiling. Lindir realized what Elrond meant and buried his face in Thranduil’s chest, completely embarrassed, but at the same time, he was relieved that it was over. “So, you see, meleth? Everything is all right now.” The King whispered gently, holding Lindir close. Elrond looked silently their embrace. He was happy for them, but also melancholy. Lindir would very soon follow his mate to Mirkwood, away from Imladris. He would miss him terribly, but Lindir’s happiness must to come first. “Your bonding has been so sudden that you may need some more time to discuss things and adjust to each other. I have a little cabin in the Imladris woods and very few know its existence. Would you like to spend a couple of days there, just two of you?” Elrond offered. He knew that he himself needed some time to adjust to the thought of Lindir leaving soon. “I’m very grateful to you, Elrond. I was slowly dying when I came here. You were my last hope. Now… my whole life has changed. I never imagined I would find Lindir here. I didn’t even know if he was real at all and I know that he is dear to you. I won’t let him down, this I swear.” Thranduil said, sincerely. “I’m glad to hear that, and believe me, if I didn’t trust you; you would have already found yourself banished from Imladris.” “Can we go now, Elrond? I know the way to the cabin, so you don’t need to worry for us.” Lindir asked, already eager to leave. “You can go, but I want to have few words with Thranduil. Go and pack now so you can leave as soon as possible. I can see that you are eager to be alone with him.” Elrond chuckled at Lindir’s haste. Lindir said his goodbyes and rushed to his rooms. He quickly packed some clothes and after a moment’s hesitation, his favorite bathing oil. He also took his smaller harp with him, thinking that he could sing to Thranduil. Before he left, he scanned his room once more, realizing that his life would never be the same again. * * * * Lindir was surprised to see that Thranduil had already come back and packed his own things with him. “How I Arda did you manage this so quickly? I feared that Elrond would grill you for hours.” Lindir wondered. “He didn’t grill me at all and soon you’ll find out what we talked about.” Thranduil smirked, obviously amused about something. “Well, if you are ready we can go then.” Lindir said, deciding not to ask about Elrond and Thranduil’s conversation. If something could be concluded from Thranduil’s grin, it couldn’t be anything unpleasant. * * * * The cabin wasn’t far from Imladris, but it was well hidden. One could walk very near before noticing that the little lodging was there. There were no luxuries but they wouldn’t need them. They had enough when they had each other. Lindir smiled happily. Here they could be completely at peace, just enjoying each other and their newly found love. The young elf wrapped his arms around his mate’s neck when he lifted him in his arms and carried him into cabin. * * * * Lindir lay awake, listening to the rain and thinking about these past few days he had been with Thranduil. He would never forget this time, no matter how long he lived. They bathed together. They slept together. They woke up together. All the time they were together and Thranduil always kept him as close as possible. Day and night had ceased to exist, as if all of Arda had stopped. The only thing that mattered was the two of them and their love. It didn’t matter if it was day or night, when they made love, slept in each other’s arms or just looked to each other, they were too happy to even speak. Lindir felt that he himself had changed completely. He had never considered himself a sensual being, but now Thranduil had drawn out a completely new side of him, the side that Lindir never thought existed. Lindir could never get enough of his hervenn (husband). At the beginning, Lindir had been hesitant to show his need, but after noticing that he made Thranduil happy by showing his love openly, his shyness had disappeared. Only one thing distracted him at times. Lindir hadn’t asked about Elrond’s and Thranduil’s conversation but his mate’s mirth made him wonder. Finally, Lindir decided that he wanted to know. He didn’t hesitate anymore but kissed Thranduil’s cheek, whispering for him to wake up. Green eyes slowly focused and then smiled at him lovingly. “What do you have in mind, ind nín (my heart)?” Thranduil asked sleepily. “I just wondered…could you tell me what you talked about, with Elrond?” Thranduil’s languor disappeared instantly, and he smiled mischievously. “I have waited, wondering when you were going to ask me about it.” “So… would you tell me, or…” “Oh, aye, I will tell.” Thranduil purred seductively, making Lindir’s heart race. Then he leaned closer to whisper in Lindir’s ear. “Elrond reminded me that bonded mates should be equal, and I agreed from the bottom of my heart. So…,” he grinned. “When you are going to return the favor and take me?” Chapter 7. “You cannot be serious! Did he really say that?” Lindir whispered, his cheeks blushed almost crimson. “Aye, he really said that, and I agree with him. I want us to be equal, Lindir nín.” Thranduil smiled gently, smoothing Lindir’s flaming cheek. “So… so… you really want me to…” “And why ever would I not? You know I love to feel your touch on me, how I wouldn’t love to feel you within me, Lindir nín?” Thranduil asked, pulling Lindir closer. In truth, he had never found much pleasure from yielding, but with Lindir, everything was different. He would deny him nothing, ever. Lindir was so young, that he had had no time to explore his preferences, but what ever they were, Thranduil wanted to fulfill all of them. “I have never… you need to guide me.” Lindir said hesitantly, but his body was stirring with the thought. If the pleasure of taking were nothing compared of pleasure being taken, he would love to take Thranduil. He had sometimes fantasized about it, but never had he dared to ask it. Thranduil saw, to his delight, how their conversation had affected to his young mate. Hot tremors ran through him. Ah, aye… he would love to yield to Lindir… Thranduil extended his hand, grasping Lindir’s arousal; he heard a low moan escaping from his lips. Thranduil stroked Lindir slowly, taking pleasure from his panting and begging. How he loved to look at Lindir this way. The young elf in his passion was beautiful, and he tasted heavenly. “Heavenly… indeed.” Thranduil thought himself, when Lindir captured his mouth in a passionate kiss. He opened his lips eagerly, letting Lindir taste him. When they finally broke the kiss, Thranduil saw Lindir’s eyes darkened with pleasure and need. “I will take you, meleth. But before that… I want to kiss you… everywhere … right … everywhere.” Lindir purred against his lips, making Thranduil shiver. Before he realized, Thranduil felt Lindir’s hands and mouth upon him, caressing him ever so deliciously, as only Lindir could. Not one single part of Thranduil’s body stayed untouched by him, and so Thranduil yielded to his hervenn (husband) for the very first time. His control was completely lost, and he felt as his body has had its own will. Faintly, Thranduil heard his own voice begging for mercy, as he felt a hot mouth around him. Never had Thranduil known such pleasure as now, under Lindir’s loving touch. He trembled even more when Lindir’s hair brushed lightly over his burning skin. Thranduil gently stroked the silky locks, taking pleasure of the sensations that washed over him. Lindir was intoxicated with need and Thranduil’s heady taste. He had never imagined that his beloved would taste so heavenly, and now he started to understand why Thranduil was always so eager to love him this way. Lindir moaned with pleasure, sucking eagerly, and thinking that he would never tire of this. When Thranduil finally came, Lindir followed him over the edge. When Lindir finally came back to his senses, he found himself in Thranduil’s arms. Lindir blushed, embarrassed his lack of control. “Lindir nín. Don’t be sorry for your completion. I’m happy if my pleasure affects you like this.” Thranduil whispered, his voice still unsteady. He held Lindir tightly, not wanting to let him go. How he wished he could stay right here, forever. “But…but how am I going to… when I… “Lindir stuttered, against Thranduil’s chest. “Oh meleth! I can wait for you to recover. Besides… now you will last longer when you make love to me.” Thranduil happily chuckled. How he loved his mate and everything about him. He loved his loving nature, the innocence that still lingered in him, despite their bond. He loved Lindir’s beauty and his voice. “You are so good to me. I hope that I won’t disappoint you.” Lindir whispered. “You will not, of that I’m sure, meleth. You have already made me feel happy and thoroughly loved. No one has ever loved me like you. Don’t make me wait anymore. Don’t deny me this, don’t deny us.” Thranduil said gently. Lindir gathered his courage and pulled back, taking the vial from the nightstand. He met Thranduil’s gaze and saw love and desire burning in his beautiful eyes. Lindir also saw how his mate opened up to him, silently inviting him closer. “Tell me if I am doing this right.” Lindir whispered, tentatively smoothing his mate’s powerful thighs so tenderly that Thranduil could almost weep. The soft caresses showed all Lindir’s love for him. “Your touch is always right for me, meleth nín. I love to feel your hands on me.” Thranduil said hoarsely, instinctively opening his legs. He gasped, when Lindir leaned closer, kissing his abdomen. “You like this, aye?” Lindir purred, already knowing that Thranduil really was enjoying his caresses. Teasingly, Lindir brushed the rapidly hardening length and smiled happily when he heard helpless moan escaping from Thranduil’s lips. He enjoyed his new power over his mate. “Oh, Lindir…saes (please)! Don’t tease me. I want you… so much.” Thranduil begged. He sighed when Lindir seemed to have mercy for him, but soon Thranduil noticed that his torture had barely begun. Lindir’s skillful fingers could do much more than play the harp. Never had Thranduil felt the need burning so strongly, it was almost painful, One by one, Lindir added more fingers, stretching and teasing him mercilessly. Thranduil begged, like never before, feeling a strange emptiness inside him. The emptiness that only Lindir could fill. At last, when Thranduil thought he would die if he had to wait anymore, Lindir leaned into his waiting embrace, starting to push in. Thranduil didn’t know which one was more blissful; to see pure rapture upon Lindir’s face, or to feel them finally becoming one. He smiled at his young mate lovingly, and pulled him into deep kiss, feeling how their joining created burning ripples through their bodies. “Move, meleth. Let me feel your love.” Thranduil urged gently, swaying his hips and Lindir did. He made love to his king, taking him with such love and tenderness that Thranduil had never known before. He yielded to Lindir completely, his heart and body singing with ecstasy. Thranduil writhed and cried his mate’s name when his orgasm finally crashed over him, and his whole being drowned in a sea of pleasure. The warmth inside Thranduil wasn’t only Lindir’s completion, but also the exquisite feeling of their love. He clung to Lindir as a lifeline, sobbing with overwhelming emotions. The young elf trembled in Thranduil’s arms, and he could feel his lover’s heartbeats under his hands. Thranduil never expected he would enjoy this so much with their reversed roles. Thranduil opened his eyes, when he felt soft kiss upon his cheek. “How was…I didn’t hurt you, did I?” Lindir asked hesitantly, kissing him again. “Nay, meleth. You didn’t hurt me, but loved me so beautifully like no one ever before.” Thranduil whispered hoarsely, with tears in his eyes. Lindir’s heart skipped one beat, when he realized what had happened. This beautiful, powerful elf had given him everything and more. He felt humble gratitude for such a gift, finally understanding how blessed he was. “I love you, Thranduil nín, more than I ever thought possible.” Lindir said and cupped his mate’s face; spreading soft kisses on them and then finally claimed his lips again. Thranduil could only hold Lindir close and return his sweet kisses. His heart was beating almost painfully fast in his chest and all words had temporarily failed him. His Lindir was indeed magnificent in every way. The young elf had taken him passionately, but with so much love, that it had taken his breath away. For the very first time in his life, Thranduil felt unusually vulnerable but also beautiful, loved and safe. “I love you, too. I just wish to stay right here, forever. You feel so good in my arms. Lindir nín.” He finally whispered, completely exhausted. It didn’t take long before he slept peacefully. Lindir couldn’t sleep yet. Affection burned his heart, when he saw how vulnerable Thranduil seemed in his sleep. This elf was completely different from the powerful King whom he had come to know. Lindir understood how lucky he was, for he was the only one who ever would see the other side of Thranduil, this loving, gentle, completely beautiful creature. He was someone who needed love and affection like any other elf. Lindir looked at his sleeping mate, staying awake for a long time. Every now and then, he kissed Thranduil’s cheek or brow, or stroked the soft, silvery locks that spread onto the pillow. Lindir smiled when he noticed his mate smiling every time he touched him. Thranduil indeed welcomed his touch, whether he was awake or asleep. Finally, happy and content Lindir slept, hoping that he would stay in Thranduil’s arms forever. Chapter 8. “We need to talk, meleth. I have been in Imladris nearly a month now, and I need to return to Mirkwood soon. My people need me home.” Thranduil said seriously to his mate. He had recovered completely and all indications of his fading were gone. “I know, and I have started to pack my belongings. Though, I must admit that I will miss Imladris terribly, but my place is beside you now.” Lindir whispered, his voice full of longing. He couldn’t deny his melancholy, when he had to leave Imladris, even if he loved Thranduil with all his heart and would gladly follow him. “I’m happy to hear that Lindir nín, but there is something you should know. I have avoided this conversation for far too long.” Lindir frowned at Thranduil’s unusual hesitation. But whatever his mate was going to tell him, Lindir wanted to hear it as soon as possible. He didn’t want any secrets between them. “What it is, meleth? You know you can tell me anything.” Lindir said softly. Thranduil sighed deeply, trying to gather his thoughts. “As you know, I am the King, and that’s why I need an heir who would be the King after me. I have always thought that I should marry an elleth so that she would carry elflings. But now that I am bound to you the situation has changed completely.” “Do you regret our bond then? Is this why you talk like this?” Lindir whispered, trying to suppress his tears. How he wanted to be everything Thranduil needed, but could he ever fulfill all the expectations? He knew very well that he could never give Thranduil a child. “Oh, Lindir, nay! Don’t ever let that thought into your mind again. You are everything to me, and I could never regret our love and our bonding, never!” Thranduil said, pulling his mate into his arms. “We must discuss this because I need an heir now, and you are my mate. Luckily, there are other possibilities. I had a younger brother, and he was married. They had one boy and his blood is royal, enough that my people will accept him as a new heir.” Lindir smiled hesitantly. “Are you sure about this? You seem quite doubtful.” “I am sure about him. My nephew reaches his majority after two years, and he takes after my brother who was very dear to me. I’m sure you’ll like him.” Thranduil said darkly, not knowing how he would tell Lindir the rest. “But there is something more, I can guess. Would you tell me what is bothering you?” “I have to, but it isn’t anything pleasant… The main problem is my brother’s widow… my sister in law.” “And what about her? Don’t you like her then?” Thranduil laughed bitterly. “I hate her! She is the most evil creature I have ever seen. She seduced my brother because I didn’t fall into her trap. Even after they were bound, she tried to plot her way to my bed. My poor brother loved her! When he found out, he faded with grief.” Thranduil told, tears in his eyes. “Oh meleth! I’m so sorry. But if you are so sure that she betrayed your brother, how you have not punished her?” “Because she is far too careful to be captured. Only I know her true nature… even my father was convinced that she is the most fair and noble creature in all Arda! I know this only because I have always been her main target. And the most grotesque detail in this miserable situation is that she is still pursuing the Queen’s crown!” “But… that means she…” Lindir gasped. “… is thinking, that I would marry her someday. And every single one who is dear to me is in great danger. She is capable of doing anything to accomplish her goal. And she is very popular in Mirkwood. Many of my people think that she would make an excellent Gueen beside me.” Thranduil continued, feeling almost sick. “I fear for you, meleth. When she finds out about you, I cannot imagine her reaction, but surely it will be nothing pleasant.” Thranduil whispered, cradling Lindir in his arms. “Is there nothing we could do?” Lindir asked, trying to soothe his mate’s agony. “I have thought… there is one possibility… but I don’t like it. Though, this way I can be quite sure that she won’t harm you.” “Tell me. I’m ready for anything, if I can ease your worries, meleth.” “All right, but remember that this plan, if we are going to follow it, would only be temporary. I don’t like the idea, but maybe it is the best option to keep our bonding a secret, for now.” Thranduil said hesitantly. Lindir thought for a long time before answering. “I so hoped that I had the possibility to love you openly. But, if you really think that it is better to keep this secret then I will be ready for it. Maybe things would be different someday.” “This secrecy breaks my heart. You deserve so much better than this. I would shout my love for you from the rooftops if I could. But whatever happens, I want you beside me, even if we had to hide our love.” “But how can you hide our relationship completely? If I just arrive in Mirkwood with you, won’t it raise suspicions?” “We don’t have very many minstrels in Mirkwood, and no one nearly as good as you. I can always say that I heard you here and I liked your music so much that I offered you a position as a minstrel. Your skills are incredible and no one will suspect a thing after hearing you perform.” “So… I need to sneak through the corridors if I want to make love with my hervenn?” “There is no need for that, meleth. I know a perfect room for you because it is connected to my chambers, but no one knows of it. It is tradition that only the King and his heir know about this secret passage. Originally, it was made to ensure the safety of the royal family. Mirkwood has always been quite an unstable place to live and rule. The best thing is that I never told anyone, not even my brother about it, so the knowledge is safe from his family. I haven’t any intentions of telling my nephew before this situation is solved. We can spend our evenings and nights together without anyone knowing. “ “That’s good to know; otherwise I would miss you terribly. I have become used to sleep in your arms.” Lindir smiled happily. “I’m relieved that you accept this. I promise, as soon as it is safe we will announce our bond in public. I want you beside me in the place which is rightfully yours.” “We just have to be careful. I know that ruling a realm is difficult; I have seen how Elrond always worries for his people, and Imladris is a much smaller place than Mirkwood. I don’t want to be a burden to you, meleth.” “What I have done, to deserve your love? You are not a burden. You are my whole life, Lindir nín. Don’t ever leave me because I wouldn’t survive it.” Thranduil whispered, kissing his mate gently. “But, what do we tell to Elrond? We cannot celebrate our bonding at all and he will surely want to know the reason.” Lindir frowned, worried. “Our only possibility is that we have to tell him everything, hoping that he’ll understand this. Besides, if something happened it is good that someone, who we can trust completely, knows about us.” Lindir sighed. “Maybe you are right. But he will not like this, I know it. He will worry about my safety.” “I don’t blame him. Try to remember that he loves you, and so do I. If something happened to you because of me, I could never forgive myself.” “So, when do we leave? I’m curious to see your home.” “It is your home too, meleth. I thought that within a week we could start our journey. I wanted to get across the Misty Mountains before winter.” “But what about your escort? You sent them home if I remember correctly.” Thranduil smiled, his beautiful eyes sparkling with mirth. “We don’t need an escort. I had one only because I wasn’t well enough to travel alone. But now I am and I look forward to traveling with you alone, meleth.” “Why?” Lindir smiled. “Would you tell me the reason for that smile on your face?” “Because… I have a whole week with you, just two of us. Every night I can take you in my arms, hold you close, or I can make love with you whenever I want. A whole week and I can love you freely, without hiding or fear.” “I must admit that it sounds wonderful.” “It is decided, then. But now… I have some very vivid images in my head because we talked of making love. Kiss me, ind nín (my heart). Let me show you how much I love you.” And Lindir did. Chapter 9. Mixed feelings dwelled inside Lindir when Imladris finally disappeared from horizon. He loved his mate with all his heart, but Imladris had been his home as long as he could remember. Lindir’s parting from Elrond had also been bittersweet; when the Elf- Lord had hugged him, and told him that he was always welcome back. Lindir’s melancholy eased when they finally stopped for the night. It was still quite warm, so they didn’t need any shelter, but made love and then cuddled in each other’s arms under the stars. “I’m so happy that you are with me, Lindir nín. I know that we have to face many obstacles, but nothing seems too hard as long as I have you.” Thranduil said, holding sated Lindir in his arms. “I will always be with you, meleth (love). I admit that I miss Imladris and Elrond, but my home is now with you.” Lindir whispered, wondering how his life would turn out in Mirkwood. He couldn’t deny that he was a little worried about all that Thranduil had told him, but at the same time Lindir was grateful that his mate had been completely honest with him. Lindir didn’t want to walk into something nasty because he had not been aware of the state of affairs. “I want you to understand that you will always be the only one in my heart, Lindir. As long as we keep this as secret, you will hear all kind of rumors and whispering about my intended marriage.” “I know, but I can take anything as long as I know that you love me. I will do anything for you, meleth. I am just so sorry that I cannot give you an heir.” Lindir whispered sadly. How he hoped that he could fulfill this necessity. He had sent silent but intense prayers to the Valar that his beloved hervenn (husband) would have an heir worthy of the high position. “Don’t be sorry for that, Lindir nín. You are everything to me. I could never find a better mate than you, even if I were to seek one for millennia.” Thranduil said, gently kissing Lindir upon the cheek. He sensed his mate’s melancholy and tried to soothe it. “I would do anything for you… anything! I never imagined that it was possible to love someone this much, and I hope that someday we can love each other openly.” “I swear we will. I have to find the solution to this problem, but I admit that I was earlier too sad and tired to do so. But now, with you beside me, I have every reason to live and fight for our love.” “Hold me, meleth nín. I feel so safe in your arms.” Lindir mumbled, almost in sleep. “I will hold you, meleth… for the rest of my days, and I will never let you go.” * * * * Lindir hated her at the very first sight. His heart ached when the beautiful, raven-haired elleth flew into Thranduil’s arms, regardless of Thranduil’s obvious coldness. Lindir’s mood didn’t lift even when Thranduil pushed her away as soon as he possibly could. “I’m so glad to see you well, my king.” The elleth purred, with a sensual voice that made Lindir’s stomach feel nauseous. “And I’m glad to be back. Where is Sadron? I want to see him as soon as possible.” Thranduil said sharply, wondering where his valet was. Sardon was usually the first to welcome him back, and his absence was something unprecedented. When Thranduil took a closer look, there were very few of his people present. What in Arda was going on? “I hoped that you wanted to spend your first evening with your family, my king. Don’t you have enough time to work tomorrow?” Thranduil narrowed his eyes. Something was in amiss, but what? “You know full well that Sadron’s place is beside me. I want to see him. Now!” He commanded. Whatever Vanmoriel (dark beauty) had planned; he would stop it now. Thranduil sensed Lindir’s distress, and he didn’t want his mate suffer more than it was necessary. He had to get rid of the troublesome elleth as soon as possible. “Very well, my king. If you really want to get yourself as exhausted as you were earlier, you are free to do so. I was only worried.” Vanmoriel snapped, obviously disappointed. “Whatever I am, it is not your worry, Vanmoriel. Go now and send Sadron to me.” Thranduil said, and dismissed her. The elleth left but not before, she had thrown a gaze that flowed with wrath and jealousy towards Lindir. Still she didn’t ask anything about him. Lindir couldn’t help to feel sick when he saw such hatred…and he was the object of it. When they finally were alone Thranduil glanced at Lindir, worried. He too had seen Vanmoriel’s jealousy. “Are you all right, meleth?” Thranduil asked softly, but didn’t dare to come closer even if his whole being ached with need to take his mate in his arms. “I… I think so…but I admit that I didn’t anticipate such a reaction. She hates me. No one has ever done so.” Lindir whispered, devastated. “Just be careful, and try to stay away from her. The situation might be easier after I introduce you officially, and tell my people why you are here. But we cannot continue this way for very long. I will find the solution no matter how hard it may be.” “I’ll do as you say. Do you think that I could go to my rooms now? I’m quite tired.” Lindir said, closing his eyes. This would be harder that he had imagined. “I’ll arrange that as soon as possible and remember that everyone here is not like her. She has her supporters, but so do I, and soon you’ll meet the one who is my most trusted friend and confidant.” Thranduil had hardly said that, when he heard a voice behind him. “My king, is that really you?” Sadron asked, delighted to see Thranduil looking so good. The king had been worn and weak when he left for Imladris, but now he was back to his old self. “As you can see, meldir, I found the cure to my ailment.” Thranduil said, smiling. “I see that you have brought someone with you. May I inquire who he is?” “Of course, here is Lindir O Imladris, my new minstrel that I invited to come in my service. He has such wonderful talents like I never have heard before.” Thranduil said, carefully but obvious warmth in his voice that he couldn’t hide. “Welcome to Mirkwood, Master Lindir. You are warmly welcomed.” Sadron smiled at Lindir. He sensed that there was something more between his king and this Lindir but chose not to ask about it. He knew about King Thranduil’s and Lady Vanmoriel’s complicated relationship. As long as Lady Vanmoriel pursued the king, that cursed elleth would make Lindir’s life miserable if she suspected something. It was better to be silent for now. Sadron knew that if Lady Vanmoriel were to become the queen someday, he would have no other options but leave Mirkwood. The lady hated him bitterly because of his close relationship to the king. Sadron wondered silently how the lady’s only ion (son) had to suffer his nana’s (mom’s) unjustified jealousy. Silently, Sadron hoped that his king would find someone as sweet as this Lindir. Unfortunately, he was a male, but Sadron couldn’t remember when he had seen anyone as beautiful and warm as the minstrel. “Sadron, I want you to personally take care of Lindir and see to it that he has everything that he needs to feel welcomed. Our journey was quite hard for him and he needs rest. Take him to the Forest-room.” Thranduil requested, worrying at Lindir’s silence. He himself decided to retire as soon as possible. His mate needed him now, and Thranduil’s heart ached even more because he knew he couldn’t do anything about it. Sadron made haste to fulfill his king’s request and didn’t ask why Thranduil wanted to give the best guest-room to Lindir, even if it was unprecedented. He saw that the young minstrel was, despite his smile, quite melancholy. Lindir didn’t look back when Sadron escorted him away from Thranduil. He was sure that his façade would crash down if he saw his mate. Lindir wanted nothing more than to have Thranduil with him, to hold him close, but that wasn’t possible and the mere thought hurt Lindir deeply. “Are you all right, Master Lindir?” Sadron asked, worried when they finally had reached Lindir’s new rooms. “I’m fine, thank you. Just quite tired, I must say.” Lindir said wearily. “What if I bring your meal to your rooms this evening? You seem too tired to attend the dinner tonight.” Lindir managed a smile. “That would be heavenly! Thank you, Sadron.” “You’re welcome, and I hope that soon you will feel more welcomed here. It was really an unfortunate incident that you met the most unkind person in Mirkwood first. I can assure that all of us are not like her.” “I must admit that I was quite shocked at her reaction. She seems to hate me, even if we just met. What in Arda I have done to deserve that kind of treatment?” Lindir wondered. He liked Sadron, and Thranduil had told him that this elf was faithful. “You haven’t done anything wrong. Lady Vanmoriel hates everyone who seems to be too close to the king. You traveled with him, alone, and she is jealous, so be careful and stay away from her. Remember that whatever you need, you can always come to me, and the king would surely help too, if necessary.” Sadron explained, carefully studying the young elf. He really liked Lindir and decided to support him in every way he could. “You don’t know what that means to me. Thank you, Sadron.” Lindir smiled. “I leave you now so you can rest. But I’ll come back at dinnertime to bring your meal.” Sadron said as he left. For a moment, Lindir could only stare at the closed door, but finally he turned and walked slowly to the bed. The pain inside him was too great for him to even cry. For a first time he thought that what if he had made a huge mistake, by coming here. Chapter 10. “How was he, Sadron?” Thranduil asked, anxiously when his valet finally stepped trough the door. “Master Lindir was quite exhausted. He went to rest, and I am going to bring his meal to his chambers.” Sadron answered, wondering if he dared to ask more about Lindir. Thranduil frowned, worried. This would be far more difficult he had thought. “Can I trust you, Sadron?” He finally asked, studying his oldest friend for a long time. Thranduil realized that they needed someone to support and help them, especially Lindir. He needed someone as a trusted friend. The only one he could even consider was Sadron. But was the elf willing to take the risk and keep their secret? “You know you can. Why would you even ask something like that?” “It’s not that I didn’t trust you, but there is more. If I tell you, I would trust not only my life, but my beloved’s life into your hands, Sadron.” “I never could betray you. And if you have found someone to love, my loyalty reaches your mate also. Tell me, saes, (please) my King! I swear that whatever you tell me will stay between us, if that is what you want.” Sadron said, determined to help his king anyway he could. He started to anticipate that Thranduil and Lindir really were something more than the King and a minstrel. “I believe you, but remember, if I share this secret with you, you’ll be in extreme danger if Vanmoriel finds out about this. Are you still willing to know? We might need your help.” “I am. I’ll do anything necessary.” “All right. So, hear me, I didn’t come alone from Imladris. Lindir is not only a minstrel, but my bonded mate.” Thranduil said, quietly. “By the Valar! But how…. Oh… The Lady will be furious if she knew about this.” Sadron whispered, stunned. Whatever he had thought he would hear, it was not this. “I know. And now you’ll understand that she has to be kept away from my hervenn (husband). I love Lindir more than anything, and if something happens to him, I wouldn’t survive it.” “This is going to be very difficult. But I‘ll do everything in my power to help you and Master Lindir too. He has to be something extraordinary if he had won your heart.” “He is. Lindir is the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. We were meant to be, Sadron. From the very first moment, I knew it. He saved my life with his love, and without him, I would have faded. It had already begun when I left, and I barely managed my way to Imladris. It was him I had dreamed of all these years. Someway, somehow we have to work this out.” Thranduil said with a serious tone. He had to succeed! Lindir deserved to be loved and cherished openly, not like this, hiding in shadows and secrets. “What about tonight? You really should be there with him.” Sadron asked. “I will be there. You don’t have to worry about it. Just bring our meal to Lindir’s chambers. I’ll meet you there.” * * * * Thranduil quickly walked through the secret passage, as if he couldn’t get to Lindir soon enough. He was worried after what Sadron had told him, and he wanted to make sure that Lindir was all right. When Thranduil finally opened the door to Lindir’s chambers, his heart almost stopped. Lindir lay on the floor, obviously unconscious. He still had had tears in his eyes, and his face was far too pale to Thranduil’s liking. Thranduil gently lifted his mate up and carried him to bed. To his utter relief, Lindir’s eyes slowly fluttered open when Thranduil settled himself beside him. “Wh… what happened?” Lindir mumbled wearily. “I’m so sorry that I wasn’t here for you, meleth. What is wrong? You obviously don’t feel very well.” Lindir closed his eyes, resting his head against Thranduil’s chest, just enjoying his mate’s closeness. He didn’t know what was wrong with him. Nauseous feeling still lingered inside him, making him all the more desperate. “I feel much better when you are here. Kiss me, saes (please). I need you close to me.” Lindir whispered. He sighed happily, when Thranduil immediately obeyed, kissing him softly. “This definitely wasn’t the welcome you deserved, meleth. It tore my heart to see you leaving with Sadron, without being able to kiss you. Your rightful place is beside me.” Thranduil said quietly, squeezing Lindir’s hair. Lindir managed a little smile. “I like Sadron. He was so kind to me and said that if I ever needed anything, I could always tell to him.” “He is a good servant and trusted friend. We can trust him.” “You should go. Sadron would bring my meal at any time now.” Lindir said suddenly, remembering that the valet had promised to come back. He couldn’t deny that this secrecy bothered him, but if this was the only way to be with Thranduil, he was ready for it. “Nay, meleth. You can be at peace. I told Sadron about us, and he swore to keep our secret safe. Besides, this situation has to be solved, as soon as possible. I won’t let you suffer like this.” “I’m not suffering. I don’t care if we have to hide, as long as I know that you still love me.” “I do, Lindir nín! You are my whole life and always will be.” Thranduil assured, cradling Lindir in his arms. They heard a knock from the door, and after Thranduil’s silent nod, asked who was there. “It’s Sadron, Master Lindir. I’m bringing your meal.” The valet’s voice said, behind the door. Lindir beckoned him to step in and the elf came, bringing the tray with him. Sadron studied Lindir with concern. “Are you all right? You seem too pale, if I may say so.” “What if I go and fetch the healer?” Thranduil suggested gently, helping Lindir up. “Nay, saes! I am sure that this is only because of my excitement. I will be all right when I have eaten and slept the night properly.” Lindir said quickly, staring at the meal Sadron had brought. Suddenly he felt himself extremely hungry. “So, eat then Master Lindir. And you, my King surely take care that your mate will have the rest he needs.” Sadron beckoned, smiling. “Of course, I meet you tomorrow, Sadron. Now I ask you to check and see what Vanmoriel was up to. And tell me, why you weren’t there to welcome me as usual. I must say that I wasn’t very happy to have that broad clinging on me in front of my mate’s eyes.” Thranduil said, with a more serious tone. “I’m very sorry. It must have been such a shock to you, Master Lindir. And I know what the Lady is up to. She had required a meal to be prepared and brought to her chambers. She also demanded to be alone to welcome you home. I can guess that her intention was to invite you to the meal tonight.” Thranduil’s face turned into cold mask. “So, she had become impatient. And I can guess that if I went to that meal, I would have found myself in some awkward situation. I give you some instruction now, and you must deliver them to every single one in my household. No one from my household takes any request from her anymore. She has her personal maid and does with her as he wants, but I am not going to tolerate her meddling in my affairs. “ “I will make sure that everyone will know your new orders before the sun has set. I’ll go now. And, welcome home, both of you.” Sadron said, bowing his head. The valet left, and Thranduil turned his attention to Lindir. He blinked after noticing how voraciously his sweet hervenn had attacked the food. “You must have been extremely hungry.” Thranduil chuckled when Lindir finally ceased his eating. Lindir blushed when he noticed how much he had actually eaten. “There is no reason to be embarrassed, meleth nín. You needed to eat properly. I only hope that all your hunger is not yet satisfied.” Thranduil whispered, taking Lindir in his arms. “My hunger for you will never be completely satisfied. Saes, make love to me now.” Lindir purred with a voice that made shivers run through Thranduil. Chapter 11. “What is wrong with me?” Lindir thought again. He had become more familiar with Mirkwood and its people, and he started to feel more comfortable. Lindir had made a few friends among his colleagues, and his first performance had been great success. He also was happy with Thranduil, and their love blossomed despite their hiding. Lindir’s only worry was that his nausea hadn’t ceased. He had even vomited a couple of times, and Thranduil had been very worried with him. He also felt his feelings somewhat unbalanced, and only Thranduil’s presence could ease his melancholy. Lindir craved his hervenn’s (husband’s) presence and felt extremely lonely and unhappy without him. Lindir blushed when he thought about one more thing that had changed lately. Lindir had always enjoyed their lovemaking, but now he felt… insatiable. It was as if Lindir couldn’t get enough of his mate, and it embarrassed him. Thranduil had happily obeyed his wishes, and their nights had been filled with passionate lovemaking. Every night they slept in each other’s arms completely exhausted but happy. But still, Lindir couldn’t stop his worrying. He knew, or rather sensed, something was wrong with him. Lindir felt something slowly changing inside him, and it made him confused. The feeling was strange, but not completely unpleasant and that’s why Lindir had refused to go to the healers. Lindir stirred his musings, when the door suddenly opened. He was used to being alone in the music hall, and his curiosity increased when he saw Thranduil’s nephew coming in. Lindir had met him couple of times and the young elf was as sweet as Thranduil had described. Lindir smiled at him. “Maer aur, Alassien (Cheerful) I’m surprised to see you here.” He said carefully. Lindir liked the elfling, but he had realized that his mother wouldn’t tolerate him becoming friendly with his son. Maybe it was the best that he tried to stay away as much as possible. But the elf surprised him. Alassien looked around the hall, as if to be sure that they were alone. “Maer aur, Master Lindir. I came to see you.” He said, after a moment’s hesitation. “And what brings you here?” Lindir asked, his curiosity stirring. “I will tell you, if you promise not to tell my nana.” Lindir frowned. He didn’t want to make his situation any harder by meddling in Lady’s and her ion’s affairs. But he couldn’t resist Alassien’s hopeful gaze. “Don’t you think that your nana will be sad if she found out that you have hidden things from her?” Lindir still asked. “She doesn’t care. She just wants me to learn warfare and weaponry, but I don’t want to. I have asked if I could learn to play and sing, but she gets mad every time I ask it.” “You wanted to learn to play?” Lindir made sure if he heard right. He was completely stunned for this unexpected turn. “Please, if you don’t want to teach me, let me just listen as you play. I have never heard anything so beautiful.” Alassien pleaded, tears in his eyes. Lindir saddened after hearing of this. He himself couldn’t understand how anyone could be so cruel that denied this kind of gift. Music was a gift to be treasured and enjoyed, and if this elf felt the music inside him, it was sheer torture to forbid him to explore that gift. He made his mind quickly. “How I could deny such a heartfelt plea? But one thing; you have to work hard to please your nana. If you fulfill your other duties, she may be a little more understanding.” Lindir said, even if he doubted that the Lady would ever allow him to teach his ion. “I promise I will.” Alassien nodded enthusiastically. “All right, it’s better you go now and when you have time, come to me and I will teach you. But be careful. It must remain our secret for now.” Lindir said, and waved his hand as good-byes. Alassien left, and Lindir stared after him for a long time. He really liked this young elf; it was such a shame that his nana was such a nuisance. What saddened him even more, was the fact that he hadn’t seen much love between nana (mother) and ion (son). He himself still remembered how long and bitterly he had grieved his parents, for he had loved them both greatly. And still, he had Elrond who was like second ada to him. How was possible that this young, sweet elf, who obviously had so much love in him, survived from his nana’s aloofness? * * * * Alassien sang with Lindir’s instructions, and the minstrel was stunned. The young elf was a natural talent, and with good education, he would someday be even better than himself. Even now, without any practicing, Lindir could hear the extreme beauty in Alassien’s voice and the joy that radiated upon his face when he sang. He was incredible, indeed! “Why in Arda your nana has forbidden your musical education? You have a great gift, and it should be in use.” Lindir asked, when Alassien finally ceased. The young elf sighed, deeply. “Nana wants me to be a good prince, and not waste my time on useless dreaming. She thinks that I must be a good warrior and strategist, so that I can take my rightful place in King’s service. I don’t know what she means. I’m not a crown-prince and am very grateful of that.” “I’m very sorry to hear that. You should explore your true gifts, and you could be a great musician with the right education.” Lindir said. “I know that the best minstrels are in Imladris. I have asked for permission to go there, but nana got mad and didn’t talk to me a whole week. But I’m not so sad anymore, now that you are here, Master Lindir. I love your music, and I hope that I would someday be like you.” “I promise to teach you because you deserve it. But, you know that I set myself in danger by doing so. We both have to be extremely careful. It would be my end if your nana found out.” “I know, and I swear to be careful and not tell anyone. I so miss my ada… I’m sure he wouldn’t have denied me this.” Alassien whispered, tears in his eyes. “He must have been wonderful person. I’m sorry that he…” Lindir stuttered, not knowing what he could say. “…faded. You can say that. I assume that you also know that he faded because of my nana’s cruelty.” Lindir didn’t say anything, but pulled the now sobbing young elf into a comforting embrace. * * * * Vanmoriel was furious. For so long she had tried to seduce Thranduil into her bed, in an attempt to have the Queen’s crown. But now, it seemed that all her efforts had been in vain. How long would the king wait before he noticed that his only chance to have an heir would be to marry her? Little by little, she had gotten rid of every possible elleth (she-elf) who might be a threat to her plans. They had all been given two chances, leave to the Havens or marry someone, and no one had ever dared to make any objections. But now, Thranduil had been almost impossible to approach since he had come back from Imladris. What had happened there? She had welcomed Thranduil back, wishing that he finally would cease his useless hiding. But no, after his trip, he had been colder that ever. She had suspected all along that the minstrel or whatever he was, had something to do with all of this. And that cursed valet seemed to be in same plot. “Always he has been in my way, and now that little fool had joined in the same plot. But I’ll end their plotting! Someway or another I will find out what it is they are trying to hide from me. And when that happens, both will suffer. Thranduil is mine. Mine! No one will stand my way.” Vanmoriel left her chambers, thinking that if Thranduil were really having an affair with someone, she would find out. He couldn’t leave his chambers without someone noticing, and she would make sure of that, personally. She sneaked through the corridors until she found a dark alcove near Thranduil’s chambers. Here she had an excellent view to the door and she would notice for sure, if Thranduil left his chambers. And if someone had really dared to lure Thranduil in her bed, she would bitterly regret it. * * * * After a week of useless waiting, Vanmoriel was more desperate than ever before. She had to find out what Thranduil was trying to hide from her. She was sure that there was something. Something that prevented her wishes from coming true. After long and hard thinking, she came to the conclusion that if she couldn’t find out anything by spying the King, maybe that minstrel would be easier to cope with. It took several days to find out where the minstrel lived, and when Vanmoriel finally knew the truth, she was positive that something was really going on. Why else Thranduil had given their best guestroom to that little fool? When the night came, she was behind the minstrel’s room. Vanmoriel knew he was inside but nothing could be heard. Finally, after long waiting, she heard something… it was as if… footsteps and then…muffled voices spoke. Vanmoriel tried to strain her hearing, but didn’t succeed in hearing what they said. And how in Arda was possible that there were now two people, even if she was sure that only the minstrel had gone through the door? Finally, when she was giving up, she heard something that made her stop in her tracks. A loud moan echoed through the door… once, and several times more. Vanmoriel was experienced enough to know what that noise was. And then she heard something that turned her suspicions into a terrible reality. She heard that cursed little slut screaming Thranduil’s name. Chapter 12. Lindir had a very strange dream. Actually, the dream was strange but also so familiar that it shook him to his very core. Night was clear and serene. There wasn’t one single cloud in the sky that would shade Ithil’s silvery light. Not even lightest breeze of wind disturbed this complete peace. Tonight, he didn’t dance but stood in the middle of the clearing, when he heard a voice. “Lindir O Imladris. You must hear me.” “What it is? Who are you?” Lindir asked, with wonder. He didn’t see anyone, but felt someone’s presence. “I am Irmo, Master of Dreams. It was I who connected you together with your love before you even knew it.” “So… it was you who sent me those dreams about Thranduil?” “Aye. You are greatly blessed, Lindir. Thranduil has a great fate and he needs a worthy mate beside him. You were chosen for him before you were even born. With your love, you will support and strengthen him so that he can fulfill his destiny.” “I will do that with all my heart.” Lindir said, bowing his head. “I know you will, but now there is a great danger coming. You have to escape before all is lost.” “But… How I can… Does Thranduil leave with me, then?” Lindir asked, confused. “Nay. He cannot come, and you cannot tell him that you are leaving.” “No! Saes, don’t ask me to do that, Master Irmo! How can I ever leave him? His heart will break and mine too.” Lindir whispered, devastated. “Don’t be sad, pen-neth (young one). He will come to you when the time is right. I will seal his fëa(soul) so that he cannot fade anymore. But, you have to go because there are several other lives that are in your hands now. Go to Imladris. You will be safe there.” “Who are those others? Do I need to take them with me?” “Aye, there will be two who will follow you. Sadron O Taur-nu-Fuin and Alassien O Taur-nu-Fuin will come with you if they want to save their lives from ruination.” “How in Arda will we survive through the Misty Mountains? It is almost winter.” “Valar will protect you along your journey, and Sadron will help. He is a seasoned warrior and knows how to survive in wilderness and will keep you safe.” “So… when you want us to leave? And how we can keep this as secret? Thranduil will know within seconds if I plan something like this because our connection is so strong.” “I will shield your thoughts from him so that he doesn’t sense your leaving before it is too late. And he will be able fulfill his duty when you are not in danger anymore. You have to go without any delays. When Anar (sun) rises, you have that day to prepare your escape and then one hour after sunset, when Tilion (moon) rises, your journey will begin. You can make your farewells and when Thranduil falls asleep, you must go. I will keep him in sleep until you are far enough that no one will catch you. Remember, delays will bring eternal doom to all of you so hurry, pen-neth, to save your own and other lives I have given in your hands.” “I will do, as you say, Master Irmo. But I beg of you, take care of my mate for me. He is my everything.” Lindir pleaded, with all his heart. “Thranduil will be safe, and when he has fulfilled his duty, he will follow you.” * * * * Thranduil woke up with a start. Lindir was in his arms and restless. He wailed softly and tears flowed from his eyes. It took a while before Thranduil managed to wake him. When Lindir’s blue eyes finally focused and the haze of dreaming disappeared, the elf leaned closer, trembling slightly. “What is wrong, meleth (love)? Did you have a nightmare?” Thranduil asked, concerned. “Aye. I did. Hold me, saes (please).” Lindir whispered hoarsely, his heart aching. In his heart was a terrible certainty that his dream wasn’t a nightmare but a plain truth. Soon, all too soon he would leave his heart behind without any surety if they would ever see each other again. He started to weep softly against Thranduil’s chest. The mere thought of leaving him hurt Lindir deeply. “Don’t cry, ind nín (my heart). I have you, and everything is fine.” Thranduil said gently, trying to soothe his crying mate without success. “Everything is Not fine, but I cannot tell you.” Lindir thought, clinging to Thranduil. When he finally calmed, he kissed his mate deeply. “Thranduil nín. I love you, so much. I want you, now.” Lindir breathed, almost desperate to have every memory of Thranduil as long as he could. Soon, his arms would be cold and empty. “But I already… you will be sore tomorrow.” Thranduil gasped, nevertheless his body stirring. “Nay, meleth. I want to take you. Will you let me?” “I would like that very much, Lindir nín.” Thranduil murmured, smiling. Lindir had very seldom taken him after that first time, but every time that happened, Thranduil had enjoyed it greatly. He loved to feel Lindir within him. Lindir lovingly caressed Thranduil’s powerful body, savoring all the sensations and feelings deep into his heart. He wanted to every memory he possibly could with him, knowing that they soon would separate. For how long, he didn’t even dare to think of. “You are magnificent. I love how you enjoy of my touch.” Lindir whispered, mesmerized by how his mate slowly came undone in his arms. “Oh…aye! Your touch feels so good on me. I love you, ind nín.” Lindir lowered his head, starting to kiss Thranduil’s skin, which felt extremely soft. He had been surprised how something so powerful could be so silky to touch at the same time. Soon, Lindir was drowned by Thranduil’s intoxicating closeness, and his moans joined Thranduil’s hoarse cries. “Saes, Lindir! Have mercy on me… take me.” Lindir raised his head, meeting Thranduil’s gaze, which was hazy with pleasure and tears. He trembled, thinking that never had his mate seemed more beautiful as now, when he yielded completely to him… to their love. “I will take you… and love you like no one ever before.” He whispered, his voice hoarse with emotion. With great care and tenderness, Lindir prepared his mate, until Thranduil moaned and writhed under his touch. “Thranduil nín… you are mine…all mine, till the end of Arda.” He declared, when he finally took his mate. “Oh… oh… yours.” Thranduil panted, pulling Lindir closer. He let his hands wander upon Lindir’s body, stroking and caressing everywhere he possibly could. And, when Lindir finally claimed his lips in a sensual kiss, Thranduil wept from the happiness and pleasure that burned within him. Their bodies pulsed as one, joined together in an ancient dance, and the nightly air echoed their cries of pleasure. Their lips sought each other, finally coming together in a passionate kiss. Lindir thrust into his mate, again and again, mindless with love and lust. He stroked Thranduil’s rock-hard arousal, raising them both higher and higher into sensual heights. “Oh… by… Valar… Lindir!” Thranduil cried hoarsely, as their joined bodies were flooded by sheer pleasure. Together they swayed on waves of their completion, until their bodies finally slowly settled, and they began to come back themselves. Thranduil held Lindir tightly against him, and their tears mixed together. “Thranduil… meleth… mine.” Lindir whispered; kissing Thranduil’s tears away one by one. “Yours… I love you so, Lindir nín.” Lindir rested his head against Thranduil’s chest, listening to his still rapid heartbeats. He prayed, pouring his whole heart into one desperate plea. “Take care of him, and let his path lead to me again. He is my heart, my soul, my whole being.” Chapter 13. Thranduil studied Lindir, feeling concerned. “Are you all right, meleth? Why do you seem so sad? It breaks my heart to see you like this.” He asked. Lately, he had been asking this same question all too often. Thranduil so wanted Lindir to be happy with him, but was he? One way he had failed Lindir; he had not succeeded in solving this situation, but forced his loving mate to hide in shadows. Lindir managed a smile. “I must admit that I have been a little melancholy lately. I think this situation just bothers me.” “Oh, meleth! I truly hope that you don’t regret coming here.” Thranduil said softly, pulling Lindir closer. “Never! Don’t think about that for a moment. This has all just overwhelmed me. But, this I know; I love you with all my heart and I haven’t regretted my binding with you for a second. Without you, I would still be alone and unhappy.” “What if I fetch you a healer? I must say that something else seems to ail you.” Thranduil suggested carefully. He knew that the healers in Mirkwood weren’t as good as Elrond the Peredhel, but if Lindir really had problems with his health, they would probably find out. “I don’t think that is necessary. What if I stay in bed and take a proper rest. I have been quite tired for reasons you know full well.” Lindir whispered, blushing. “I must have tired you completely. For that, I’m sorry, meleth. It’s just I have only nights with you. How I hoped that this cursed situation would be solved soon.” Thranduil said sadly, but then smiled. “And you, meleth, don’t help your condition at all. Why do you have to be so tempting?” He chuckled, kissing Lindir passionately. “Maybe, but that’s the way things are between us, and I wouldn’t want them any other way. When I cannot touch you in daytime, the nights are even more precious to me. I cannot help it; I love you so, and I miss you every moment you are not with me.” “I miss you too and this has to be end! I won’t let you suffer like this anymore. Whatever it takes, I’ll solve this.” “I know you do. Kiss me once more before you have to go.” Lindir whispered, pulling his mate closer. He smiled happily when Thranduil did as he asked, and kissed him with all the love he felt. Finally, after long lingering, Thranduil forced himself to leave. His heart ached but he had to go to his duties. * * * * Lindir waited, when the secret door was closed and the wall seemed completely intact, he rose from bed, dressed himself and waited. It didn’t take long for Sadron to come, bringing Alassien with him. The young prince was in tears. “I cannot stay with nana anymore, not for a moment! She has always been cold to me, but now she is like a maniac! I don’t know what has happened, but she is doing something horrible! She didn’t notice me, and I heard that she wants to kill you both, whatever it takes. You have to escape, now.” He said, sobbing while telling his tale. “We will, and you come with us, pen-neth (young one).” Lindir assured. “Where will we go then? And why do you want me to come with you?” Alassien asked, surprised. “We will go to my home in Imladris. My foster-father will welcome us with open arms, and you can start your musical education if you want.” Lindir said, smiling at the thought. At least Alassien will be happy in Imladris. But he… Lindir knew he would miss his mate terribly. “I will come, even if I leave my King with an aching heart. It is my duty to keep you safe during our trip.” Sadron said, reluctantly. Lindir hung his head, trying to suppress his tears. “This will be hard but necessary, Sadron. As long as we stay here, Thranduil cannot do anything because he fears for our safety. When he knows we are in safe, he will be free to act.” He said softly. “You are right, Master Lindir, and while I cannot be here for my King, I will be there for you instead. As his mate, you are precious to us.” “Thank you for your kind words, Sadron. I don’t know what I would do without your support.” “I think it is best if you stayed with Sadron today, pen-neth; or do you think your nana will miss you?” Lindir asked Alassien. The young elf shrugged. “She won’t miss me. I should be on a patrol, but I sneaked back home. That was the reason I found out about her plan. The patrol wouldn’t return until next week, so she won’t suspect anything.” “I’m so sorry, Alassien. You deserved so much better.” Lindir whispered, feeling sad for the young elf, who must have felt completely unloved and lonely. He himself had had Elrond to support him when he had lost his own parents. * * * * Finally, they had finished their plan for escape, and Sadron and Alassien left. Lindir stayed alone trying to settle his thoughts. He knew that Lórien had strained his connection to Thranduil but surely, his mate could still sense his melancholy. Finally, Lindir had to admit that he had lost the battle. He buried his face in a pillow and wept. * * * * Lindir waited. He had managed to pack part of his possessions, but most of them he would leave behind. They would ride as fast as possible and with only light packages. He had hidden his traveling clothes in the wardrobe and wore only light robes. Thranduil was coming and he wouldn’t suspect a thing. As soon as his mate was in deep sleep, Lindir would leave and their escape would begin. But, there was one more thing. Lindir had to leave his farewells so that Thranduil wouldn’t understand what was going on, before they left. Lindir heard the secret door open, and he smiled at Thranduil, who silently stepped in. Lindir noticed that Thranduil too looked tired. This situation was unbearable to them all, and Lindir started to anticipate that this was maybe the best solution, after all. “You look tired, meleth.” He said, and extended his hand, as silent invitation. Thranduil smiled at his mate, climbing beside him. “I am quite tired, but you soothe my senses, ind nín. Do you realize how heavenly it is to come to you every night?” The king sighed, kissing Lindir softly. “I know. I love being in your arms every night. I love you.” Lindir whispered, eagerly leaning into Thranduil’s arms when he pulled him closer. He buried his hands in Thranduil’s soft, golden hair and yielded into the sensual kiss. Lindir didn’t want to think that this was a very last time his mate had this consolation. Tomorrow he would be far from here. Lindir wept as Thranduil entered him. Sorrow and bliss swelled inside Lindir, becoming overwhelming sensations. Slowly, gently Thranduil loved him, lifting them both to sensual heights. In the moment of his completion, Lindir sensed something inside him, something new. He felt someone else’s fëa connected to his own and now he also fully understood why he had to go. Thranduil had given him the greatest gift of all, and he had to escape, to save their unborn child’s life. * * * * Lindir kissed and caressed his mate until he slept peacefully. Then he rose, dried his tears and dressed himself. Before he left, he kissed a sleeping Thranduil’s cheek for the very last time. Tears threatened to blind Lindir’s eyesight when he said his farewells. “Namárië, meleth nín. Gûren ninnatha nanarad as achên len (Farewell, my love. My heart shall weep until it sees you again.)” Chapter 14. They rode long and hard. All night they continued their escape, and it really seemed as Valar themselves looked after them. No one tried to stop them, nor did they see any living creature along their frantic ride. Lindir didn’t sense the surrounding world at all, only the wind’s howling in his ears told him how fast their journey proceeded. When Anar started to rise, they finally stopped. Their horses were exhausted, and they themselves sorely needed rest. When Lindir looked where they were, he gasped, surprised. “How in Arda is this possible? We are almost at the Misty Mountains. When we traveled to Mirkwood, it took almost four days to ride this same distance.” Lindir wondered aloud. If they would keep up this speed, they will be in Imladris within two days. “It seems that you are truly blessed, Master Lindir. For some reason, Valar themselves wanted to make sure that we manage to get to Imladris.” Sadron said, studying Lindir carefully. What was it? What made this young elf so important, that Valar themselves, meddled in his life to keep him safe? Lindir sensed Sadron’s curiosity, but he didn’t say anything. He wasn’t ready to share his secret with the elf, even if he trusted him. Lindir could only pray that they really managed to make it to Imladris. Now he had every reason to get there safely. Whatever happened, he had to protect the child who grew within him. * * * * “I don’t care if you want to do that or not. You ‘will’ abduct that little fool, and throw him to spiders. Remember, I have your sister.” Vanmoriel said coldly to two elves who stood in front of her. At last that mousy elleth that was her servant, was truly useful. These two fools feared for their little sister and did whatever Vanmoriel wanted. She didn’t care if they obeyed under blackmailing, as long as they obeyed. The elves bowed blankly and left. This task was revolting, but they had no other options but to obey. They loved their sister dearly, and that maniac would surely harm her if they refused. With aching hearts, they tried to think of any escape from this crime but found none. Reluctantly they took a rope and went to Lindir’s room. This was the best time to do this; it was morning, and the minstrel would surely be in his rooms, for it was known that he always slept late. They went to Lindir’s door and checked to see if it was unlocked. It was, and they sneaked inside. Fearfully they listened, but heard only peaceful breathing. The minstrel was still sleeping. Silently they crept closer and saw the elf sleeping, his blond hair spreading over pillow. After moment’s hesitation, they attacked. * * * * Thranduil woke up with a start and in his surprise, he felt someone trying to restrain him. Who dared to attack him? He growled, and managed to throw the both of his attackers away. He turned around and froze with a shock. “Megildur! (Sword) Gondien! (A Rock) What in Arda do you mean by this?” Thranduil demanded and rose from the bed. In his fury, he was a dreadful sight, even if he was completely naked. The elves trembled and fell on their knees. “Well! Tell me! Two of my most trusted soldiers attacked me!” Thranduil shouted. “I… we… have mercy on us! We don’t deserve it but… would you let us tell why we did it, saes (please)!” One of them finally stammered. They didn’t try to rise, or to meet their King’s gaze. Both of them knew that they would be sentenced to death because of this. Their only hope was that the King would save their sister from the Lady. Last remnants of sleep finally disappeared from Thranduil as he looked around. At his great shock, Lindir had disappeared. He turned and looked at his soldiers, trying to think what their part was of Lindir’s mysterious vanishing. Thranduil felt chilling fear inside him. If these two were harmed him in any way… “So, tell me, then! I can see that whatever you had in mind, it wasn’t any good. And speak the truth!” He ordered, after dressing himself. “It was lady Vanmoriel. She ordered us to get rid of that minstrel, Lindir. We were trying to catch him, not you, my king. We didn’t want to do this but she blackmailed us by threatening to harm our sister, who is her servant. Saes, save her life, even if you sentenced us to death.” Megildur pleaded, tears in his eyes. “Vanmoriel! What did she want you to do to Lindir? Where is he now?” “She ordered us to… throw him to spiders, my King. I don’t know why, but she… called him… a whore. We don’t know where Master Lindir is now. We haven’t seen him since yesterday.” Thranduil listened, with growing anger and disgust. That cursed bitch had done her last deed! He ordered the soldiers to come with him, and ran towards Vanmoriel’s rooms. When he reached them, he roughly pulled the door open and stormed in. Thranduil’s fury exploded when he saw the Lady. With two steps, he had closed their distance and grabbed her. “What you have done to my mate, you cursed bitch? Tell me!” Thranduil roared, shaking the elleth roughly. “Why in Arda do you care about that little whore? I haven’t done anything to him.” Vanmoriel tried to say, but soon noticed that Thranduil didn’t believe her. “Nothing, you say. And still, I wake up and my own soldiers are trying to catch me, and my mate has disappeared! They told me the whole story.” Thranduil growled, but soon noticed that Vanmoriel wouldn’t be broken so easily. He threw the elleth away like some revolting creature, and ordered Megildur and Gondien take her to the Great Hall. The elves immediately obeyed relieved, that King’s fury was turned to Lady, instead to them… for now. Whatever they had done, they still were loyal to their King. As soon as they were in the Great Hall, Thranduil sat on his throne, and ordered Vanmoriel in front of him. He would solve this situation now, whatever it would take. "So, this was your last trick here, Vanmoriel. I swear you are going to pay for everything that you have done to my family. This is your last chance to tell the truth. If you still try to deny your foul deeds, you will be sentenced to death." He said with a cold tone. Vanmoriel hesitated. For the very first time she knew she was in real trouble. "I admit that I wanted to get rid of that little slut you dragged here. What in Arda, did you mean by that? You know full well that you need an heir, and a real Queen beside you." Vanmoriel finally said. Thranduil laughed bitterly. "You are really crazy if you believed that I thought you would have that position for even one second! Rather I would bind with an orc." He spat and noticed how the elleth started finally to loose her composure. "But you hadn't any options left because..." She started to shout, but silenced abruptly. Thranduil studied carefully how anger and fear changed on Vanmoriel's face and then smiled. It wouldn’t take long when she would break down completely. "...because you...what? Got rid of every elleth who was suitable to marry me, by sending them to Havens or forcing them to marry someone else? Is that what you mean?" He said with a silky voice, which made shivers run through every listener's spine. "What if I did? If you have been reasonable from the beginning..." Vanmoriel stammered but the King waved her silence. "Then I would have faded long time ago, because I love another. I love the one who is my destined soul mate. Who gives me much more than you could ever imagine!" The elleth smiled thinly. "And does he also give you the heir you need, my King?" She whispered victoriously. "That is not your concern, Vanmoriel! I could have had several nephews if you didn't seduced and kill my brother with your coldness and betrayal. He could be alive at this moment if he had married someone else other than you. However, my poor brother gave me his last gift, Alassien. He will be the King after me. Face the truth. I never have had any intentions to marry you, even if you were last elleth on Arda!" Thranduil growled. “That excuse of a son to be King! He is as stupid and weak as his ada! What a fool I was, when I thought that you were different! But no, you escaped every trap I set for you. So, you can stay and dwell in your folly!” Vanmoriel screamed, now completely losing her control. “Alassien is a good boy, but unluckily he had a most horrid elleth on Arda as his mother. I’m sure he will be as happy as I, when he will be free from you. Now… choose your destiny! Tell me, where Lindir is, and I let you sail. Surely Valar themselves can keep an eye on you. Otherwise… if something has happened to my mate, I will personally send you to the Halls of Mandos!” Thranduil commanded, with a tone that scared even the bravest ones. No one had ever seen such pure hatred in their King’s face. Thranduil rose from his throne, taking his sword. “Tell me! What is your decision?” Thranduil demanded. Vanmoriel was terrified. She knew everything was lost and fell on her knees, begging for mercy. “I don’t know where he is! I swear! I sent those elves after him, but that was all!” She stammered, scared to death. “Do you really think that I would believe a one word after all your filthy lies? Tell me, or die!” Vanmoriel didn’t answer, thinking how ironical it was, that she would now die because of crime she hadn’t done. She knew that Thranduil had meant every word, and her life was at its end. The trembling elleth shut her eyes, waiting for a fatal blow. But the blow never came. Thranduil had already raised his sword, ready to strike, when he heard a voice calling him. “Thranduil Oropherion! You must hear me. If you continue, you will be a kinslayer and doomed forever! Don’t stain your hands with this elleth’s blood.” “Who are you?” The King asked. “I am Irmo, the Master of Dreams.” “Why you did call me? Where is my mate?” “Lindir O Imladris is safe. He has left to save his life.” Thranduil heard only that Lindir had left him. The heart-broken King sank to the floor and cried his pain to the heavens. Chapter 15. Lindir flinched at the sudden pain that shot through his body. A loud cry escaped from his lips when the pain continued, rapidly growing unbearable. “Master Lindir, what is the matter? Tell me, saes (please)!” Sadron asked, terrified. “Hu… hurts so… much! Help me… saes!” Lindir panted, collapsing down. Tears flowed from his eyes, and he cried helplessly. Sadron kneeled beside Lindir and tried to soothe young elf but did not succeed. Lindir’s pain was terrible to look at, and never had Sadron felt himself so weak as now. What in Arda could he do? “Sadron! Saes… I’ll loose him…” Lindir sobbed, as new wave of pain stabbed him. Sadron had tears in his eyes and he took young elf in his arms, cradling him. Sadron didn’t know what Lindir meant but he would have given anything to make the pain stop. “What do you mean, Lindir? You cannot mean your mate, do you? He loves you and he could never leave you. He will come to you, as soon as he can.” Sadron tried to console him. “N… nay, I don’t mean him. I know that he loves me. But…I…am carrying his child, Sadron. I cannot loose him.” Lindir whispered, hoarsely. Suddenly, as fast as the pain had started, it faded, leaving Lindir weak and weary. He opened his eyes, and found Sadron looking at him, stunned. “You are carrying… King Thranduil’s child?” Sadron made sure, with wonder in his voice. “Aye, I am. I don’t know how it is possible, but I’m sure of it.” Lindir said, blushing. Sadron smiled warmly. “Now I have one more reason to escort you safely to Imladris. King Thranduil will be ecstatic when he hears of it. Are you all right, Master Lindir?” The elf said. “The pain disappeared, and…the child is all right. I can still feel him. But what was that? Where that pain came from?” Lindir wondered aloud. He had never; in his life felt pain like this. “There is an explanation. I think the King maybe found out that you have left. The connection between you two is so strong that maybe you felt his pain.” Sadron slowly said. He still remembered how much it had hurt when he had lost his own mate. Without his duty to protect Thranduil, he would have faded for sure. “Oh… Thranduil nín… I miss him so much.” Lindir whispered, tears in his eyes. “I know you do. But we have to go on so that you will be safe. He will come to you, as soon as he is able to do so.” Sadron assured. “Who are you, Sadron? Why you are so good to me?” Lindir asked, wondering why this elf was so determined to protect him. He regretted his question, when he saw sorrow on Sadron’s face. I am… something else than you might think. I cannot tell you, for I have kept this secret for centuries. Just believe that I am loyal to my King, and also to you, because you are his mate.” Sadron said softly and hung his head. “Sadron?” Lindir tried again, but the elf turned away. “Don’t ask me, saes, Master Lindir! It is too painful. This issue is best to leave at rest, forever.” Sadron said firmly, wiping his tears away. Finally, Lindir gave up, but he couldn’t stop his wondering. What was it? Who ‘was’ Sadron?” * * * * “Thranduil Oropherion. You must hear me. Let your mate go, before you harm him with your struggling.” “What do you mean? How can I ever let him go? He is my mate, for Valar’s sake!” Thranduil yelled. “It was I who sent him away, and I did it from necessity. He is safe, as soon as you stop your useless ranting.” “But why? How can I live without him?” Thranduil whispered, devastated. “You can go to him, after you fulfill your duty. You have to release Mirkwood from the threat and make sure that your people will be safe. Then, and only then, you are free to go to your mate.” Thranduil turned to look at Vanmoriel, who was still kneeling on the floor, frozen with fear. “Aye. You know what to do to her, don’t you?” Irmo asked. “I do. I will send her to the Havens, and my people will finally live in peace and happiness.” Thranduil assured, and requested his soldiers take her to the dungeon. Then he turned his attention to the two elves who had attacked him. “So, what I should do with you two?” Thranduil asked from them. Megildur and Gondien hesitated for a long time. “We know what our punishment will be, and we accept it. Do with us as you will, my King.” Gondien finally said. “You know that if you had done this to the former King, you two would already have been executed for your crime, don’t you?” “Aye, we know that.” “On the other hand, you helped me to catch Lady Vanmoriel, and also told the truth when asked. And you have always been loyal to me, except this one incident.” “Aye, my King.” “So, how was it that you didn’t trust me and told me when she tried to blackmail you? I must admit that it bothers me when my own people cannot trust me.” Thranduil demanded. “We are sorry for that. But if you knew all that our sister had gone through, you too would have been scared. You have seen what Lady Vanmoriel is capable of.” “You are right. And that is the only reason I won’t sentence you to death. Take your sister with you and sail. In Aman, she will be safe, and you two may find peace. I cannot let you stay.” “We will do as you say. Thank you for your understanding.” The elves said, visibly relieved. “I believe that you two can also make sure that the Lady will arrive to Aman without any unexpected incidents?” “We will do that.” “Fine. You will go after a fortnight, and I will ride along you.” The elves seemed surprised. “But… it is almost winter, my King. How in Arda we can manage through the Misty Mountains?” “I don’t care how. We ‘will’ go, without any delays. I want Lady Vanmoriel out of my kingdom as soon as possible, and I will go after my mate. He needs me.” Thranduil said determinedly. He could guess where Lindir had gone. He needed to go to Imladris, as soon as possible. * * * * As much as he wanted, Thranduil didn’t succeed to leave immediately. The winter came too quickly, bringing snowstorms and darkness. Thranduil was devastated, but decided to use this time for his people. They needed him now, and Thranduil didn’t want to let them down. Whatever happened, he was their King, and responsible for their safety. He worked hard to make sure that he would be able to go as soon as the winter’s grip let up. The winter was long and bleak to the grieving King. He missed Lindir terribly, and the only consolation he found was from the note that had come from Imladris. Lindir had arrived there safely. “Lindir, my sweet, beautiful hervenn. Will I see you ever again?” Thranduil thought, as silent tears dropped from his eyes. Chapter 16. Spring had finally arrived, and Thranduil set their escort as soon as it was possible to leave for Imladris. Still, almost four months had passed since Lindir had escaped from Mirkwood. Thranduil led his escort with mixed feelings; he was happy to see Lindir soon, but again he was scared. He felt guilty for letting Lindir down, and not only him, but Sadron and Alassien too. What kind of welcome would he receive? Did Lindir still love him, and would he be able to forgive him? When they finally neared Imladris, Thranduil was relieved. Most of the escort would continue to the Havens after few days rest in Imladris. He himself would stay with Lindir. If Lindir still wanted him, they would finally be together openly. Thranduil had been surprised at how supportive his people had been, after hearing of their Kings bonding. Despite his short stay in Mirkwood, Lindir had succeeded in winning many hearts. Thranduil led his escort into the Imladris courtyard, anxiously searching Lindir among the elves who had collected to welcome them. To his dismay, he didn’t see his hervenn (husband). Chilling fear started to fill Thranduil’s heart. What if Lindir didn’t want to see him at all? The King dismounted and bowed to Elrond, who had came to welcome him. “It’s good to see you again, Elrond. I had hoped this would have been a little more happy occasion.” Thranduil offered carefully. He knew how protective Elrond was of Lindir, and he wasn’t quite sure how Elrond would welcome him. To his relief, Elrond smiled at him warmly. “Welcome back, Thranduil. Lindir has missed you very much.” Elrond said when they entered to the house. “Has he really? Why didn’t he come to the courtyard then? I have missed him too, more than you can ever imagine.” Thranduil whispered, unsure. “He didn’t come because I sent him to rest. He has been very tired lately.” Elrond explained, frowning. He had been quite worried about his foster-son, especially when he had found out that Lindir was with child. How would Thranduil take the news? And there was more. Elrond wasn’t worried about Lindir’s health but his mental condition. The elf had been very melancholy, and all of Elrond’s attempts to cheer him up had been in vain. “Is he all right? Can I see him?” Thranduil panicked. “You can calm down, meldir (my friend). Lindir is all right, but he just needs more rest than before. We will meet him now.” Elrond smiled. He was relieved at seeing Thranduil’s worry. The King obviously cared deeply for Lindir. Thranduil nodded silently, wondering what was behind Elrond’s mysterious behavior. He decided not to ask anything. He would surely find out as soon as he met Lindir. Finally, Elrond stopped at Lindir’s door, but he didn’t open it yet. The Lord met Thranduil’s gaze with a serious expression on his face. “Before you meet Lindir, you must promise that you will be very careful with him. Lindir is now quite fragile, so no matter he says, you must stay calm. Don’t hurt him.” Elrond said, quietly. “I promise. He has suffered enough.” Thranduil whispered; his worry increasing. What was Elrond hiding from him? Was Lindir sick, after all? His heart started to race when Elrond opened the door, silently beckoning his to step in. The Lord himself stayed outside; Lindir and Thranduil didn’t need anyone else but each other now. * * * * Thranduil noticed Lindir sleeping on the bed covered with several blankets. Hesitantly, he stepped closer, not knowing want to say or do. Lindir woke up when he heard the door click shut. He turned and gasped when he saw his mate standing in middle of the room. “Thranduil, meleth! You came to me, finally.” He smiled happily, extending his hand. Thranduil closed the distance between them and sat carefully beside Lindir. “How are you, Lindir nín? I have missed you so much.” Thranduil said, feeling a lump in his throat. Lindir was just as beautiful he remembered. Lindir blushed. Now was the moment of truth. He was happily carrying their child, but how Thranduil would take the news? “I have something to tell you, meleth.” Lindir whispered, taking Thranduil’s hand. “What it is? You make me worry.” Thranduil said softly, trying to suppress his tears. He sensed something… Lindir had changed somehow. Was it possible that he didn’t want to come back with him? Why he was so hesitant? Thranduil craved Lindir’s touch, his kisses and closeness, but didn’t dare touch him, before he was sure that Lindir wanted it too. For now, it didn’t seem to be so. “You don’t need to worry. I’m all right…but I…I ‘m with child, meleth. After six months, I will give birth to our ion.” Lindir finally whispered, blushing furiously. He forced himself to look into Thranduil’s eyes, even if it felt difficult. He had to know that Thranduil would still accept him and the child. “Lindir nín! Are you sure?” Thranduil gasped, leaning closer. “I am. Elrond has examined me, but I already knew it, because I felt his féa.” “By the Valar! I… I’m going to be ada!” Thranduil stuttered, when Lindir’s words finally sank in. “Are you all right with this? I wasn’t sure…” Lindir started, but stopped when Thranduil kissed him gently. “You are incredible, Lindir nín! You have made me very happy.” Thranduil smiled, but then frowned. “Can you forgive me, meleth? I let you down, and I couldn’t keep you in safe even when I promised to do so.” He pleaded, sensing that there was something more that bothered his mate. Lindir had every right to be angry with him, but still Thranduil hoped he would have his forgiveness. “It wasn’t your fault, Thranduil nín. There is nothing to forgive. I have been safe here, and my only worry has been that I missed you terribly.” “But… what it is then? Why you are so… why do I feel that you don’t want me to be close?” Thranduil asked, beginning to be desperate. He couldn’t understand why Lindir still seemed so distant, so hesitant to touch him. Lindir hadn’t even answered when he had kissed him. “I want you, so very much meleth! But… I can’t.” Lindir whispered and turned his head away, tears in his eyes. “Why? I can understand if Elrond had said that it is not good now, when you are with child, but I can still hold you close, I can still love you in other ways. I have missed you terribly! Tell me, saes, meleth! Don’t push me away. You’ll break my heart if you do.” Thranduil pleaded, his heart aching because of Lindir’s rejection. “It’s because… I’m not the same elf who left Mirkwood. I… My body has changed because of my pregnancy and…and, now I’m fat and ugly. You won’t want me, if… when you see me like this.” Lindir sobbed, burying his face in his hands. No matter how much he loved this child within him, he was sure that Thranduil wouldn’t want him anymore. “Oh, Lindir! Don’t say that! You could never be ugly in my eyes, never! I love you, not just your appearance, but also everything in you. And now… can you imagine how it feels when I know that you are carrying our child? I want you; I have wanted you from very start and that has never changed.” “But… you haven’t seen me…now…like this.” Lindir sighed, stunned after hearing Thranduil’s plea. Oh, how badly he wanted to believe that Thranduil really meant it all! “You’re right, I haven’t. What if you let me look then?” Thranduil whispered, so softly that Lindir barely heard it. Lindir considered denying him, but found that he couldn’t after looking into Thranduil’s sad, teary eyes. He saw the desperate plea and longing in them, and all his fears felt suddenly meaningless. The last thing Lindir wanted was to hurt his beloved mate. Silently, he started to open his robes but felt Thranduil stopping him. “Would you let me do that? For so long I have missed you, so badly that I thought I would die with my agony. I love you, always.” Lindir nodded, silently obeying but also dreading the moment when Thranduil saw him. He couldn’t believe that Thranduil would abandon him, but still he scared that he found him unattractive. How could he not? Lindir looked at Thranduil intently when the clothing finally slipped away, revealing his body to Thranduil’s gaze. If Thranduil would reject him now his heart would break, he knew it. The King gasped, mesmerized seeing that Lindir’s body had really changed. But he was not ugly… On the contrary, Lindir was now breathtakingly beautiful. His belly had rounded beautifully, tempting him to touch. Thranduil couldn’t hold himself back anymore and leaned closer. He smoothed the soft skin gently, and then placed careful kiss just where his hands had been. Feelings overwhelmed him and Thranduil wept openly. Lindir was stunned when he saw adoring expression on Thranduil’s face, but even more, he was surprised when he burst into tears. Lindir realized he had been completely wrong, when he hadn’t trust Thranduil’s love. His rejection had reduced the powerful elf-king to break down. Lindir saw Thranduil trembling as the King sobbed, and whispered lovingly to him. He still felt Thranduil’s gentle hands caressing him and last remnants of his fears disappeared. Moving closer, Lindir kissed his mate deeply and with all love and longing, he had felt during their separation. He moaned when their lips crushed together; his pregnancy had made him even more sensitive and their long separation had increased his longing. It was almost unbearable. “Saes, forgive me. I didn’t realize… I have been foolish. Touch me, meleth. Love me, saes.” Lindir pleaded, feeling tears in his own eyes too. Without another word, Thranduil undressed and lay beside Lindir taking him in his arms. He closed his eyes, too happy to even speak, now that he was finally allowed to hold his beloved hervenn in his arms. Thranduil kissed Lindir for a long time before looking into his beautiful blue eyes. “I will love you, always, Lindir nín.” Thranduil whispered lovingly. Chapter 17. Thranduil tried to keep his need in bay, for he remembered Elrond’s warning to be careful. Still, he had missed his mate terribly and he wanted desperately to touch Lindir, love him again even if he couldn’t take him. Holding Lindir close, to feel and hear his pleasure was enough for Thranduil. To his delight, Thranduil found Lindir taking pleasure from his touch even more than before. He fully enjoyed Lindir’s need and hoarse cries that escaped his lips. “Lindir… my beautiful, beautiful hervenn… I love you so.” Thranduil whispered, kissing his mate hungrily. He tasted Lindir’s mouth thoroughly, stroking his arousal at the same time. In his sensitive state, it didn’t take long before Lindir found his completion, crying Thranduil’s name. * * * * Elrond carefully sneaked to Lindir’s room and listened. Relieved, a smile split his face when he heard the unmistakable moans echoing through the door. Obviously, Lindir and Thranduil had succeeded in solving their problems. For so long he had been worried with Lindir. He had been on brink of fading when he had returned to Imladris. Only the pregnancy had kept Lindir among the living, and winter had been very hard for him. But now, everything seemed to be fine, finally. Still smiling, Elrond crept away as silently as he had come. Lindir was happy and safe at last. * * * * Thranduil looked at his mate, mesmerized by his exquisite beauty. He held Lindir as close as he possibly could, still whispering to him lovingly. Lindir felt himself thoroughly warm and loved when he finally stirred from his sensual haze. Gentle hands still caressed his flushed skin and Thranduil’s husky voice still whispered endearments. “I’m so happy you finally came to me.” Lindir said softly, enjoying their warm and sensual embrace. “I came as soon as I was possibly able to, Lindir nín. Now everything has changed. My people know about our binding and if you want to return with me, you’ll receive the welcome you should have had at the very beginning.” Lindir stared at his mate, surprised. He could sense Thranduil’s insecurity behind his words and now he finally understood how much his mate had suffered because of his absence. “And why in Arda would you think that I wouldn’t want to come home with you?” Lindir asked, gently. They needed to speak this out. “I just… I was so scared! Our binding was so sudden, and I feared terribly that you wouldn’t be happy in Mirkwood. I made the things worse when I couldn’t solve our problems soon enough. For a long time after your departure, I thought that you had left because you had been unhappy with me.” Thranduil admitted with a shaky voice. “Oh, meleth! I ‘was’ happy with you. I loved every moment I spent with you even if they were only at night. And, I also felt like Mirkwood as my home, despite those difficulties. I made friends, and your nephew is incredible, meleth! Alassien has started his training as a minstrel, and he has progressed unbelievingly fast. His singing has soothed my aching heart more than anything.” Lindir said, but then stopped when a thought hit him. “What it is, meleth?” Thranduil asked, still concerned. His fears had eased a little, but not completely disappeared. He wanted nothing more than for Lindir to be happy with him. “Meleth! I didn’t realize… I was so concerned, when Alassien told me that he was happy when he wasn’t the Crown prince. He wants to be a minstrel, and he will be the best I have ever heard. But that left us in short an heir. Now…it seems that it will be your own child that will be the heir. I’m so happy that I am able to give this to you.” Lindir whispered, the smile on his face broadening with every word. “I… I’m speechless! I didn’t know that it is possible to be this happy! You are the very breath of my being, Lindir nín.” Thranduil breathed, capturing Lindir’s mouth in a searing kiss. Lindir melted willingly into the kiss, clinging to his mate like a lifeline. He craved Thranduil’s touches and closeness after their long separation. “Touch me, meleth! I burn for you.” Lindir moaned against his mate’s lips. And touch Thranduil did. Bliss swelled inside Lindir, when he felt gentle hands caressing him lovingly. But this wasn’t enough. Thranduil’s arousal against his belly made Lindir’s need stir with a force that almost scared him. He craved to feel Thranduil within him, making him whole again. Without a word, Lindir wrapped his fingers around Thranduil’s arousal, stroking him. “Take me, meleth. I need you so much!” He pleaded, trembling with need. “Oh, meleth! I can’t! Elrond told me to be careful… and you need rest.” Thranduil gasped, desperately trying to grasp in the last remnants of his self-control. Lindir was so beautiful, so arousing, arching against him. “It is you that I need. Saes, take me! I am not sick, just pregnant and you won’t hurt me.” Lindir said with a husky voice, making Thranduil’s insides quiver with love and lust. “How could I deny you? But still, we have to be careful. I couldn’t bear the thought that I could hurt you.” He whispered, wondering how he could satisfy their need without hurting his meleth. “What if, I was on my side so, you can hold me in your arms?” Lindir suggested, settling as he spoke. After a short consideration, Thranduil obeyed. “I love to have you in my arms, Lindir nín. For so long my arms were empty and cold,” He whispered, gently pulling Lindir closer. When he noticed how freely he could touch him in this position, his smile grew. Thranduil took his time, preparing Lindir with great care and gentleness. Their joining was also gentle, and so beautiful that Lindir wept freely in his beloved mate’s arms. Thranduil held him tightly as he moved inside him, filling him with his love. Lindir had never felt so loved and safe. This was where he belonged; in Thranduil’s arms, being one with him. Lindir moaned when he felt Thranduil’s hands slowly sliding lower, first squeezing his belly, and then stroking his arousal. Suddenly, Thranduil trembled and Lindir felt his completion pulsing inside him. Lindir followed, and their cries of completion echoed around. For a long time they basked in afterglow of their lovemaking, kissing and whispering words of love. Thranduil gently turned Lindir so they were face to face and smiled happily when Lindir buried his face into his neck. “I have missed you so much. When we can go home?” Lindir asked wearily. Thranduil was surprised and glad when he heard Lindir call Mirkwood as his home. But now, when things had changed completely, they couldn’t leave as soon as he had thought. “Not yet, meleth. The trip will be far too dangerous for you, when you are pregnant. I almost lost you, and I won’t endanger you again. What if we stayed in Imladris, until our son is born?” Thranduil said softly, thinking that he wanted only the best for Lindir and where healing was concerned, that was Elrond. “But… how will your people cope? Don’t they need you? I don’t want you to leave without me.” Lindir started. Whatever happened, he would follow Thranduil. “I won’t leave you, meleth. Now that I have you back, you will find yourself completely stuck with me, and my people will be all right. I worked hard the whole winter so that I could come here as soon as possible and stay as long as it is necessary.” Thranduil assured and finally Lindir calmed, snuggling as close as possible. “I love to be stuck with you.” He chuckled, starting to realize all profits Thranduil’s decision had. He didn’t need to worry over the child, because he trusted Elrond completely. Elrond would be happy to be able to deliver his child. And… Thranduil would have much more time to spend with him. The mere thought felt heavenly. “And now, meleth, I want you to sleep. You need rest.” Thranduil said, holding Lindir as close as possible. “I will sleep… on one condition.” Lindir mumbled, realizing how exhausted he really was. “And what is the condition? I’ll do whatever I can.” “When I wake up, I want do it in your arms.” “You will be, meleth. I swear it. You will be in my arms till the end of Arda.” Thranduil assured, gently smoothing Lindir’s hair and back, until the elf finally slept against his chest. “You really are incredible, Lindir nín. I am truly blessed to have you and your love.” He thought to himself. Now, when he had time and opportunity, he took a better look at his mate. Thranduil wondered how Lindir could think that he would ever find him ugly. From the beginning, Thranduil had loved him with all his heart, but now the feeling had deepened further. No matter how much Lindir’s appearance would change, he was the most beautiful creature in all Arda. Thranduil didn’t sleep that night. The only rest he needed was to hold his beloved mate in his arms. Every now and then Thranduil would caress Lindir’s belly where their unborn child grew. Chapter 18. Lindir was excited, when he escorted his mate to the Music hall. Tonight, Thranduil would hear Alassien’s playing and singing for the very first time. This wasn’t a public performance yet, for Alassien hadn’t reached his majority. Only Lindir, Thranduil and Sadron would be there. Thranduil chuckled when he saw Lindir’s enthusiasm. His mate had been so serious for a long time, and it felt good to see him like this. When Alassien ran to them, Thranduil hugged his nephew, starting to understand how much Vanmoriel had suffocated their lives. Alassien was so different from his former self, cheerful and happy. Then, Thranduil saw Sadron and frowned. The elf seemed worn and tired. “Sadron? How have you been?” Thranduil asked, concerned. The elf smiled warmly but couldn’t hide his tiredness. “I’m fine, my King and happy to see you here,” Sadron said. Thranduil wasn’t convinced, but he didn’t want to pressure his friend, so he just escorted Lindir to the chair and beckoned him to sit. “You don’t have to fuss over me like that, meleth.” Lindir whispered, blushing. “Oh aye! I have to and if you don’t sit like a good elf, I…” Thranduil chuckled. “…you what?” Lindir asked with a challenging tone. He didn’t want to argue, but he would go crazy if Thranduil intended to be like a mother hen around him for the next six months. But Thranduil only smiled at him sweetly and sat down, pulling Lindir on his lap. Lindir manage not to argue before Thranduil kissed him deeply, leaving him breathless. “I can kiss you again, if you still want to argue with me, meleth.” Thranduil murmured against Lindir’s lips. Lindir smiled, calming down. “I don’t want to argue with you… but … I definitely wanted you to kiss me.” When they finally settled comfortably in the chair, Lindir nodded to Alassien, who had been beside his harp waiting anxiously for his turn. The young elf breathed deeply and after one more moment, finally began. * * * * The room filled with the most beautiful music they had ever heard. Even Lindir, who was a skilled minstrel, had to admit that Alassien was someday, going to be better than himself. The young elf had a remarkable skill to soothe hearts and ease minds with his music. Thranduil listened, stunned and tears filled his eyes. Suddenly, he remembered how his brother had sung to him when they had been younger. “You would be so proud of your ion, gwador (brother). Alassien is so much like you, more than I ever believed possible.” When the young elf finally ceased his playing, Thranduil and Lindir cheered warmly and Alassien blushed happily. They were so engaged in the magical moment that the next event took them all by surprise. They heard a loud thud and when they looked around, noticed that Sadron had passed out. Thranduil kneeled down beside his friend and picked him up. “Oh, Sadron! I knew something was wrong with you. Why you didn’t tell me?” Thranduil said, worried. Then he glanced at Lindir. “We have to find Elrond. Do you know where he is, meleth?” Lindir was astonished at seeing Sadron like this, but then he told Thranduil to follow him. He knew that this time of the day, Elrond most likely would be in his study. To his great relief, they found the Elf-lord there. * * * * Námo, The doomsman of the Valar, bluntly stared at the fëa that had been summoned in front of him. “Do you know that I have called your mate here?” He then asked. The fëa stared at him, his cold appearance finally breaking. “That is not possible! He promised! He promised to be there for my son.” “It is your horrendous actions that had caused his constant suffering. You are responsible for your mate’s fading and even I cannot stop it now. Why should I do that anyway? Here he would finally find peace and cured. Don’t you think that he had carried his burden long enough?” The fëa finally lost its arrogant air and nodded silently. “I have summoned you, because now you will have a well deserved punishment for your crimes. You have denied him his rightful place beside you, as your mate and as ada of your children. You forced him to hide in shadows, turned his love against him, using him savagely. And your ion… you forced him to make the oath that had caused him pain and confusion. Because of the oath, he almost faded. Because of it, he almost lost his soul mate. And your other ion… you forced him to bind with that elleth who caused his fading. Here and now, I will break the bond between you and your family, so that they all would finally find rest.” The fëa listened, its self-loathing increasing with every word until it finally collapsed down, begging for mercy. “I have done all that, and I deserve any punishment that is waiting for me. But saes, let me try to make amends. Saes, let me tell the truth, finally. I don’t ask this for me but for them, so that my ion will finally know his true heritage.” “So, are you really ready to set them free? Do you know that they will probably hate you because of this?” “I know that. I deserve their hatred. Whatever I have done, I loved my mate and my children. But I haven’t deserved their love.” “So be it.” The Vala had hardly said this, when the fëa felt as if it were drowning into darkness. * * * * Lindir, Thranduil and Alassien anxiously waited for Elrond to finish his examination. Thranduil thought of his friend, and was terrified at the thought of losing him. Now he realized how dear Sadron really was to him. Not in the same way as Lindir, but Sadron was much more than a mere servant and friend to him. In many ways, he had been much closer than his own ada. Thranduil couldn’t remember his nana, because he had been too young to remember her when she had left Middle-earth right after his brother’s birth. Sadron had filled that place, and Thranduil had never felt unloved, even if his ada had been so cold to him. Was he now about to lose Sadron? The door finally opened, and Elrond stepped in. Thranduil’s heart fell, when he noticed sad expression on Elrond’s face. “How is he? Can we see him?” Thranduil still asked. “You can now go and see him, but only a short while. He is awake, but very tired. I’m so sorry that I have to tell you this, but your valet is fading. Mandos is calling him, and there is nothing I can do to help, but to ease his pain.” “By the Valar! Why? Why now? What could have made him so unhappy that he doesn’t want to live? I could have understood if it happened right after the war. Sadron lost his mate in the same battle as I lost my ada” “I don’t know. One possibility is that he, for some reason, has struggled to stay here even after his mate’s loss, but now he has finally given up. His condition has worsened so slowly that nobody suspected a thing. And he hid his condition masterfully.” “Oh, Sadron! I wished that he had told me if he suffered like this. He has always been there for me, and I would have done the same, if I had known.” Thranduil whispered. “Go to him, meldir, just showing him that he is not alone will ease his pain.” * * * * Thranduil did as Elrond beckoned. When he stepped into the healing room and saw Sadron, his calm appearance broke down. He closed the distance between them and took his friend in his arms. “Why didn’t you tell me?” Thranduil whispered, tears in his eyes. “I…I couldn’t. I had to be there for you. I have sworn to protect and support you always.” “You know full well that I never wanted you to strain yourself in the process. I would have understood if you needed more rest. I would have listened, if you suffered.” Sadron shook his head tiredly. “I couldn’t burden you with my problems. You have had enough of them yourself. But now you are happy, so that I would finally find peace.” As they spoke, the dark figure materialized in front of them. Thranduil’s heart almost stopped when he recognized him. “My Lord Námo. Did you come to summon me? Do I finally find peace?” Sadron whispered hopefully. “I did, my child. But I also came to bring you justice. For so long you have suffered, but it will end here and now.” Thranduil didn’t hear them. He stared at the figure that stood behind Námo. “Ada? What in Arda are you doing here?” Chapter 19. Námo looked at the former King, silently demanding him to explain his presence. The king, Oropher looked at the elf who lay on the sickbed, with tears in his eyes. “I am here… I am here to do what I should have done centuries ago. I bring you justice meleth, but I dare not beg your forgiveness. I don’t deserve it.” He finally began. “What do you mean, ada?” Thranduil breathed, confused. “I mean that Sadron is my beloved mate, and he also gave life to both of my sons.” “Why do you do this? Why now? I have kept this secret, as I promised.” Sadron whispered, trembling with emotions. For so long he had hoped, waited for those words, but those words never came. When Oropher died in the war, it had been the worst day of his life. “I was wrong when I demanded that of you. I was nothing but a cursed coward and I didn’t deserve you and your love, meleth. You should have been openly beside me, but instead I denied you and forced you to live in shadows.” Thranduil had listened to their conversation silently, the dreadful suspicion stirring in his mind. “You cannot mean…” Thranduil began, but Oropher waved him silence. “I swear it is true, ion. Sadron was my true bonded mate, also the one who had given birth to you and your brother.” Sadron closed his eyes, dreadfully waiting for Thranduil’s reaction. His son’s reaction, as he now dared to consider him, openly, for the very first time. For so long he had been only a servant and a friend to his son. What would Thranduil say about this? “You mean… you mean that Sadron is my ada?” Thranduil croaked. “Aye, ion. For so long I denied the truth only because of my cowardice.” “You really mean… that you denied your mate, replacing him with a fake? You took his children away from him, giving us to another, denying a true ada’s love from my brother and me. Then you forced me to swear that cursed oath that almost took my life? What kind of monster you are?” Oropher flinched with every word that Thranduil yelled at him. When his actions were revealed to him in this way. It was almost unbearable to listen to them. How could he have been so cruel to them? Thranduil was furious. His entire life had been nothing but a lie. He wanted to make Oropher suffer, as he and his brother had suffered! Thranduil closed the distance between himself and his father, his hands itching to slap that bastard. He didn’t stop before he heard a heartfelt plea behind him. He turned around and saw Sadron extending his hand pleadingly to him. “Thranduil, saes! Don’t do this.” Sadron whispered, tears in his eyes. Thranduil stared at the elf, as the thought finally dawned on him. Hesitating, he stepped closer and took Sadron’s hand. “Sadron… you really are… my ada?” Thranduil asked softly. Sadron could only nod and in the next moment, he was in Thranduil’s arms. “So… that’s why you always were so good to me. That’s why I always felt you closer than to the elleth I thought as my nana.” Thranduil whispered, tears in his eyes. Sadron couldn’t answer. Never had he dared to dream of this; that Thranduil would hold him like this and he would be free call him son. Feelings overwhelmed him and he wept against his son’s chest. Oropher stared at them, silently weeping. He had been so cruel to his beloved mate and to his ion. All this because of his cursed cowardice. Was it really so hard for him to admit that he loved a male elf; that his sons had been born from a male? Now he understood how he had almost destroyed his mate and sons. Their love towards him, he had destroyed, of that he was sure. Oropher turned and faced Námo, who stood beside him silently watching Sadron and Thranduil. “So, now you understand what you have done?” The doomsman asked coldly. “Aye, and I also know that I didn’t deserve them from the beginning.” “You didn’t. But I’m glad that your son isn’t as vile as you. The gift that was taken away from you was given to your son instead and he has proven himself worthy of it.” “What do you mean? Has Thranduil bonded then?” “He has, and he also treats his mate with love and respect. Look.” Oropher turned to the door and noticed it opening. He saw a beautiful elf stepping in. A beautiful male elf, who was visibly pregnant. Lindir walked to his mate, wondering if he was welcomed. “Would you tell me what has happened, meleth? Why you are crying?” He asked concerned. Thranduil turned and pulled Lindir in his arms, trying to regain his composure. “I’m glad you came, meleth. I need to tell you something.” Thranduil said softly. “So, tell me.” Thranduil turned Lindir around so that he could see Oropher and Námo standing on the other side of the room. “Who are they? Why they are here?” Lindir asked, surprised to see strangers in Sadron’s room. “I am Námo, and I came here for Sadron. This is Oropher, who has come to make amends to his mate and son.” The Vala said. “I don’t understand. “ Lindir breathed, stunned. “Lindir nín, I have been told something unexpected. My ada is here, because he and Sadron are bonded mates.” “By the Valar! Why you didn’t tell me before?” “I didn’t tell, because I didn’t know myself. Ada had kept Sadron as a secret, and he demanded Sadron not to tell anyone about it. And there is more; the elleth that I considered my nana didn’t give birth to me or my brother.” “So, who is your real nana then?” Thranduil turned to Sadron, gently smoothing his brow. “Not nana, but ada, Lindir nín.” He said, lump in his throat. Lindir could only stare at them, and then he did something unexpected. “How could you be so cruel that you deny your own mate? How could you deny your children their other parent’s love?” He asked to Oropher. Oropher flinched. Lindir was just as Sadron should have been. Confident, loved and cherished. Oropher hung his head for he couldn’t meet Lindir’s gaze. “I… I did it because I was nothing but a weak coward. I didn’t deserve Sadron. I thought that my people wouldn’t accept him because he is male. I’m so glad that my son is not like me. Anyone can see that he loves you like I should have loved Sadron.” He whispered, ashamed. Then he turned to Námo, gathering his courage. “I have done terrible deeds towards them when I should have loved. I am ready for any punishment you give to me, Híren. I just ask… saes; let them be happy, finally. Let Sadron live so that he would know his son’s love that I denied him.” “Do you know the price you have to pay, if I do as you ask? Are you ready to set your mate free? Are you ready to give up your only possibility to re-born and step to the White Shores?” Námo asked, studying at him carefully. “I know, and I will pay it gladly if Sadron will be happy again.” “No, meleth! Don’t do that! I am ready to move on. Thranduil is happy with Lindir, and I’m no longer needed.” Sadron pleaded, bursting in tears. Oropher went to his mate and kissed him gently. “I will do anything for you, meleth. Anything! I just realized it too late. Your love was a true gift that I should have treasured, not abuse as I did. Namarië, meleth nín ( Farewell, my love). Be happy and remember that I will love you till the end of time.” He said, and went back to the Vala. “I’m ready.” Námo extended his hand and in the next moment, Oropher was gone. A loud wail escaped from Sadron’s lips. Thranduil tried to console him, but the elf was too deep in his agony to hear. “Be at peace, Sadron O Taur- nu-Fuin. You will live and be happy. Finally, your mate put you in the place you have belonged from the beginning.” “But… I…cannot be happy when I know that I will not see him ever again. Why did he sacrifice himself for me?” “He did only what you have done many times, Sadron. You have sacrificed your whole life for him, and he gave you nothing for it. “I love him! I did it all of my own free will. My heart will break if I know that I never see him again.” Sadron sobbed desperately. “You will see him. Your mate is now in Irmo’s garden, healing so that he can be re- born and reunite with you when you finally leave these shores.” ”But why then… why did you say that…” Sadron stuttered. “I did it because he had to learn his lesson. He had to sacrifice himself for you, to prove himself worthy for you. He won’t hurt you anymore, my child.” A weary smile appeared on Sadron’s face. “I… I cannot say how grateful I am, Híren.” He said. The Vala didn’t answer but waved his hand before disappearing. Thranduil, Lindir and Sadron studied at each other for along time, beginning to realize that their lives had changed completely. Chapter 20. It took quite a long time before Thranduil obeyed, and agreed to leave Sadron’s side and go to rest with Lindir. The King still feared that something would happen, even though Námo had assured that Sadron would live. “You must go and rest, Thranduil. Look at Lindir. He is exhausted, and you know that he won’t leave you.” Sadron coaxed his son. He too, sorely needed rest, for he had been fading for a long time, and it would take quite a while before he would be back to health. Thranduil still hesitated. “Do you promise to stay with us if I go with Lindir? I don’t want to lose you, ada, now that I have finally learned the truth.” Sadron looked at his son with tears of happiness flowing from his eyes. For so long he had lived as his son’s servant, and it still felt like a dream to hear Thranduil call him ada. “I promise, I won’t go anywhere if that is what you want. You heard Námo; you can trust that I won’t fade anymore.” Sadron said softly. He smiled shyly, when Thranduil leaned closer and kissed his brow. His son’s affection felt divine. “It is what I want, ada. I want you to be part of my family, as you should have been from the beginning. And it is even more important now, when we are going to have our own child. I want you to be there for him as well.” Thranduil assured. Lindir looked silently at them. When he had learned the truth, many things had become clear to him. He had always thought that Thranduil and Sadron were quite similar, and their likeness was now even more visible, for all to see. They had the same coloring; and same beautiful, gentle smile. Lindir could see it even though Thranduil had inherited Oropher’s more powerful frame. Suddenly, Lindir remembered the conversation between himself and Sadron, during their flight from Mirkwood. He smiled, realizing that now he finally knew who Sadron was. Lindir had liked him from the beginning, and he was happy for them, and for his son. The child would have loving parents and family around him. “Our ion will be a lucky one. He will have loving parents, and a daeradar (grandfather) who can spoil him shamelessly.” Lindir smiled at Sadron, who couldn’t help his laughter. “It will be my privilege and great pleasure to do so.” Sadron smiled, when they finally rose to leave. They bid their good nights and Thranduil led his mate to their chambers. * * * * Lindir let Thranduil undress him, even if he still wasn’t completely comfortable with his changing body. He blushed when Thranduil lowered him on the bed and looked at him adoringly. Thranduil sensed Lindir’s insecurity, and made haste to get rid of his own clothes. Then he took Lindir in his arms, kissing him gently. “I truly hope that you wouldn’t feel the need to hide yourself from me, Lindir nín. You are breathtakingly beautiful, and nothing can make me think differently.” Thranduil whispered, caressing Lindir lovingly. He buried his face in Lindir’s hair, smelling the intoxicating fragrance. For a long time, he just took pleasure from his beloved’s closeness, for he felt a desperate need for consolation. Sadron and his suffering was constantly on his mind, making him melancholy. Thranduil couldn’t understand how his ada had been so cruel to him. How anyone could do something like that to the one he loved? “I love you so, meleth nín. I just cannot understand how ada could be so cruel to Sadron. How could he separate us from him? How he could deny him? Whatever happens, I would never deny you or our child, never!” Thranduil said, his tears starting to flow. Lindir started at Thranduil’s sudden melancholy and tried to console him. “I know that you could never do anything like that, meleth. I have always felt loved and cherished when I am with you, believe me, saes. I love you, always.” He whispered, holding Thranduil tightly as he wept. When Thranduil finally calmed, Lindir kissed his tears away, then captured his mouth in a deep kiss. He wanted to show Thranduil all love he held in his heart for him. When they finally broke the kiss, Thranduil looked at Lindir, holding him close. “Would you make love to me, my beautiful Lindir? I want you so much.” He asked, smiling hopefully. Only Lindir could take this pain away. Lindir nodded, feeling a lump in his throat. He remembered the last time he had taken Thranduil. It had been the very night when he had seen Irmo in his dream and received his warning. One night before he had escaped from Mirkwood. He still remembered the agony he had felt, but he was also grateful that now he had Thranduil with him again. This time he could love his meleth without any fears or shadows between them. Slowly, gently, Lindir let his hands wander over Thranduil’s body, taking pleasure his moans and gasps. “Do you like when I touch you, meleth nin?” Lindir purred at him, smiling teasingly. He felt his own need rising, with a quivering force, when he saw Thranduil coming undone. “I do! Saes, do not torment me so. I need you in me, now.” Thranduil breathed, his body and soul burning with helpless need. Only Lindir could make him feel this way, how he wanted to have his meleth within him! “Shh… I don’t torment you… I want to touch you… I want to love you.” Lindir whispered, smothering Thranduil’s begging with his kisses. He smiled when he finally reached Thranduil’s hard arousal with his hand and heard a loud wail escaping from his lips. Thranduil was beyond all coherent thinking. All that mattered was Lindir, his kisses and caresses. He writhed and begged under his mate’s loving touch, letting Lindir prepare him for what was coming. “Now meleth… on all fours; and you will have your wish.” Lindir whispered huskily, wanting nothing more than take away Thranduil’s pain and replace it with love and happiness. Thranduil did as Lindir coaxed, anxiously waiting him to fill him. He gasped when he felt gentle hands on his buttocks, and cried out with pleasure when Lindir finally entered him. Hot waves of ecstasy began wash over Thranduil when Lindir finally started to move. He forgot everything else, but his beloved Lindir inside him, loving him as no one else ever could. “Lindir… Lindir!” Thranduil moaned in his mindless rapture as his completion shook him. Panting, he collapsed to the bed and smiled happily when Lindir leaned closer and kissed him. “Are you all right, meleth?” Lindir asked, concerned when he still saw tears in Thranduil’s eyes. “I am thanks to you, Lindir nín. Every day I thank Valar for their graciousness, that they gave me you. Without you and your love, I couldn’t go on.” Thranduil said softly, cradling Lindir in his arms. “Oh Thranduil! I’m so happy with you, meleth.” Lindir whispered, kissing Thranduil all over again. “I’m relieved to hear that, Lindir nín. I want you to be happy with me. I would do anything to for you, anything!” “I know. You always make me feel loved and safe. Our ion would be the luckiest elfling in all Arda with you as his ada.” Thranduil smiled, and caressed Lindir’s belly. “I am the luckiest elf in all Arda, now that I have you and our ion. You two are everything I have hoped for in life. I just wished…” He sighed. “What it is? Tell me.” Lindir asked, frowning. Thranduil cupped Lindir’s face, making their gazes to meet. “I hope that you would believe me when I say that you are now even more tempting than before. Have you any idea what it feels like to know that you are carrying our child? He will be born because we love each other very much; remember that, ind nín,” He said pleadingly. Lindir trembled, when he saw Thranduil’s eyes. The love and devotion he saw in them shook Lindir to his very core. Now he fully understood how much Thranduil loved him, and he found it hard to breathe. “I was very wrong when I doubted you even for one moment, I see that now. No one has ever touched my heart like you, meleth.” Lindir whispered, stroking Thranduil’s cheek. “I’m so happy that you finally know that. There is no life for me without you. You are my very reason to live, to exist.” Thranduil said softly. Lindir smiled happily and relaxed into Thranduil’s arms. He was languid and completely sated; it didn’t take long before he drifted off. Thranduil soon followed Lindir into slumber, but even then, he didn’t let Lindir go. Finally, he had his mate where he belonged, in his heart and in his arms, forever. Chapter 21. Lindir blossomed under Thranduil’s loving care and he enjoyed it shamelessly when Elrond and Sadron also spoiled him. “I didn’t know that it was possible to be this happy.” Lindir admitted to Sadron, when they sat in the beautiful garden. Thranduil and Elrond were working, and discussing about some urgent matters. “That is good to hear. I’m so glad that Thranduil found you, Lindir. He had suffered very much, but you have brought love and happiness to him.” Sadron smiled at Lindir. He was slowly recovering, and the best medicine for him was Lindir and Thranduil’s company. “I love him so much and the child too. Though, I must admit that childbirth makes me nervous.” Lindir whispered, his face darkening. He hadn’t dared to talk about this to Thranduil, for he didn’t want him to worry. “It is understandable that you are nervous. But Elrond is the best healer in Arda, and… if you want, I would gladly help anywhere I can.” Sadron offered hesitantly. He wasn’t completely used to his changed position and didn’t want to intrude. Lindir gasped, realizing that Sadron could be better support for him than anyone else. The older elf was gone through this all before. He turned, and took Sadron’s hand. “Would you do that for me? I would be very grateful if you could help me. You know what I am going through better than anyone else…or it is too painful to remember those events?” He asked, hopefully. Sadron smiled fondly. “It isn’t painful, not anymore. Now that you know the truth, I have thought about those events a lot. You will see that giving birth to your child will be the greatest moment in your life. I will never forget what it felt like to hold Thranduil in my arms for the very first time…” He said softly, memories flowing in his mind. Sadron was happy to finally be able to share his thoughts with someone. And he was even happier that someone was so dear to him. Sadron had taken the liking to Lindir from the very first moment. This beautiful and sweet elf was a worthy mate to his beloved son. * * * * “We cannot tell Lindir about this.” Thranduil demanded, frowning. “I think you are right. Not before the child is born and he is back in health.” Elrond agreed. Lindir was now happy and well, and Elrond didn’t want anything to change that fact. Thranduil thought of this latest event, wondering where Vanmoriel’s fëa had gone after her unexpected passing to the Halls of Mandos. Whatever Thranduil had thought of Vanmoriel, he admitted that her death had been a shock to him, and even more, because she had taken her own life by jumping into sea. “It is time to forget her. She cannot cause any trouble from Mandos’ Halls, so let her rest in peace.” Elrond finally said. He had never met the elleth, but he was relieved that she was gone. Lindir had suffered so much because of her. “I feel the same way. Besides, there are much more important things to do than worrying about past. It is sometimes so hard to believe that I’m going to be ada.” Elrond chuckled when he saw a goofy grin splitting Thranduil’s face. He was grateful that Lindir had found such happiness; their love shone brightly for all to see. “You only have to look at Lindir to realize that everything is real.” “That’s true. He is so beautiful when he is with child.” Thranduil sighed, a distant expression in his eyes. It wasn’t difficult to guess that the King was thinking of Lindir. Elrond couldn’t hide his mirth anymore. Thranduil was obviously unable to continue the negotiations at this moment. “What if we take a break so that you can go and kiss him senseless?” Elrond suggested, laughing teasingly. Thranduil didn’t need to be told twice. He rose and hurried to the door, but turned back towards Elrond, blushing. “You must think me a lovesick fool?” He said a little embarrassed. “You are not. You are only a loving elf, and even your crown cannot change that fact.” Elrond said and smiled warmly. Aye… Lindir was a lucky elf, but so was Thranduil. Their happiness warmed Elrond’s heart. * * * * Sadron still tired easily, and soon he started to seem weary. The sunset was so beautiful that he didn’t make any haste back inside. Instead, he leaned backwards in his chair and slowly drifted off. Lindir let him sleep, studying Sadron’s features closely. When Sadron was relaxed, he resembled Thranduil even more, and Lindir wondered how he hadn’t noticed that before. He was so focused on Sadron that he didn’t notice how a dark figure sneaked closer. Lindir gasped and started when strong arms wrapped around his waist and a familiar voice purred to his ear: “I missed you, meleth nín. Would you kiss me?” Lindir turned his head and did as asked. When he finally broke the kiss, he leaned into Thranduil’s arms, trying to catch his breath. “I missed you, meleth. Hold me.” Lindir whispered, turning around. He enjoyed Thranduil’s closeness, his strong body against his own. Lindir sighed happily when he felt a gentle hand smoothing his hair. “Would you come with me? I want to make love with you now.” Thranduil whispered with a sultry voice. Lindir shivered and moaned at the thought, but then blushed when he noticed Sadron’s sleeping figure. “But… It’s daytime! How can we…” Lindir tried to say, but Thranduil smothered all his objections with a new fierce kiss. “I don’t care what time it is. I want you, meleth nín.” “How can I leave him? I cannot just disappear without telling him that I am gone.” Lindir panted, looking at Sadron. He was relieved seeing that Sadron still slept and so he hadn’t heard Thranduil. Thranduil didn’t have time to answer when they heard Sadron’s warm laughter. “I am all right. Just go, and enjoy.” The elf said, without raising his head. The happy couple left and Sadron looked at them, still smiling. “I have every reason to live and be happy. I’m so happy for them. This is all I ever wanted for my son.” * * * * “Now that was embarrassing!” Lindir groaned, burying his face into Thranduil’s chest. “You have no reason to be embarrassed, Lindir nín. Everybody knows that I love you very much.” Thranduil said gently, carrying Lindir to their chambers. Lindir wasn’t quite convinced, and tried to struggle away from Thranduil’s arms. “Would you just put me down? I am far too heavy for you to carry like this.” Thranduil didn’t make a move to release his mate, but continued his way. “You are not too heavy for me, never. I love to hold you like this, and our child doesn’t change that, meleth.” He insisted. To his delight, Lindir stopped his struggling and relaxed. If he had seen a wicked gleam in Lindir’s eyes, he wouldn’t be so careless. “You are going to pay for embarrassing me in front of Sadron. And I know exactly how!” Lindir thought to himself, “I love it when you hold me like this.” Lindir whispered, and pulled Thranduil’s mouth into a heated kiss. Thranduil groaned, feeling his knees weakening. Lindir took advantage of this and deepened their kiss. He wouldn’t let Thranduil go before he had tasted him thoroughly. Lindir continued his sensual attack, sucking his earlobe gently, until Thranduil trembled. Hopelessly aroused, he quickened his pace. Lindir really had the ability to turn him into a puddle. When they finally reached their chambers, Thranduil panted heavily and his leggings felt so tight that he was ready to burst. Chapter 22. “You wicked little teaser! Look, what you have done to me.” Thranduil growled when they were finally back in their chambers. Lindir’s teasing had caused his whole being to pulse with need. “What I have done to you? I must admit that you seem a little feverish. I hope you aren’t sick, meleth.” Lindir laughed huskily. Thranduil released him, and turned to lock the door. Lindir noticed his chance and leaned against Thranduil’s back. Shamelessly, he extended his hand, stroking Thranduil’s arousal through the leggings. Lindir smiled mischievously when Thranduil leaned against the wall, groaning with need. “And besides… I think you have some stiffness… Maybe you need a healer…” Lindir purred, continuing his torturous ministrations. He fully enjoyed of Thranduil’s reactions to his caresses. “Are you trying to kill me, or what? I am sick… an awfully love-sick elf, and I will die if I don’t have you now, meleth.” Thranduil panted, turning around. He couldn’t wait anymore. He wanted Lindir, now. Lindir did not have any intentions of surrendering so easily; he wrapped his arms around Thranduil’s neck, pulling him into a breathtaking kiss. Thranduil could only surrender to Lindir’s seduction, all his senses disappearing into haze of desire. A broken cry escaped his lips as he felt swift hands under his tunic, touching him softly. “Lindir, meleth! I want you… I want you so much!” Thranduil whispered and almost sobbed with relief, when Lindir finally stopped his teasing. “Come then… come and take me, Thranduil nín.” Lindir trembled with anticipation when Thranduil undressed him. He was already aching hard, and only Thranduil could satisfy his longing. When his robes pooled on the floor, Lindir pulled his mate closer. Lindir moaned, when their arousals crushed together, wanting nothing more than to feel Thranduil within him. “Thranduil! Saes, touch me.” He begged, his knees weakening. Thranduil lowered his mate on the bed and watched at him, completely mesmerized. Lindir lay on the bed, his skin flushed with need. His blue eyes blazing with desire…. Thranduil moaned when he saw Lindir opening his legs in invitation, revealing his aching arousal to him. Lindir in his passion, all his inhibitions forgotten, was the most glorious sight Thranduil had ever seen. “Have you any idea how beautiful you seem right now?” Thranduil asked, with a hoarse voice, when he settled beside Lindir. “No, but maybe you can tell me…? Touch me, love me… I burn for you.” Lindir purred, pressing himself as close as he possibly could. Thranduil greedily attacked Lindir’s neck, licking and sucking. A wild wave of desire washed over him when Lindir clung to him, begging for more. He moved on Lindir’s chest, tasting and teasing his hard nipples. Lindir let out keening wail, as the hot mouth feasted on him. He buried his hands in Thranduil’s hair. “You are so delicious… so tempting… I never get enough of you.” Thranduil whispered, raising his head. His heart almost stopped, when he looked into Lindir’s blue eyes and saw love and desire burning in them. “Take me, meleth, saes! I cannot wait anymore.” Lindir pleaded, opening his arms to his mate. “Not yet, Lindir nín. First, I’m going to taste you and watch how you come to me.” Thranduil chuckled hoarsely, soothing Lindir’s trembling thighs. Lindir’s frustrated objection soon changed to a low moan when Thranduil took him into his hand, stroking him. “Just like that… don’t hide anything… let me see your pleasure…” Thranduil coaxed, smiling lovingly. Despite his own need, he didn’t hurry. He never would tire of this, to see Lindir this way, so lost in his pleasure. “Oh… Thranduil!” Lindir gasped, as a hungry mouth feasted on his arousal. The whole world disappeared, and Lindir heard only the quickening beat of his heart. He begged and pleaded, and finally screamed Thranduil’s name, releasing into his lover’s eager mouth. When Lindir finally recovered, he looked into Thranduil’s loving eyes, leaning closer. “Take me, saes.” He pleaded, his body still burning with desire. “Shh… you don’t have to wait anymore. But this time… I wanted to see you better.” Thranduil said, smiling hopefully. “But how… when I… when my…” Lindir stuttered, suddenly confused. He knew that they had only few possible positions to make love in when he was pregnant. “I just hoped that you…” Thranduil whispered softly and lay on his back, pulling Lindir atop him. “But why?” Lindir gasped, realizing what Thranduil wanted from him. “It’s because…if you are atop me, I can see you properly… in all your glory and I can also… touch you much more easily.” Thranduil said, helping Lindir to sit. “Besides… I can the see pleasure on your beautiful face, while you love me in a way only you can. Saes, meleth. Would you do that for me?” He continued caressing Lindir’s sides until his hands rested on Lindir’s hips. Lindir hesitated at first, but then obeyed. He couldn’t deny Thranduil anything, particularly now when his green eyes looked at him pleadingly. Lindir panted heavily, waiting while Thranduil prepared him. After a moment’s hesitation, Lindir settled atop Thranduil, allowing them to be joined as one. First, he could only sit still and just take pleasure from their joining. Thranduil waited for Lindir to adjust, gazing up into his face. He sighed, noticing how Lindir closed his eyes in pleasure. The sight thrilled Thranduil even more, as he knew that he had caused the rapture on his beloved’s face. “You feel so good inside of me.” Lindir whispered, as he started to rock his hips. With Thranduil’s help, they found a perfect rhythm, and their moans and gasps echoed in the room. Lindir was mesmerized by how Thranduil became undone beneath him, his beautiful face radiating with pleasure and love. Lindir couldn’t get enough of Thranduil’s hands that caressed him ever so lovingly. How he loved his meleth… his gentleness, his passion, everything about him. And most of all, Lindir loved how Thranduil always touched him with adoration that made his heart sing. A hoarse cry escaped from Lindir’s lips when Thranduil grasped his arousal, stroking him. “Come to me… with me, my beautiful Lindir.” Thranduil panted, and Lindir came. Thranduil couldn’t take his eyes off his mate, as he shook in throes of his orgasm. The sight was exquisite! Lindir’s pleasure finally pulled Thranduil over his own peak, and he released himself deep inside of his mate. Thranduil pulled Lindir as close as possible, when aftershocks ran through them, leaving them finally languid and completely sated. Lindir opened his eyes when he felt a gentle caress on his belly. He smiled when he saw Thranduil rubbing his cheek across the sensitive skin. Lindir couldn’t prevent his satisfied purr when Thranduil kissed his belly, again and again. “You really seem to love it, when I’m pregnant.” He laughed happily, when Thranduil finally took him in his arms. “I told you so, didn’t I? I’m so happy you finally see yourself as you truly are; beautiful and tempting beyond words.” Thranduil whispered, kissing Lindir lovingly. “I love you, Thranduil nín. Sometimes it feels like a dream that I found you.” “This is no dream, meleth. I am very real, and so is our son.” Thranduil said softly, still caressing Lindir’s flushed body. Suddenly, Lindir felt his son kicking and took Thranduil’s hand, placing it upon his belly. “Do you feel it? This is our son.” Lindir whispered, excited. He couldn’t prevent his happy laughter when he saw Thranduil’s goofy grin. “You will make a wonderful ada, meleth nín.” “I hope so. I haven’t any experience with elflings, but I want to learn. I want to give him everything I can; I want him to feel he is precious and wanted.” “I’m sure he will love you. No one who knows you could think differently.” Lindir said, sensing sadness behind Thranduil’s words. He promised to himself that their son’s childhood would be completely different from Thranduil’s. Their son would be loved and cherished. “I’m glad that you think that way. I love you, and I already love him.” Thranduil whispered, hugging Lindir close. He didn’t let Lindir go even when he drifted into reverie. A smile was on his face as he dreamt of a little elfling, who had Lindir’s beautiful eyes and joyous laughter. Chapter 23. It was middle of the night when Lindir woke abruptly. He felt a sharp pain cutting through his body, and he whimpered helplessly. The noise woke his hervenn too, and Thranduil eyed him with concern. “Are you all right, meleth?” Thranduil asked, wiping last remnants of sleep from his eyes. “I… it hurts! You had better go and wake Elrond. I think it is time.” Lindir panted, trying to stifle his pained cries. He didn’t want to worry Thranduil, knowing full well that childbirth wouldn’t be easy. But Lindir reminded himself that he was young and strong; everything will go all right. After a moment’s hesitation, Thranduil left and ran through dark corridors. He knocked at Elrond’s door and quickly explained the situation to the sleepy Peredhel. Then he hurried back, for he didn’t want Lindir to be alone. * * * * Thranduil saw Lindir trying to get up and tried to lift him into his arms, but Lindir refused. “Just help me to walk, saes. It feels much better if I can walk myself.” Lindir said, his face turning into a pained expression. “How are you meleth? Does it hurt much?” Thranduil asked, trying to calm his fright. He felt terrible seeing his beloved Lindir like this. He was relieved only when Elrond hurried into room and requested them to follow him. Lindir walked slowly after Elrond and he was happy that Thranduil was with him. His pain felt much easier to bear when he felt Thranduil’s closeness and silent support. Lindir was scared, but deep in his heart he knew that everything would be all right. Soon, he would give the most precious gift to his beloved hervenn, a son and an heir. Sadron waited for them in the healing wing. Elrond had summoned him before he had gone to Lindir and Thranduil. He welcomed Sadron warmly, grateful that he was there. Sadron had gone through this twice, and his advice was valuable. Elrond was a great healer, but he had never delivered a child born from a male elf. He knew the basics of course, but that was all. Lindir was silently relieved when they finally managed to get to the healing wing. His pain had increased so much, that he knew his time was near. He asked Thranduil to go, but he refused. “I am not leaving you, ind nín. I want to be here for you and to see our son’s birth.” “Are you sure? You have to be strong if you want to be here for Lindir. This is not going to be easy.” Elrond asked, frowning. Usually, he would have requested him to leave, but this situation was unique. Finally, he decided that it was Lindir who should make that decision. “Lindir? What say you? Do you want Thranduil to stay?” Elrond asked. “Are you sure, meleth?” Lindir gasped, trying to stifle his cry. He had to admit that he wanted Thranduil to stay. The mere thought felt heavenly. “I said I won’t leave you ever again. I stay.” Thranduil assured, cradling Lindir in his arms. Thranduil’s heart ached, as he saw Lindir in pain but he had to stay. Lindir needed him now, needed his love and support and he hadn’t any intentions of letting him down. “It feels good to have you close, meleth. Just hold me.” Lindir managed to say, and clung on Thranduil when he felt the waves of pain increasing. “Help him, saes! Is this normal to be in pain like this?” Thranduil whispered, pleading to Elrond and Sadron. Elrond gave his foster-son a little cup of tea, which contained some painkiller in it, but that was all. They just needed to wait. “You have to be patient, Thranduil. I know this is difficult, but your presence and support is the best medicine for him.” Elrond said, smoothing Lindir’s damp brow. The night was the longest in Lindir’s life, but finally Anar rose again. Lindir had been up the whole night, but now he finally was so exhausted that he lay down. Lindir was still tightly in Thranduil’s arms; the fact he was more than grateful for. He felt his whole body stiffening and he screamed. Elrond noticed Lindir’s condition and smiled encouragingly. “That’s it, Lindir. Your son is almost here. All you have to do is to push, as I told you.” Elrond said, but Lindir didn’t hear him. He has focused in tearing pain and his whole body jerked. The pain seemed to last forever, and he panted heavily. Suddenly, Lindir felt a strain fading, and he heard an irate cry echoing in the room. At the next moment, Elrond had a crying little elfling in his arms, and he laughed happily. “Look! Your son, Lindir.” Elrond exclaimed, as he gave the newborn elfling to Lindir. Lindir was exhausted, but he smiled and pulled his son against his chest, kissing his brow. The child calmed and stared at Lindir. “Welcome, mir nín (my treasure).” Lindir whispered, and tears of joy streamed from his eyes. Finally, Lindir raised his gaze and saw Thranduil staring at them. Lindir saw tears in his eyes, too. “Are you all right, meleth?” Thranduil asked anxiously. “I am. Come here, Thranduil nín. Come and greet your son.” Lindir whispered, extending his hand. Thranduil stepped closer, but he still didn’t seem quite convinced. “I… was scared, meleth nín. I felt so helpless when you were in pain, and I couldn’t help you in any way.” He said, a lump in his throat. “But you helped me! You were here, and your closeness gave me strength to bear this. I love you, Thranduil nín and we both are all right.” Finally, Thranduil believed Lindir and leaned closer. He looked at his son, and carefully kissed his cheek. “He is so beautiful, and so are you, Lindir nín.” Thranduil whispered, and kissed Lindir lovingly. “I love you, Thranduil, now more than ever.” “That is all I have to know, and that you both are well.” Thranduil carefully pulled them both into his arms, thinking that here was his whole world, and all that he would ever want. They stirred from their happy haze when Elrond reached to take the child, saying that he needed a bath and nappy. Lindir gave the child reluctantly. Soon the elfling was ready, and slept in Thranduil’s arms. The King stared at his son adoringly, and noticed that the elfling indeed had Lindir’s beautiful blue eyes, but his golden hair. Elrond examined Lindir carefully and made sure that he was well. “You did fine, Lindir. You will quickly be back to health.” Elrond assured, and gave heartfelt congratulations to the new parents. Sadron came also, and gave a hug to his son and a kiss on Lindir’s brow. He was relieved that everything was all right. “Thank you, Sadron. You have been a great friend and support to me.” Lindir smiled at his father-in-law. “It was sheer joy to me, Lindir. Be happy, and enjoy your child and marriage. You deserve that.” Sadron said and followed Elrond, leaving them alone. Thranduil stared at the closed door silently, but then turned his attention back to his mate and son. “So, here we are. We have a beautiful son. I never thought that it was possible to be this happy.” He whispered, a silly smile on his face. “Oh, meleth! I am happy with you two, too.” Lindir said, chuckling. “Have you thought what name you want to give him?” He asked. Thranduil smiled at Lindir and nodded. “Oh, aye! I have decided that long time ago. Our son will be Legolas.” FIN.